Phili Posted April 18, 2015 Share Posted April 18, 2015 (edited) I'm obsessed with it. I have some very mild stress pains in my chest but I have been obsessed with it for some time. I am frightened it is irregular. My brother has checked it and he says its normal. But I had a skipped beat when very anxious and then I couldn't focus on it and it seemed to me to be hopping all over the place and now I hum when he beats and because I can't focus on it, of course it sounds however I want it too. I was asleep and thought it was hopping all over the place but I am pretty sure it was a dream, it was fine when I had by panic attack Edited April 18, 2015 by Phili Link to comment
gingerbreadgirl Posted April 18, 2015 Share Posted April 18, 2015 Hi Phili, as others have said, writing about your bodily sensations and worries is a compulsion and will only make things worse. What are you hoping to achieve by writing that here? X Link to comment
Guest Heryn. Posted April 18, 2015 Share Posted April 18, 2015 Right, it tricks me Hi Phili You're doing well recognising OCD thoughts. Keep it up. Link to comment
Phili Posted April 19, 2015 Author Share Posted April 19, 2015 I have chest pain, there is pressure and then this sort of burning, sore sensation, its more a discomfort than anything else but it is pain Link to comment
Caramoole Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 You're doing it again Phili. It's guaranteed to keep you stuck with this until you change tack. Link to comment
Phili Posted April 19, 2015 Author Share Posted April 19, 2015 Ah! i'm trying, have i improved? Link to comment
Caramoole Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 Ah! i'm trying, have i improved? A lot of work to put in....over and over again Link to comment
Phili Posted April 19, 2015 Author Share Posted April 19, 2015 (edited) My head is so light when I stand up its horrible, it feels like I'm walking on air and I have pressure again My head is really light and I have the trembles, its so frightening Edited April 19, 2015 by Phili Link to comment
Phili Posted April 19, 2015 Author Share Posted April 19, 2015 (edited) I am in a constant state of anxiety and its worse when I stand and is scaring me. When I stand at the mo, my chest goes tight, my eyes blur over and I can feel the anxiety building. My body feels heavy particularly my arms and I feel weak. The more I walk up and down the more the anxiety builds and the more I feel like I can't walk up and down, can any relate? I keep fearing I will be too weak to stand up Edited April 19, 2015 by Phili Link to comment
Phili Posted April 19, 2015 Author Share Posted April 19, 2015 I feel too weak to eat but I'm not, its a horrible feeling Link to comment
Caramoole Posted April 20, 2015 Share Posted April 20, 2015 So are you going to try and use any of the advice that's been suggested or are you going to keep repeating compulsions that are known to make matters worse? You have a big role to play in this Phili and constantly typing out details of every bodily symptom will only make things a great deal worse. Whilst we all know how compelling this feels, the forum isn't really here as a platform to carry out compulsions, no matter how strong the urge is. It's akin to allowing someone to attend an AA meeting with a bottle of whisky to swig to help steady their nerves. It just wouldn't be allowed. We can't stop you doing compulsions, we can only suggest that you should work on trying to reduce them....but we do become increasingly concerned when users use the forum as a platform to carry out compulsions constantly. One of the Moderators closed a thread a couple of days ago because of this problem, as did I, and if it gets to a stage where it's happening excessively again we will have to consider a similar decision. You've got to work on this Phili if you want to make any progress Link to comment
Phili Posted April 20, 2015 Author Share Posted April 20, 2015 I know I know, I am trying...its so hard Link to comment
Caramoole Posted April 20, 2015 Share Posted April 20, 2015 I know I know, I am trying...its so hard You don't need to convince me I've had OCD longer than you've lived but that also qualifies me to know a little about what's futile and what's not. You really have to work at putting the advice into practise and going up a gear.....otherwise, there's no point asking for the advice. It has to be implemented. At the moment, you're not doing that Phili. You're increasing the behaviours known to make things worse. The good thing (and the bad thing [if you're procrastinating]) about a forum like this is that you're talking to people who do know what it feels like, who have experienced the same things and despite that, whatever the explanations, however hard it is....know what has to be done to improve. That advice remains the same....however hard. Link to comment
Phili Posted April 20, 2015 Author Share Posted April 20, 2015 I have had many of these symptoms before but I didn't have health OCD or I had my Mum and she would snap her fingers and make everything go away Link to comment
Caramoole Posted April 20, 2015 Share Posted April 20, 2015 You have my sympathy and it must be very tough without your Mum, I know......but sadly, OCD-Wise, things remain the same. The advice remains the same and without changing behaviour....the outcome remains the same. It's a tough, nasty world sometimes.....I know that, it's a hard slog. But we still have to heed the advice or we stay well and truly stuck Link to comment
Phili Posted April 20, 2015 Author Share Posted April 20, 2015 I am trying, Like I got up for the loo and my chest was tight but ignored it and after a few seconds, it wasn't as tight anymore Link to comment
joanne123 Posted April 20, 2015 Share Posted April 20, 2015 Just wanted to say I know how hard things are as I am currently struggling too. My ocd is different but I am still drinking to much to try and cope and have lots of problems to overcome. I hope you can get through this good luck Link to comment
Phili Posted April 20, 2015 Author Share Posted April 20, 2015 One patch of skin on my left arm has lost feeling when I had an anxiety attack why sleeping and the arm has gone stiff Link to comment
joanne123 Posted April 20, 2015 Share Posted April 20, 2015 Think you need to stop posting now and try to get over these fears on your own as no amount of people telling you will make any difference believe me i have had endless reassurance and it won`t help i know you have to do it i know i am not sure if i can but i am trying and if you don`t you will never get better as reassurance will only help in the short term but the hard work unfortunately has to come from us. I t is not easy and i think it is the worst illness as you have to get yourself better but it is achievable as caramoole has done and she is the one i always think of when struggling i think that she has inspired me and it is possible with hard work yes but try not putting anything on here distract yourself and find you have the strength to do this and be determined as if you want help the only one that can do that is looking back at you in the mirror. Link to comment
Phili Posted April 20, 2015 Author Share Posted April 20, 2015 (edited) Please stop deleting my posts. I have numbness in my legs, its very unpleasant, I can walk fine but the skin in numb, I was looking for advice on easing it and wondering if anyone can relate. I have been massaging it, I can't even sleep I'm tired and exhausted and not coping Edited April 20, 2015 by Phili Link to comment
PolarBear Posted April 20, 2015 Share Posted April 20, 2015 You are currently hyperaware of bodily sensations because you are fixated on them. You are concentrating on every feeling in your body so naturally you will notice every little thing like its a big deal. What you need to do is get your mind off those sensations and get it working on something else. Link to comment
Phili Posted April 20, 2015 Author Share Posted April 20, 2015 (edited) But they are numbish, in particular the side laying on the bed, the skin under my knee on the calf is really, really numb...I hate this, I just want some peace for a while Edited April 20, 2015 by Phili Link to comment
PolarBear Posted April 20, 2015 Share Posted April 20, 2015 Get up and go for a walk. Do something else. Link to comment
Phili Posted April 20, 2015 Author Share Posted April 20, 2015 (edited) You mean distract myself? I've had this before, numb patches on skin are quiet common for me but not for a while and not with health OCD and never been this aware of it, its been a long time since my nerves hit this point Edited April 20, 2015 by Phili Link to comment
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