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I feel like a prisoner trapped inside my own body, with the ugliness keeping the real me locked inside, and i dont know how to escape. I hate being this person, im so envious of people who can accept what they look like, no matter what their flaws may be. I just don't understand how people can do that, i long so much to be like that!

i just don't want to look like this anymore :(

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Yea i went to a support group and it was really great, but then afterwards all i could think was how all the other people there just looked like normal people, and how maybe i don't actually even have bdd because my flaws are real whereas their's weren't and that maybe i actually am just really ugly and that other people see the ugliness too.

Im seeing a new therapist next week so hopefully that will help. Im just having a bad day today, but hopefully tomorrow will be better :)

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aww emmie.You are so wrong to think that you aren't beautiful.I don't want this to sound inappropriate but honestly you are so pretty.It's no doubt at all that your bdd is causing you to feel that way.

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I expect the first meeting would be the hardest and don't forget that bdd patients ALWAYS think their fears are real even when they aren't(although mine are obviously lol)(not so sure about the lol part there though). :original:

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Yea i went to a support group and it was really great, but then afterwards all i could think was how all the other people there just looked like normal people, and how maybe i don't actually even have bdd because my flaws are real whereas their's weren't and that maybe i actually am just really ugly and that other people see the ugliness too.

They're probably thinking the exact same thing. Stay strong. I know this is painful for you.

Are you going out? Maybe that will make you feel better. That's your bf's job. :)

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Emmie.They say that some people with BDD can think there is something wrong about what they see with their face in the mirror when there isn't and others just worry far too much about minor defects.I hope you don't mind me saying but I thought I can see that you are in the category where you see something wrong when it isn't.You are so young and pretty and everyone who looks at you would think the same.I know we are not supposed to give assurance but I thought it might be helpful for you to just bear in mind that how you appear to yourself isn't at all how you appear to others.I hope things improve for you in the next few days :original:

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Thanks guys, im feeling much better now :)

Yas - its my skin and the dark circles under my eyes which are my main issues - both of which you can't see in the photo because of the tons of make up i have on!

I know everything you are saying is true, but unfortunately it doesn't change how i feel about myself, i wish it did, but it doesn't. Reassurance in my case doesn't help, because when i look in the mirror im still going to see those things which i don't like, no matter what people say.

I try not to look to closely at celebs, as i know how they look probably isn't how they actually look in real life! Its just normal every day people i compare myself to, people whose flaws i can see, people who might even have dark circles under their eyes or bad skin like i do, but yet still look attractive. Its the people who have these flaws and yet still somehow look beautiful that get to me the most, as the flaws look ok on them, but on me they look hideous and i don't know why!

Its just something I've got to try and accept and learn to live with i guess, and thats what im working on...trying to accept that this is how i look.

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Hi Emmie.I'm with Yasmine.I was at a loss to work out what it could have been you didn't like about yourself but even now you've said I still don't see it.I suppose all you can do is try to accept that others won't see it either and are being honest.It's such a shame you feel bad anyway.You should be as vain as owt. :D

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