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  1. I do understand how you feel& that feels bruces, but looking at this you have unfortunately lost your job because of poor health not because of you as a person or being incompetent.I do understand the feelings of guilt you have trust me I had them& do have them still myself at times even though we shouldn't have them it is difficult to shrug them off.But we can try our best to fight them as much as possible, you saying you can't be a mechanic again due to your OCD that may be true in a way at the moment because of how unwell you're right now but only because your health currently not when you get better because when you get better you'll no doubt be able to deal with things much better.Yes of course I do understand it's so hard to see right now because you understandably are struggling to see the light but trust me you persevering& gradually you will make the breakthrough. I think it is hard to see because you see yourself unable to find any pleasure with life which is so true when you're in such deep depression,but let's look at you if correct you're trying to feel better listening& watching the football,going to speedway,also you mentioned doing the course in helping to deal with depression,ocd& Anxiety better in regards to you when working,a recent thread topic of yours was about CBT so just these few examples& I can note more from you indicates that you certainly are trying that's for sure try to look at that as best as you can I know it's hard right now because of how depressed you're my friend :original: .
  2. Thanks very much for your reply JMS I really appreciate it so much I know people are very busy :original: , Thanks very much for your advice I was getting a bit worried I guess as it was a bit distressing the other day& wondered if I was doing it right I guess? :original: .
  3. Hey there Bruces do you honestly think if you could return to your old job that would fix everything? I'm just thinking that all, maybe you can contact them sometime with a nice letter of you wanting to return there& write everything how you truly feel about that job& how it makes you feel & what you would do to return back there.I think this may help perhaps because nothing is impossible remember that ok my friend :original: .I know you're trying very hard I know also when I was so severely depressed as you're for many years I tried doing everything also you name it in the hope that it will help me& make me feel better but it didn't work because just like you the depression& everything else were just too strong really but you keep on trying I can see you're doing your very best :original: .
  4. Wow I thought maybe one reply but it doesn't really matter :original: .
  5. I do understand how tough it is bruces when you've been so depressed& unwell for so long it is tough to have positive thoughts even that you're trying very hard to have them& do what helps you etc etc :original: .
  6. Well yesterday i caught up with one of my close friends it had been a while it was great as usual& I tried my best to do what usually helps.It got quite challenging as there was mention of a couple friends of ours who I haven't seen in a while are currently overseas& the reason it was challenging was because some years back when i had my big major breakdown I was meant to go overseas on a much anticipated trip with close friends of mine.Anyway how it ended up I didn't go then as I was so badly depressed& the OCD got relly so bad at the time & for some time after that,as time passed it gradually got easier but still there were moments the past came back & really distressed me. Yesterday well as soon as i heard mention the two friends were overseas it immediately triggered me& I did my best to challenge those thoughts& bring myself back in the moment,I felt all was fine really I seemed ok but later on in the night it felt it was still there & even trying to watch the Belgian formula 1 grand prix it reminded me of europe etc etc the triggers just seemed to overwhelm me some way.I still continued to try& do what usually helps but I was feeling quite down& just having the thoughts come into my mind I won't go into them really,I just don't know what else to do really when these moments take hold really I know they may not be very frequent as they used to be but when they do take hold they get so strong& I feel I don't know what to do really?.
  7. Bruces I understand it's not working for you right now but this isn't because you aren't trying it's clearly because your depression,OCD&Anxiety are all so strong I know the feeling you have is it just doesn't work & i can't do this& all the emotions attatched to the severity of your conditions/illnesses right now& how clearly the depression is clouding your thinking& your mind :original: .It does take a lot of time to change your thinking because remember how you're now really didn't happen overnight it took a number of years,it is a lot of hard work& I totally understand the thoughts it is too much to do& I can't do this etc etc but you can& will do this it just really takes so much energy,time& everything else in your power you may think& i understand that you can't do this but you can& I know it because one big reason you've battled with all this struggling for so long& have taken so much so clearly it shows what strength you really have within& I'm not just saying this my friend but I truly mean it honestly :original: .
  8. Spot on Trish very well said :original: , no doubt the thoughts of guilt are never ever easy to switch off completely at all& very well said that they're virtually impossible to switch off totally because no doubt we'll always get them.I think we have to do our best to manage them when they do come as best as we possibly can& like you siad trying to keep busy as much as we can,use mindfulness techniques,helpful response strategies/techniques etc etc.No doubt this still won't be an easy walk in the park whentrying to combat the thoughts but it certainly can help no doubt that's for sure :original: .
  9. Hey there loz I'm really sorry to hear how you're feeling hun I totally understand the thoughts you're having :original: , Try your best to be kind to yourself try to maybe have a response to the thoughts when they come up maybe say it's the oCD again I know it is I know it's there I'm going to try& not give it power I know it's the illness telling me for e.g the thoughts of guilt,my parents hating me etc etc but I know in truth it's the illness telling me these irrational thoughts& it's not reality at all :original: .
  10. I think that guilt can be very common in depression/OCD as we may feel we've let down various people in our lives,it is hard I have to say to shrug it off.I'm certainly not saying we should be feeling guilty,I know it still can be difficult for me personally even til now even feeling a lot better.I say maybe try as best as possible to have a response to the feelings of guilt or whatever they may be to you for e.g I feel so guilty I've let down so many people/I've failed at life I'm just a big burden to everyone the response would be yes I do feel like this but really I shouldn't I've been very unwell & it hasn't been my fault I haven't done this out of intention to let people down at all see if this may help at all hopefully it maybe does :original: .
  11. Well done bruces I think this is an excellent idea, yeah I do understand your thoughts on this but I'm sure it will be as comforting as possible for the people in the class no doubt& everyone will be put at ease as much as possible.No doubt the teachers,facilitator(s) who are conducting this class will have extensive experience& you'll notice ln no time you'll feel at ease I'm sure so well done again you're doing great work again keep it up :original: .
  12. Hey there bruces well done good idea how about getting a dog? That would be great as a pet is always helpful for us& I like to congratulate you for trying so hard& trying to exlore all your options don't give up ok my friend keep looking into anything/everything because there is so much out there that can& or will help you :original: .
  13. Hey there Ollie I'm very sorry to hear how you've been doing my friend,please try not to lose heart you'll get back on track in no time you're doing a great job I know these setback can be hard to deal with & distressing but try not to be hard on yourself that's for sure ok this will no doubt pass for you& you use the forum(s) anytime you need ok I hope you're feeling much better today :original: .
  14. Hey there bruces I do understand how you're feeling about the past& all the obsessional thoughts& ruminations that are making you feel guilty,I know it's not easy to really stop& or slow down especially when you're so unwell.I just wanted to say please try to be kinder to yourself you didn't mean to leave your old job you thought it was the best thing for you at the time.Hey also why not maybe see sometime they probably will take you back when you're good & ready,I'm sure you're a great person to have working for their company. I know it's not easy to get into the hobbies you usually would love,I know you're trying your damn best when you're so depressed it's never easy to really make so much progress because the strength of your illnesses at the moment.Are you seeing a Psychiatrist& or Psychologist right now? If not are you able to try& see somebody please go to talk to them even if it's someone new,I know you don't feel like it but see if you can get to tell them everything I think you really need an urgent review of your meds also as well :original: .
  15. Hey there bruces I understand fully how you're feeling, I think as mentioned you need to go to your Doctor & well in my opinion see what you can do to get yourself into immediate urgent care - hospitalization so you can get emergency 24/7 care.Not that I don't think CBT isn't helpful,but you need to get your depression sorted out firstly more important than anything& of course your OCD&Anxiety.But having your depression fixed the other conditions will no doubt improve also,I think this is what you have to do explore whatever you can see even some health professionals you haven't seen before I know it's tough but I think this is what you clearly need my friend :original: . Maybe even see if you can call the hospitals yourself, speak to your Psychiatrist if you're seeing one or try to get a referral to one?
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