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im a kid facing ocd alone... what should i expect?


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Hi, I don't really want to share my name but I will say that I am 12, and I just discovered I have ocd, the first instance of it happening that I remember is telling myself I had to hop from sofa to sofa or a Minster will come and get me, I was about 6. In primary school I always stayed behind to arrange the pencils to the right colours after brake and if somebody scratched their hands down sompething , I'd have to push my hand up in the opposite direction. I also used to never wNt to let go of my rubbish and used to secretly store it all behind my desk. I've experienced tics all my life. I went through a phase where I felt of I didn't pray very regularly I would go to he'll which I was and still kinda am terrified of. My mind makes up scary images for me at night. Ive sorta taught myself to ignore them though. By myself I suspected I had it so I went online and took around 7-10 tests and they all said I had it. I also read stories of kids online having the exact same problem. I told my gran, then eventually my mum when she asked about the tics about it and she said well see what we can do. I have urges to do thing like touch somepething, hit sompething or do sompething stupid even though I'd never do that. Itseemms so real as it is I'm not getting any treatment and I'm alone. I feel awkward talking about it to peaple. I've read that it worsens so what should I expect when I go to collage and stuff. Also I'm terrified of my dad finding out, I don't know why. What do YOU peaple out there think. Thanks :original: -mrkid2001

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Guest mrkid2001

No they haven't. I will probably have to find a way to deal with the tics and hoarding problems on my own, I haven't really proply told anybody about the images and urges but I refused to go on a cruise holiday because I might throw sompething over the side once.

I tell myself that I can be afraid of these images all my life if I want to but nothing's ever gonna happen so I MAY as well not bother with them. Now that I know i have OCD I might recognize things that are happening because of it and that might help. I went to therapy once for tics and I was stressing so much about what might happen if I don't do this and that, for example I thought: if I don't put down my pencil and count to 3 I will die and stuff but the lady was stupid, she just got a group and told them to tell me I was being weird when I was. That didn't help my self asteem at all but I managed to try and keep it quiet and let it out when I was alone for a while, and what the lady did next.was hand out certificates to me and the group saying I went to therapy and what my problem was and that I resolved it. Everyone I'm my class saw! I think that's why I didn't want to tell anyone really about it incase there was a repeat. Its kinda scary for me knowing there's sompething wrong with me and I'm not normal :/ but hey ho the sooner I accept it the better. I try and put myself in situations where things that I don't Luke occur because I read that the best thing to do is try and get bored with them so I tried watching some scary films to try and get bored of the images in my head and it kinda worked! But they still scare me , just a little less. I just hope it doesn't change the way peaple think of me. What do you think? P.S: thanks for replying it means a lot

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Hey mrkid

Well done for opening up and finding this site.

Do you think you would feel comfortable talking to a doctor? Your brave to be dealing with it alone although I can understand your previous experience may of put you off.

Hope you get some support

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Hi MrKid

I'm sorry you didn't get therapy that helped you, that's not your fault but there are people out there who can help you properly. Your Mum and Gran really could be helpful here and seeing your Doctor would be the best.

OCD is very complicated and lots of people don't really understand it very well. It might be that your Mum and Gran don't either....that's not their fault, it's probably something they don't know much about either....but you need someone to help you with this at 12.

It's very late now but I'll have a look around tomorrow and see if I can post you some links that you could perhaps show to your family to help them realise how much proper support is necessary to you. You're just 12 and with the right help can learn to overcome and get beyond this. There's lots of hope for a much better future for you, don't try and do this alone.

Caramoole :)

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Guest Sally44

I just wanted to say that you sound like a really smart, likeable kid who is working out some good insights into OCD and how it affects you.

Although it must be very hard to talk to people about OCD [specifically the scary bits and the thoughts], maybe you could just say to your mum/gran that you think you have OCD and would like to see the doctor so that he can refer you to a professional that can help you with this. You don't have to go into great detail with mum/grain about your obsessions or compulsions at that stage.

You need them to ask for a referal to a professionals that has experience of diagnosing and working with children with OCD. That will probably be a Clinical Psychologist as they deliver therapy. If CAHMS psychiatrist is suggested you need your mum to ask if they deliver therapy or just medication.

My son is 13 and has OCD [and started with OCD/Anxiety/tics etc when he was much younger, when he started primary school]. He is also on the autistic spectrum and so struggles to communicate his anxiety. He also has similar thoughts to those you've described.

If possible, try to remember that those "thoughts" are just that - only thoughts caused by OCD. It does not mean you are a bad person, or that something bad is going to happen, or that you are going to carry out any of the thoughts you have.

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Hi Mrkid

You've done great finding and posting here and working so much out by yourself.

Chatting to your Gran/Mum again is a good idea. Maybe too there is a teacher or group leader you could confide in or maybe a school nurse. I hope you are able to get the support you need.

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Hello..i feel you are a brave kid..sorry ua having problem ..but for a brave boy like u nothing could be impossible..u pray to God once to solve your problem,and take help of your mom n gran to overcome ocd k...n you are not alone..all the best..brave kid

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