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Lyn77

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  1. Hi guys I've not been using the forum in ages as I felt it was part of my compulsions. My ocd now feels like it's back with a vengeance it's not even like just one obsession I can have like 20 different things a day that I'm obsessing over and making me feel anxious and sick. Im not giving in much and only very fee times have I searched the Internet when I'm feeling like this. Most of thr time I carry on and live my life trying to ignore the thoughts. I've been feeling really stressed lately and not sleeping well what can I do moving forward? I take it just continue to ignore?! Thanks guys and hope everyone is well x
  2. Thank you for replying guys! So as usual the key is acceptance and no fighting it. It's been getting me down and I've stopped doing things I wanted to because I felt like there is something wrong with me. X
  3. I can't even believe that this is so far the worst thing I've dealt with. I've had the worst intrusive thoughts in the past and now.. On Monday night after eating I felt like something was stuck in my throat so I tried to cough it up but no luck. So it's still the same now having this feeling of something lodged in my throat. I have been to gp and prescribed meds for acid reflux and he also mentioned globus. Any time I eat or drink I feel like I'm going to choke. All day I'm focused on my swallowing and how dry my throat is and how it doesn't feel right. I have just started uni and thus is suppost to b a good time but this is making me miserable just having this sensation. Could ocd be making it worse? Any suggestions on how to deal with it? X
  4. Couldn't agree more. Mindfulness has worked for.me in the way u described
  5. Hi there I'm.so sorry to hear that this is happening to you. I myself went through hell last year due to someone having no training in ocd and reporting me to social services because I told her about my intrusive thoughts. I had phoned a crisis line and while.on the phone discussing it she said just so u know I'm informing social work. Next 3 months of my life I had.to deal with this and eventually had to go to a formal child protection meeting. It was the worst thing in my life I'm not going to lie but the truth came out and I had my gp and psychologist who confirmed I had ocd and nothing more sinister...I remember during the meeting I was reading out quotes about the disorder to try and give these people more of an understanding of it as clearly they just thought I was a risk. It was soul destroying and at the time I never thought I could recover from what I was put through. When they said they were no longer having any involvement in my life.I felt great but it took months for me to get over it. It's so so sad that there is not enough education on ocd.for the people working out in society esp in mental health fields. The person who refered me was a volunteer for a crisis line who had nobtraining in ocd and since this they have now received training on ocd symptoms. Wishing you well. You will get through this. I just wish I had reached out for help from this community more when I was going through it.
  6. I just don't understand how you can't be mindful while anxious. During the 8 week course we had particular sessions where we would be mindful of our thoughts. It showed me that mindfulness does not mean calming the mind it means becoming present and fully aware of whatever is going on in the mind. You can be mindful of anything whether it is painful or pleasurable the key is in not judging the experience
  7. You don't have to go on an 8 week course that is true but I've read alot on my own but nothing compares to what I gained on the course. You can still be mindful when you are full of anxiety it's about accepting the anxiety fully you can apply mindfulness to thoughts and feelings not only external.
  8. Yep I've had very similar. Got a thought what if I thought my daughter was the devil. I'm not even religious and don't believe in that kind of thing but I started to obsess thinking what if I have schizophrenia or psychosis. I was assessed and confirmed I had ocd on several occasions. It can seem so scary and so real. I now try to just be mindful of the thoughts and accept they are there and don't do anything in response to the intrusive thoughts. It's the rumination or trying to prove to yourself or know for certain that u don't have schizophrenia that is the problem. It would be best if you could just say OK whatever to the thought and yea who cares if I have it..do your worst. That attitude tends to stop ocd in its tracks as you loose the fear aspect.
  9. 8 week mbsr course is very.good for getting to grips.with it. It was created by Jon kabat zinn. Watch some of his YouTube video for some in sight x
  10. I'm still learning also...I think it's a kind of life long thing. Not something u can just do. Takes a lot of practice
  11. No all of my studying of the subject and from my mindfulness practitioners is that of observation and acceptance. Continue in the being mode.of mind and not the doing. So the doing would be trying to fix things where as in the being it is just complete acceptance. What you find is that when you completely accept a thought with no judgement it is stopped.in it's tracks and doesn't take you any further and you move on and focus on what you want to. In mindfulness yoy are completely in the present moment which is all we ever have. We don't have the past and we don't have the future it's all just projected in the mind so in mindfulness you are being aware of your moment you are in whether it is good or bad and yoy accept it fully. It kind of rids you of anxiety and fear and depression when you only focus on the now and nothing else. I totally agree with what your saying though. I think cbt is great I've only got 1 book on that right enough lol but I do think a combo of cbt/erp and mindfulness is great.
  12. In essence you become the observer of your thoughts. Like watching them and not doing anything just allowing them to be. In ocd it is the reaction to the thoughts that causes the problem so I suppose in mindfulness this non reaction is what calms it.
  13. Yea most of the people I have spoke to about it don't have the full picture. If you read a definition of mindfulness it is very basic. It is about awareness. Being aware of your surroundings thoughts and feelings body sensations and paying attention to them with no judgement. So for ocd basically I get an intrusive thought and normally I would spiral off and start ruminating over this. Using mindfulness I would get the intrusive thought and become aware of this fact. If my mind starts to ruminate or I get anxious I just become aware of this and become the spectator of my thoughts and not so caught up in them if you see what I mean.
  14. I have about 8 books on the subject. If you want an easy explanation mindfulness for dummies range is great. To go deeper the power of now by eckhart toll is a particularly challenging read but very worth it for mindfulness in every day. X
  15. I have been on mindfulness course and I have studied it well and now practice it regularly. I believe it is why this time round.I have not been on medication and use.mindfulness as my tool against ocd One of the things I noted is that you are only mentioning external factors and being.in the moment via senses. This is all part of mindfulness but the objective should never be to still the mind. Mindfulness is complete acceptance.of the present moment and that includes what's going.on in our heads. My mindfulness instructor told.me that all thoughts should be invited in and made welcome and no judgement passed what so ever. That to me is mindfulness and how I can use.it in the context of tackling my ocd.
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