PottyMummy

Thanks! That is probably the tough bit! X

Thank you - all of you - so very much for your replies! It means so much to me to hear words of support and advice from people who understand the situation. Just like i wrote on another forum, the main problem is the uncertainty! No matter what I do cannot guarantee that my family and I will be safe and alive. This is the part that drives me insane! I just wish there was a 100% guarantee for everything! Any tips are really welcome! X

Hi! Thanks for your post! I have no advice to give you but only to say that I totally know what you mean. It is the uncertainty that I find crippling. I would love to know where or why that is the case for OCD sufferers! Good luck with the battle!

Hi! I totally understand! I had it too... for three years! That theme has gone now because honestly, that is all it is tinker bell, a theme! It isn't you! You know that! It is just a thought that has got trapped. I am no expert as I too suffer with OCD so badly but I just wanted to say you aren't alone and it is just a thought. The worst thing that your brain can come up with right now! I promise! X good luck and sending you lots strength! X

Hi All! I really hope somebody can give me advice. I have suffered with all sorts of OCD in the past and curently (child number three is 10 months old) obsessed with fear of a child dying or me dying. I cannot even enjoy hugging them as I get an awful fear of loss as soon as that happens. The thoughts are constant and it is depressing to know that I have a lifetime of this ahead! I search the internet for answers to my fears and find myself then in a fearful discussion with myself as to whether there is a heaven and why god allows suffering etc. It is exhausting and unbelievably lonely! I have a few questions about this: 1) should I treat this the same way as OCD or somebow different? 2) I take 20mg of fluoxetine every second day. If I go to the doctor I know they will tell me to up it to every day and I know that will probably do the trick but I worry that the medication will harm me and cause me to possibly die young which is what I am afraid of! 3) I have a therapist that I see and have booked in but have been doing this for years and just feel a bit down by the thought of going again. Any support to any question would be much appreciated, thanks so much in advance! Potty Mummy x

Thanks so much! I think my problem is that this one could be real! I mean, one in two people get it and that combined with just having had a third baby is too much. Xxx

Hi All! I am back after baby number three and mad as a hatter again! This time it isn't POCD but I am convinced that I have cancer! In my twenties I did some really stupid things. Smoked loads and was bulimic. I have stopped it all but have now got obsessed that I have some fom of cancer. Has anybody had this? I am still in the phase of wondering if it really is health OCD or an actual issue. Thanks! Xx

Thanks so much to both of you! I am going to try and work on this now. I was worried that this isn't ocd as the topic isn't really ego dystonic. I can cope when I can label as OCD but this one seems to have a different theme if that makes sense? Anyway, thanks both of you for your words of wisdom! X

Thanks so much for the reply Caramoole! Can I please ask you one more question... How can I be sure that this is just a thought and not a premonition? X

Hi All! I am really hoping for support here as I have honestly never been so afraid... I am due to give birth to my third child in six weeks and I am so scared that I will die! In fact... I am not scared.... I am convinced! I cannot look at other two kids now without feeling such sadness about how I will not see them grow up! I don't know If this is actually ocd though? I mean, the thoughts are not intrusive but they of course stress me. Has anybody else been convinced about death before? I This fear and sadness is honestly unbearable! Thanks in advance for any support! Potty Mummy x

Hi! Thanks so much to you both! X I am seeing my therapist in the week so hopefully that will help. I was sort of amazed that I got this far without becoming really sick. Seven weeks to go :-( it just feels so real! Thanks again for the advice! X

Also.. What if I am having these thoughts because subconsciously they are right and I need to prepare myself?

Hi All, I am 33 weeks pregnant and have had OCD since my first child. This is now the third. With the first two I had POCD but this time I haven't had that. Went to see a doctor about labour the other day and now I have a huge fear (belief) that I am going to die in childbirth. I cannot look at the other two kids without crying and just have awful worries about what would happen if I was not here to look after them. The fear is constant and I am just convinced this is going to happen. I think the reason that I am asking for help is because I am unsure if this is OCD? The thoughts are not egodistonic like in POCD as unlike with POCD where I was scared but there was no possiblity that I was... This time of course death during childbirth is a possible and I so so scared. Should I treat this as OCD or is it something else? What if it really happens? Thanks so much for any help you can give me all of you. Xx

Hi! I lost my Nana's ring yesterday. It sounds daft but i have had it for years. I am worried / obsessed that because I lost it my "luck" will change and that it is a bad sign?! Also, I have this if I change my purse! I got a new one for Christmas and want to use it but I don't dare! I think it is OCD! Is it?! Has anybody had this and how do you deal with it? Thanks so much. Potty Mummy

Hi! I just wanted to say "I get it!" I too have been in your situation and can fully understand how much you want to try and make it work. My husband is very similar... He has not got a bone of ocd in him. On one hand that is really annoying because I never feel I can fully relate but on the other it is amazing because it means I just have to get on with it and actually it means ocd is not the focus of everything. (We did however do one therapy session together so he could understand a bit better!) So, I think what I am trying ro say is please don't let ocd ruin your relationship by forcing you to over analyse. I wish you all the very best! Xxx P.s I also saw that you are doing a PGCE.... When I did mine that was a massive trigger for my OCD... It is so stressful! Xxx