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I just feel like this is it, not going to be happy no matter what I do! My hubby is the first man I've ever met, and my ocd plays on this, saying I want to experience other men, and to have affairs etc..... My ocd is horrible, I hate it! Why cant I just be happy with what I have, and stop thinking about the grass being greener!

So basically I'm just gonna have to accept that I'm always going to have doubts about my marriage and just not feel happy with anything regarding this ocd disorder! How can I live a happy fulfilled marriage with such crazy **** my mind throws at me?

I've had cbt in the past, but due to other things couldn't do the homework! And funnily enough I'm doing a course in cbt! I'm not sure if I'm looking for reassurance, but does this sound like ocd or am I just wanting out? I know if I heard the latter, I'd be upset and probably dwell on it!

I'm feeling really fed up with ocd and especially the theme that I dont love my husband. I've been with my husband since I was 16, in which my ocd started to arise at this age, and had my ocd started with many themes! After dating my husband for a couple of years, I started to get thoughts that I didn't love him etc and was really scared of the urge to tell him I didn't love him, I used to do silly compulsions to prove to myself that I did love him. Anyways, after years and years together and fighting this ocd theme, we had a child, got married, been married 7 years now and had another child! All with this horrible ocd theme in the back ground, making me feel guilty, horrible and that I'm not in the right relationship, making me feel like is this it, is this my life? Do I want to grow old with him, do I love him, am I falling out of love? Do I still find him attractive? And when I dont, this plays even worse! Sometimes I do sometimes I dont! But my ocd is making me worry, fear everything regarding my relationship with my hubby. I'm not wanting to leave, I'm wanting to have a normal marriage without this ocd lingering all the time! Is the ocd or is it time to call it quits! Its so doing my head in and I'm sure my husband could do with someone nicer than me...... Is this my life now, I feel so trapped by it all ?

Not sure if its normal, but I'm constantly worrying and obsessing about the building work thats happening. We've been in our new house since January and I have always wanted a utility room doing, and when I want something doing I do it! So I've got these builders in to knock through to my garage. I've also got someone coming round to replace my conservatory roof tomorrow! I know..... Thing is I'm a perfectionist and want a good job doing! This is causing me to look at every detail and stress endlessly about nothing really. I'm glad I have a doorway through now, instead of going all the way round to the garage. Just wish I would just let them get on with it and stop stressing, husband isn't bothered but I am! Any advice welcome! As my head is going to explode with stress and anxiety.

Since yesterday I have had this song going over and over in my head, its a good song and its in the charts, but now its annoying me so much that I feel I'm going mad! I didn't get any sleep yesterday, due to the fact this song was playing in my head and also because hubby was snoring and went to go into another bed, which wasn't mine. So I'm also sleep deprived! But this song is seriously making me feel anxious and out of control cos it just won't go, I suppose like a bad thought that sticks and then keep obsessing. Any advice on this matter, my rational mind keeps saying it'll soon go, but my ocd mind is like ha ha I love tormenting you. Cheers ocd, and cheers blood song!

Hi Just really need to get this off my mind, but ocd won't let it! I work at sen school and today, came across a safe guarding issue resulting in a student wanting another student to do something so to speak, as soon as I saw this I seperated them and logged it. But my ocd is seriously messing with me now, and cant seem to get it out of my head! Grrrrrrr....... Thanks for reading, any ideas on how to stop over thinking would be much appreciated x

Just woke up and feel real low and anxious for no reason! I have a lunchtime supervisor job which is only an hour and half work, and I'm fine once I'm there but dread going. Could it be my job thats making me anxious even though once I'm there I'm fine! Got a job interview too on the 3rd of October, which is 30 hours a week. Surely a dinner time job cant cause anxiety, what will I be like if I get the 30 hour job? Please help.

The other day, I was feeling slightly stressed and went to my local shop to get a few things, all was well apart from feeling a tad stressed and unfocused! But then I went and had a look at some hair dyes, and all the faces on the boxes overwhelmed me for some strange reason and I had a panic attack! I stayed in the situation and carried on looking and kept telling myself it was irrational, but why would this happen? Mental health totally baffles me at times. I did have an irrational thought that I was going mad and that what if the pictures moved etc.....which obviously wouldn't have helped!

I've telephoned them and decided on not going....not because of the ocd, but because I hate putting on people and I always feel like I am. And felt sorry for my dogs, nobody really wanted to have them, but said they would just cos they felt they had too. Think there happier now lol, and I feel more relaxed knowing I'm not relying on anyone.

Tomorrow I'm due to go on a Leeds day trip with some girls I used to work with along time ago. Thing is I cant actually decide whether to go or not! My anxiety and ocd are playing up for one, which I know shouldn't make you not go, but also my hubby works away and isn't here, I have two dogs and two young children....which is proving more difficult, the other girls that are going have husbands, old children, or dont have dogs to consider. Just really not sure what to do, my sister and mum are helping me out, but really dont like putting on people, cos I feel like I do it far too much.

I too have health anxiety and am constantly scanning my body for different feelings i have. I'm scared of becoming ill and dying. I had a blood clot in my lung 8 years ago and was on warfarin for 6 months. And even now the slightest ache or pain and I'm obsessed and then I Google and reassurance seek. I'm currently preoccupied with a heaviness in my chest at the minute, keep thinking it might be a heart attack or something! And this causes me anxiety which makes feeling worse. My rational mind says its probably anxiety and stress thats causing it, but my ocd mind is thinking what if its this? What if its that? So tiring.

My mum and dad always went on at me about getting pregnant! My mum always said that sex was dirty and not great like in the movies! So I often feel like sex is wrong, even though this is irrational. I have fears of getting pregnant, even though my husband has had the snip twice! I have relationship ocd..... Which doesn't help a fulfilling sex life, and really want to just to make my hubby happy, but just fear sex and intimacy so much.

Can others help please?

I'm not sure if this is kind of a compulsion and reassurance seeking, but please bear with me. Is it normal in ocd to feel low and deflated after having sex? I'm scared of sex alot of it is to do with my thoughts, and so my behaviour is to avoid it....because of the way I feel and think! Sometimes the thoughts are much worse than doing it and sometimes I feel good and happy that I've done it.....happy husband = happy me! Thats another thing, yes I'm married and have two children! But I still avoid intimacy with my husband. And now even more so, as I've had sex with him the other night and the next day I felt awful..... Low, depressed, panicky and preoccupied with everything and dont know why, but know that I'm definitely going to avoid sex again, as dont want to feel like this, i dread going to bed in the night....just so terrified of sex and there is no reason other than ocd. Anyone who is the same and can relate, or advice on how to rekindle my lovelife with my hubby would be grateful x

Probably but I'm just so preoccupied with my thoughts and why I'm feeling so down after sex. Its my husband for gods sake whats up with me!

I'm feeling really bad and panicky at this moment in time, just haven't a clue why! Me and hubby had sex last night, which probably has nothing to do with it, but its been a while since we last did it and I'm always putting it off and finding excuses, I love my hubby, and want him to be happy, so last night when he came home he was going on about it, so I thought I have too! So in a way I feel pressured that I had too. I know its normal and its good for an healthy relationship, its just I'm either too scared, too tired or my thoughts about sex get the better of me! This morning when I woke up I felt real low and depressed and today I have been so preoccupied with my thoughts and frightened I'm losing control because of my panic attacks. Why am I like this, why am I so scared of sex and intimacy? Hope this feeling goes soon, my ocd is playing on all this big time!

Just thought I'd share my ocd thought today that I had, haven't had a vivid thought with images for awhile, but today I did and it wasn't nice! I was taking the kids to a play centre and we were chatting and laughing etc, then like all ocd thoughts again boom, pow and wham! I saw a mother with two kids and a pram, all was fine, they were waiting to cross the road. And instantly had this stupid horrible thought of driving into them, not just a thought, but an image and like an intense urge! Obviously I know that I wouldn't do such a thing, bloody heck I have two gorgeous kids myself, why would I want too! This is Ocd! And it struck me whilst driving, thanks ocd for that! I kept driving and I still took my kids to the play centre, but can i forget my thoughts, image and urge? Nope..... Because it was horrible and I have a concience! Thing is, this is Ocd, I know what it is, i know its a pain and it makes us sad and unhappy, but I also know that I wouldn't act on such irrational random thoughts and to try and forget something is like wanting to think about it, cos it will not go, its stubborn....so I am going to think about it, accept it and carry on, then hopefully ocd will get bored and bring something else up! Just thought I'd share x

Thanks for the replies, I didn't mention that I was working too lol, and again tomorrow! We was in a classroom and although windows and doors were open it was really stuffy.....this then made me slightly panic, probably due to the reaction of the heat and not being in control! I also feel like not going to work tomorrow cos of it, but then thats a lame excuse!

Today is the hottest day, and my anxiety is through the roof, its like I feel I am out of control because obviously I cant control the temp! I'm feeling irritable and like I'm going to go mad, or faint with heat stroke or something I feel dizzy,sick and just generally horrid because of the weather causing my anxiety and making me worse. I know I'm being irrational and I know I cant control it, but just wanted to vent, is there anyone else that gets anxious in hot weather?

I've just recently started working within a school for children with disabilities, this is not the problem though, I am a supply Worker and have currently been working alongside my sister! Now its not a problem as such, but since I've been working with her, I feel everyone is judging me, because were sisters etc..... Loads have come over to me, being polite and saying ohhhh your sonesones sister. I know I'm probably being irrational, and I'm not ugly, but my ocd is really playing on this and my imagination is running wild with it, and I feel like I look something like the elephant man! I know this is stupid, but because I'm thinking such daft stuff, I feel like I'm going to become mental etc and have BDD or something. Today, these thoughts and images of me being ugly led to a panic attack. I didn't show it and carried on....but the feelings are so intense. Can anyone give some advice on how to overcome this obstacle?

I feel like this on a daily basis so your not alone if that helps....but not giving you any reassurance, sorry.....but reassurance seeking doesn't help as I'm sure you know!

Sorry to hear that hun, but think of it this way....things happen for a reason, and it maybe a good change for you. Obviously you need to grieve over the relationship, but in all honesty it maybe a great turning point for you, I know it doesn't feel like that now! But believe me it will get better, and hopefully he may come round. If he doesn't so what! As long as he stays intouch with the kids thats all that matters.

I am so glad you put this, cos I am an obsessive skin picker too, and I am obsessed with the slightest bump on my skin, thinking its a spot! The normal thing to do would be to leave it alone, and not spread the bacteria....but no I squeeze, pick you name it, until it bleeds and scars me. I am covered from head to foot in scabs, spots, and scars and feel like I cant control it. I so want to be able to wear strappy tops and skirts etc but just so scabby I'm ashamed! Is there anything I can do to get rid of this horrible habit, obsession whatever it is.

Was just texting my friend and felt fine, had my breakfast again felt fine.....then bam! Thought came into my head that what if this? What if that? Then the panic started. Took a deep breath and thought its only a pop up, it'll pass. But now feel on edge like I'm losing control of myself and thoughts.... Hate thinking just in general because of this disorder! But I know everyone thinks.... Arrrgggghhhhhh hate ocd ?