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Everything is feeling more and more out of control. I think it's a mixture of increased exposure (the start of Norovirus season) and the continuing anxiety of starting a new job but I can feel myself losing the will to fight. I'm exhausted by all the stress and anxiety, I feel constantly sick and I have no appetite. It's becoming more and more difficult to resist the compulsions; I can feel my body giving in to it all. All I think about is sickness; I'm getting plagued by mental images that I don't want to see. There's just no relief from it. No chance to relax and unwind. I've been trying to carry out positive behaviours...carry on as normal, avoid rumination etc. but nothing is relieving this intense anxiety. I'm wondering if I should go back to the doctor to discuss restarting the medication but it doesn't feel like the solution, just masking the problem. People can only live with this level of anxiety for so long before they start to crack and it feels like I'm on the verge of cracking. I'm at my wits end with it all! Sorry for the rant. I'm obviously engaging in some sort of compulsive behaviour that is keeping all this going but I've run out of ideas about how to tackle it. Nothing seems to be making any difference.

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What's wrong with meds? I wouldn't be where I am today without meds. They worked for me. I know they don't work for everyone but they can sure give you a leg up on tackling your OCD if you find the right one and the right dosage.

What about therapy? Where are you with that?

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Guest lizinlondon

If you feel things are getting too much definately get some help. See your doc. Could you get some top up CBT sessions. If you had it.on NHS before you don't have to wait. It is up to you if you want meds, but once they started working for me they definately helped. However they did increase my anxiety at first so be prepared. Good luck.

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I had 20 weeks of CBT about 18 months ago, but it was focussed more towards GAD than OCD. The OCD wasn't diagnosed until a few weeks into the therapy. My doctor suggested getting back in touch with the therapists to discuss further treatment more specific to OCD but they're not specialists. I have no access to specialist treatment. My OCD probably isn't getting worse per se, it's just increased exposure. We've also had a lot of change over the past couple of months with which I never seem to cope well.

I'm not anti-medication. I suppose it just feels like a bit of a step backwards. I thought I was getting better when I stopped them and it took a lot to fight the withdrawl. I'm also worried about starting them again bearing in mind the initial side effects and the possibility that they can make the anxiety symptoms worse initially. I'm not sure I could cope with any worse!

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Well, you have choices. Seek further help or not. Take medications or not. Try self directed therapy or not.

There are things you can do to improve your situation. Ultimately you have to make the decision that's right for you.

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