please help,dont want to be here

[GG150]

I overcame thoughts about bad things happening like going pass a doorway and thinking of someone dying. NOW the thoughts are pocd stuff. I have thoughts which make me feel sick and i keep away from my niece due to fear. When i have these thoughts i would automatically think of a woman who i like and fantasy over her. Basically fixing the thought. i often fear about arousal with causes groinal response which is killing me like erections and even a random ejucation a rare time. Can anyone give advice in how to cope and live with it. Dont think i can take it much longer. It keeps getting worse

[Guest PalaeontologyLover]

I'm having severe anxiety at the moment over incest thoughts I think we just have to remind ourselves its ocd not us. I had a horrible dream about it now I'm really anxious n can't get back to sleep, I feel really uncomfortable in a house full of my family hope you're feeling okay

[Symps07]

By 'fixing' the thought, you are ruminating, going over the same thought again & again. By doing this you are giving the OCD meaning, the same goes for avoiding your niece. Exposure treatment works by exposing yourself to things that cause you anxiety & allowing your anxiety to level out & decrease on its own.

[GG150]

But how do you deal with a tiny bit of ejucation or erection that comes from nowhere. I mean morally its so scary and when i leave a bus or tht if am out and i have a thought i try and make a excuse to go back on or i deal with .the last time i was on tht bus i had this pocd thought. If that makes sense. Then am anxious. had a thought going out of bus from last week that still gives me shivers as i never done it properly

[Symps07]

But how do you deal with a tiny bit of ejucation or erection that comes from nowhere. I mean morally its so scary and when i leave a bus or tht if am out and i have a thought i try and make a excuse to go back on or i deal with .the last time i was on tht bus i had this pocd thought. If that makes sense. Then am anxious. had a thought going out of bus from last week that still gives me shivers as i never done it properly

Groinal spasms are not uncommon (I used to get them), it's all part of your mind/body but is still caused by your OCD.

[GG150]

How did u deal with it? Has your pocd thoughts left ya? My thoughts are i same them naked but thts it and its horrible. But read people have even worse than tht but i feel if i continue fixing the thoughts and doing my rituals the thoughts will get even worse. I just cant accept them its morally destroying me and if yourself or anyone else can give me advice and how to accept please do.its killing me. Would be so grateful.

[GG150]

Also..am like walking then look up and see my neighbour kid and bang i would get a groinal response what do i do? with my last post and this.. how do i accept this and pocd thoughts?

[PolarBear]

You just let the thoughts happen and don't attach any meaning to them. You can't directly control the intrusive thoughts. They just happen. You can control attaching meaning to the thoughts. It takes lots of practice but you can reach a point where you do not perform compulsions after getting intrusive thoughts and you leave them alone and just let them be.

Over time doing so will make the thoughts seem less threatening.

[GG150]

Will the thoughts go though if i stop the rituals and fixing them?.. will take everything in me to accept them and hope it wont be for nothing. Would rather have the rituals than have these thoughts. There killing me

[Symps07]

How did u deal with it? Has your pocd thoughts left ya? My thoughts are i same them naked but thts it and its horrible. But read people have even worse than tht but i feel if i continue fixing the thoughts and doing my rituals the thoughts will get even worse. I just cant accept them its morally destroying me and if yourself or anyone else can give me advice and how to accept please do.its killing me. Would be so grateful.

By exposing myself to the thoughts & not fixing or carrying out rituals. The thoughts will come anyway, so you might as well focus on them. It'll be hard, but you'll soon see these thoughts don't lead anywhere. There just thoughts.

[Guest HeadAboveWater]

Will the thoughts go though if i stop the rituals and fixing them?.. will take everything in me to accept them and hope it wont be for nothing. Would rather have the rituals than have these thoughts. There killing me

Trust me, I know how you feel. I have been suffering from this for the last 8 months and I am still constantly having new doubts, images, questions, thoughts and groinal responses. It is disturbing and demoralizing. It makes me feel like a horrible person and sometimes I feel as if somehow they are true. The past few weeks were horrible and I was having panic attacks nearly every single day due to the fear of these intrusive thoughts. Yesterday I felt so clear and I could see that they were OCD and I treated them as such. Doing that allowed me to limit my compulsions and ruminating and questioning myself. At the moment, I am struggling again, as I woke up with intrusive thoughts and a groinal response. I know that I have made my OCD worse by doing compulsions and ruminating/trying to figure out what these thoughts mean for the past 8 months. You need to stop it now or it will get much worse, really, it will. Good luck, GG.

[Guest HeadAboveWater]

By exposing myself to the thoughts & not fixing or carrying out rituals. The thoughts will come anyway, so you might as well focus on them. It'll be hard, but you'll soon see these thoughts don't lead anywhere. There just thoughts.

How long did you suffer from POCD, Symps? Were you ever getting convinced or having thoughts/urges like you wanted to masturbate or do these things?

Edited December 21, 2014 by HeadAboveWater

[Symps07]

How long did you suffer from POCD, Symps? Were you ever getting convinced or having thoughts/urges like you wanted to masturbate or do these things?

I suffered for about 13 years, but once I started treatment I had them under control after a few months.

I had times when I thought I was a repressed pedo who didn't want to admit the truth & I hated myself.

Doing exposure techniques was when I broke through the OCD 'illusion', & I discovered ruminating on the thoughts was a waste of time. You either are or you arn't, you'll never know unless you try exposure.

Edited December 21, 2014 by Symps07

[Guest HeadAboveWater]

I suffered for about 13 years, but once I started treatment I had them under control after a few months.

I had times when I thought I was a repressed pedo who didn't want to admit the truth & I hated myself.

Doing exposure techniques was when I broke through the OCD 'illusion', & I discovered ruminating on the thoughts was a waste of time. You either are or you arn't, you'll never know unless you try exposure.

What types of exposures did you do for this theme? I am starting exposure therapy this week. I am looking forward to it because at the moment I have much more clarity that this is all OCD and I just want to fully get past this theme.

[Symps07]

I had to make a list of the different OCD thoughts I was having & rate them from the ones that caused me the most anxiety to those that caused me the least anxiety.

So I started by exposing myself to the lesser anxiety causing ones & then work my way up the list.

Once you start, you'll soon realise how these are just thoughts & you will soon start to overcome them :original:

[GG150]

Yeh heads. The groinal response is the scariest good luck to. Think if we can beat this theme we can overcome ocd as personally this is the worse in my view,

Symps, do you ever get the pocd thoughts today since ye said ye overcome it? Do they lessen or totally go. I have them mainly when am gonna do something like sending this for example.

I just feel if i have a thought it must be real and any groinal response am like fixing them the second i get one. Or everything i do till i sort it like buy a dvd, that thought will be assoicated with the dvd if makes sense.

[Guest HeadAboveWater]

Yeh heads. The groinal response is the scariest good luck to. Think if we can beat this theme we can overcome ocd as personally this is the worse in my view,

Symps, do you ever get the pocd thoughts today since ye said ye overcome it? Do they lessen or totally go. I have them mainly when am gonna do something like sending this for example.

I just feel if i have a thought it must be real and any groinal response am like fixing them the second i get one. Or everything i do till i sort it like buy a dvd, that thought will be assoicated with the dvd if makes sense.

I also think that if I can beat this theme then I will have completely beaten OCD because this is BY FAR the worst obsession I have ever had.