Please tell me if i'm right in treating this as OCD

[IncesstantThoughts89]

I don't know if you have read my previous posts regarding thrush, but the short version is I had it a year ago and i'm worried I may have passed it on to a couple of people, i'm worried that they've not had symptoms and passed it on etc as I read somewhere that if a man with a weakened immune system get's thrush it can sometimes spread to their organs an they'll have to go into intensive care. Now my minds whirring thinking I should tell these 2 people lest they pass it on and someone could die because I didn't tell someone because of such and such. I want to fight it as my OCD if that's what it is, but I got this nagging feeling it was the right thing to do which was different from what i've felt before. Plus I read most people realise their OCD is over the top, but I don't feel like I am being over the top? Please help!!

[mummyoftwogirls]

"Most people realise there ocd is over the top "

I've also read this but to be honest most people I read think there worries are valid but somehow realise there not quite viable otherwise we wouldn't post on here right?!! Also the tighter ocd has you wound the more valid your worries feel. As you loosen the grip a little you start to realise they are over the top however you will still doubt , well I do anyway.

Edited July 28, 2014 by mummyoftwogirls

[PolarBear]

This is the third thread you've started on the same obsession. You're looking for reassurance, which is a compulsion.

Resist/stop your compulsions. They include googling thrush, ruminating and seeking reassurance.

[IncesstantThoughts89]

I'll try, it's just so difficult and your right Mummy of Two Girls, it has me tightly wound at the moment, but even when i'm not so tightly wound i'm still thinking I don't feel too over the top. I don't know, that's what it boils down too, it's just so hard to know what to do, if I get over one thought another thought is there to replace it.

I'll try and stop the compulsions Polar Bear, I really am trying, I think i'm just feeling a bit weak at the moment.

[Guest jayjay89]

I don't really get the anxiety from ocd (well I do I suppose but I don't feel it) but things just feel right or wrong for me, which is my ocd.

Ie. I shouldn't eat that because it's been too close to that person - that feels right to me, but for a normal person that is just bizarre

[PolarBear]

Jay, that fits. The thing is how would you feel if you did eat that? You'd probably be filled with anxiety so you avoid the food (a compulsion) to ensure you don't feel bad.

[Guest jayjay89]

I don't feel bad though, when I'm eating it, and I don't worry after eating it, I just don't want to eat it in the first place lol. I think I've lost the plot (more than usual)

Like on Friday I ate that hamburger, i really didn't want to eat it, but I did and felt fine while eating it

[PolarBear]

That's a good thing!

[IncesstantThoughts89]

Yeah I guess, it's just things seem so messed up in my head at the moment I don't know what to think and I do have this anxiety sitting at the back of me, it tends to go away for a while whilst i'm playing my game. The thing is when I don't get anxious, I feel worried about not being worried that I do start getting anxious.

I guess now that i'm relaxed if pushed i'd say I am being over the top however even as i'm typing this it's like do you feel like that, I don't think you are. Bloody stupid OCD, 9 years and i'm just stuck in the same cycle, just different thoughts :/

[mummyoftwogirls]

At least you realise that , you do have some insight. To be honest what other choice do you have ? Start unwinding the ocd or carry on the way you are let's face it you don't feel good at the moment anyway ;-)

[IncesstantThoughts89]

Your right I'll fight this, I have Well Being team helping me now so hopefully i'll finally be able to tackle this OCD and future OCD's and better my life in the process I have no other choice, I have to beat this

[mummyoftwogirls]

That's the attitude x