Living with BDD
Geschrieben 17 Februar 2012 - 10:30
I am now 19 and honestly believe I am fat and quite ugly, I am not thin at all, as size 12-14 hourglass shape and my measurements are 38-28-39. I am told that I am not ugly but I still believe I am, the problem is that I have always wanted to be shorter and skinnier. I have never had anorexia or bulimia but do go on binges and feel constantly guilty about how much I eat and how little I exercise. Everyone I know is smaller and thinner, I feel that when they watch me eat they feel disgusted so I tend to eat alone. I work incredibly hard and have trouble sleeping and as a result have almost no time to seek treatment, I need to be available everyday between 7am-3am to pick up emails and get work done as well as studying for my degree. If I did not do the work then I would be much worse. When I did not work so hard I was very depressed.
I also have a serve allergy condition and as a result have to take many antihistamines a day, this also means my skin regularly looks very unattractive due to the eczema and the urticharia. I also have stretch marks and my skin is very flabby and blotchy.
I am just so tired of hating myself and my appearance and I can't see how I can make it better. I have just been like this for too long to make me feel any different, no one can convince me otherwise.
Geschrieben 18 Februar 2012 - 03:04
Geschrieben 19 Februar 2012 - 02:01
I would just like to tell you that you are not alone.
Have you ever been to your GP about how you feel and think?