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Life is very cruel :sad: . If only I had been aborted or somehow died before I was born, things would be so much better. I know I may not be the only one suffering, since people tend to hide their problems, but the reason I am convinced that my situation is far worse than just the above-average troubles is because it gets to a point where you just can't hide it anymore no matter how hard you try. I hid my problems for many years, under fake smiles and laughter.... but lately I just can't smile or laugh anymore. I can't even hide my miserable face anymore. This ocd, depression, social anxiety, low self-esteem, body dysmorphic, etc., and life in general have gone too far. I've also faced many of the worst hardships and heartbreaks in life as well.... "friends" that betray(very common), discrimination, bullying, unfair treatment, epic academic failures, etc. Why couldn't I just have cancer or other terminal disease??? Why does life have to be so cruel!!?? :weep:

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Guest worriedmum

Hey Chipre

Sorry you're feeling so low at the moment. OCD, depression and anxiety are terrible things to have to go through but you don't have to face it alone, do you have family and friends that you can talk to there? Are you getting any help/treatment at the moment?

What kind of things do you enjoy doing? Do you do any sports? Like to watch movies/play games?

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My parents know, and try to help me.... but I don't really trust other people at school. However, I still don't let my emotions out, and it's kinda hard to do. I used to let it out at night, but for some reason I can't seem to cry anymore..... the pain is still there though. Unfortunately, I have been getting help for so long, and I've been tried with many different medicines, but none seem to work yet. As more and more medicines prove ineffective, the more hope I lose. I also tried CBT, but my conditio was way too severe, that the therapist recommended that I take medicine to help lower the symptons.

Unfortunately, I am not able to do any sports because of the ocd, but I do enjoy watching movies with my family once in a while. I also enjoy going on different websites. I don't really do much since I'm always sleepy, so many times I just fall asleep.

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Hi. Life is horrible. I've gone through all sorts of pains and I have very strange compulsions like having to go to a weird website with trippy art :( The doctors don't know what to do to me anymore. I also have severe ice blepharospasm and the doctor says there may be no cure! Oh, and I'm not smart. Life just slaps me around every day.

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Thanks, I actually do know I'm strong, but I just don't know how to get out of the ocd and many other problems. Most people at school for example, are afraid of that website with trippy art :( that I mentioned earlier, but i'm not afraid of it and I go there very often. I don't know if that's a good thing, but I also don't cry. I can't. I am probably the most bitter person alive, especially since me and a group of people(on reddit.com) believed the electricity was gonna go out worldwide on 4/30/15, but since it didn't happen, now I'm kinda upset. Yeah, I know, I wish I was never born and I view life as pure torture. Literally, I have gone through almost all the bad things in life that anyone can go through.

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It's kind of hard to explain, but mostly it's.... like surrealistic or imaginary. Most people are afraid of it though or think it's bad. But I'm not sure.

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Guest Origibark

Those of us with this condition just have more challenges, so be more happy you can endure a hard mode of life.

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