Guest Nikki79 Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Just wondering when is a good time to start practicing not engaging in my compulsions. I am troubled by a worry at the moment and it wont go away. I cant easily let it go and then i know to ultimately recover no matter i have to let it all go. How does one be courageous really? Link to comment
Ascend Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 It's always a good time Nikki =). Link to comment
Guest Nikki79 Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Hey friend all i can manage is to ignore but still doubtful and scared so much! I dream of waking up with no worry or fear! I dunno how to accept this disorder but im constantly nervous leaving these thoughts and worries go Link to comment
Caramoole Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Just wondering when is a good time to start practicing not engaging in my compulsions Now Link to comment
Guest Azamour Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Sounds like you're doing better louise at least. It is really scary letting go Link to comment
Symps07 Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Now I agree with Caramoole, I've been ruminating like crazy all day, I need to stop fueling these thoughts. Easier said than done, we can try stopping at the same time! :original: Link to comment
Ascend Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Yup it's very difficult to begin with. I almost fell into a trap this morning because I got a bit drunk last night and forgot a few hours. Oh and I think I tried to kiss an ex-girlfriend lol. A year ago this would have set the tone for months of distress trying to figure out whether I had done something out of character or harmed someone. You can have all the knowledge and logic in the world about OCD but it can still catch you with your guard down if you're not careful. Link to comment
Guest Nikki79 Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 I just have a particularly scary thought that fills me with terror and ruminating might solve it but i cant or mustnt as it may not and make it worse Link to comment
Guest Nikki79 Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Its hard too as other stresses are making my anxiety worse Link to comment
Symps07 Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 I just have a particularly scary thought that fills me with terror and ruminating might solve it but i cant or mustnt as it may not and make it worse The ruminating will just increase your anxiety & definetly make it worse, try finding a distraction. Link to comment
Guest PaulM Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 (edited) That's true, stress makes OCD and anxiety in general worse. But remember, "Just because I feel I am X, doesn't mean I am X." Edited December 19, 2014 by PaulM Link to comment
PolarBear Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 The best time to start is now. Link to comment
Guest Nikki79 Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Im scared i cant leave this thought alone Link to comment
PolarBear Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Leave it alone anyway and carry on. You know what to do. Link to comment
Guest Nikki79 Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Im worried i did something around a particular child i hate to even say what but i have no recollection of it! Link to comment
PolarBear Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Im worried i did something around a particular child i hate to even say what but i have no recollection of it! You know what to do. Link to comment
Guest Nikki79 Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 You know what to do. Why cant i do it then Link to comment
Ascend Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 To make something happen you have to want to make it happen. Why do you want to get better Nikki? Link to comment
Guest Nikki79 Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 To make something happen you have to want to make it happen. Why do you want to get better Nikki? I want to discover who Nicola is again, smile, feel joy, laugh. I want to make my own life away from the situations, people etc that helped does this to me. I never deserved the suffering ive had and the lack of empathy from important people in my life. I want to move on. I want to be ocd free. Link to comment
Ascend Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Well Nicola, whenever you're feeling like OCD is getting the better of you I ask you to remind yourself just why you're still fighting toward recovery. Use that strength to keep up the fight and you'll discover the smiling, joyful Nicola that you've longed to have. Link to comment
Guest Nikki79 Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Well Nicola, whenever you're feeling like OCD is getting the better of you I ask you to remind yourself just why you're still fighting toward recovery. Use that strength to keep up the fight and you'll discover the smiling, joyful Nicola that you've longed to have. I get these depressive thoughts about the child i had thoughts about. Im worried there are so many that there is something to them. I feel guilty and there must be a reason. Its horrible and whats worse is i cant even explain it Link to comment
Guest Nikki79 Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Keep thinking when the child held onto my leg and i felt strange feelings and moved towards her at one stage. It was like a test, scared bout that still Link to comment
Caramoole Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Nikki.....you're slipping into ruminating. Realise what you're doing and do your best to nip it in the bud before it gets a grip. These moments are going to keep happening,t ry to get used to recognising them and not getting pulled in. Link to comment
Guest Nikki79 Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Ok Caramoole but im being hounded by the feeling of unease with the thoughts and feelings i have and had about this particular girl. I feel negligent for ignoring it. Do you see Link to comment
Caramoole Posted December 19, 2014 Share Posted December 19, 2014 Do you see I see that you're slipping into ruminating and not calling on all that we've talked about. im being hounded by the feeling of unease with the thoughts and feelings i have and had about this particular girl We've talked about how this is going to happen, that it's something you have to expect, haven't we? As for the girl....you don't need to explain anything about her, it's unimportant, the details are unimportant. So.....be aware of what's creeping in here and try to do something at this stage. Resist the urge that's plugging away at you. These are the points where you can try to make gains Link to comment
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