A little success and it's always overshadowed

[Guest stuckinmyhead]

So I made the promise to myself that I would put my all into stopping rumination. I've suffered from false memory ocd in the past so I have tried to take the leap of faith and believe these thoughts, although feeling so real, are ocd too.

I've had some intrusions today about a different obsession but had none today about the ones that had been haunting me day in day out. What im getting at - normally your intrusions increase when you stop compulsions but this hasn't happen, I know it's only been one day. I'm worrying that these memories are not ocd because the intrusions haven't come back more when I've stopped doing compulsions. Please help x

[butterfly lady]

Its your ocd trying to undermine what you're doing already. You're taking the leap of faith and in my experience, it fights back. Let the thoughts just be and try and refocus on something else. Stay strong, I know how hard it is x

[Guest stuckinmyhead]

Butterfly I was going to message you I read your responses on "innocent people don't confess" and something just clicked for me and I thought that's enough now I need to take the leap of faith even though I'm still struggling to believe its false. So thank u so much for your wise words!

[butterfly lady]

Aw you're welcome :-) making that decision to take the leap of faith is scary but keep going. It was a bit of a bumpy ride for me at the beginning but stay with it and you can come out the other side of it. I'm going through a bit of a blip at the moment, just feeling a bit more anxious than usual but I know that ocd is a sneaky beast and it hasn't liked being controlled. Its not a failure, just a little blip that I have to deal with. It fought me every step of the way and I remember worrying like you when I thought the anxiety had started to subside a bit. But I carried on and gradually, I felt less anxious about the whole false memory. It takes a while but you'll get there. Taking the leap of faith is an important step, so well done xxx