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Well done Hun so proud of u xxx

Thanks for replying and giving me some information it was very helpfull.. I will carry on and hopefully side affects will go snow x

Hi guys I no every one is different with medication just want some advice I'm on day 7 on increase after 5 months on escitlopram Did any one get side affects on increase becuase I'm not sure if I should give up or go back down to my normal dose Or give one more week.. my phycristist is not available right now and defo not going to the gp there useless and I'm not going especially after last week x

Hey forum friends Im so sorry for late reply it was so over welmimg last night I went to bed and just woke up to the horror in my thoughts thank you for all your posts right now I can't reply to each one becuase my thoughts are every second it's just to much for me right now but I have read them and I really appreciate your replys and have taken it all in .. I just can't cope right now not even with a conversation my thoughts to fast... thank u forum friends I will try and post later if I can xxx

Thanks Roy for this post sorry only just got back on here now I've been so bad that's what I've been doing.. doing what u told me to do yesterday I was even listening to how many sounds I can hear at the same time I think I heard 8 sounds it's such hard work it's a constant battle.. I had a bit of a better nights sleep last night so hoping I feel bit better today I will try and do two things like u said and see how I go with that and I report back later today thanks xxx

Hey guys thanks for your kind words etc.. it's just so bad you go to the doctors feeling bad and come out worse.. then ocd grips what he says it just so unfair ? I had a terrible anxiety attack after it's took me a few hours to calm down from it .. was so scared... aw lost miss you all to.. so unwell and been trying to get well.. the last few nights been reading the book brain lock I'm just trying to get my head around it.. I told my phycristist I'm having the wrong therapy there not giving me cbt I think there giving me cat and I keep telling it's wrong so he going to have a word with her I know I was having cbt but I was paying private and had to stop becuase I couldn't afford it anymore and things have gone down hill my brain is locked and I just can't get out of it x

Hi everyone hope your all well.. so sorry haven't been on I've been really ill with looping intrusive thoughts and panic attacks depression etc.. and basically feel like I'm going mad ... so today I went to the gp and told him about all my thoughts and said it's ocd he looked at me like was Totally of my trolley.. he said I've never heard of this and he like why do u want to harm others and why and if I'm planing in are you seroius haven't these doctors heard of this they poss to be doctors he just made me worse upset and made my ocd tho the roof? they defo got have sort of mental health training before they become a doc at least some awareness becuase they can me and other people worse and more alone.. and feel like me right now and never want to go back...? I'm scared and lonely I feel like I'm loosing my marbles right now xx

Ok I will do that Roy I just watch a episode of my programe I had a lot of intrusive thoughts tho it and sat tho it with the anxity feel like a nervous wreck but doing it.. I will try this tommmrow like you said..and see if it helps.. becuase my brain is locked bad right now.. Aw thanks lost.. so sorry your not good at the moment hope you feel better soon and the pain eases... im of to bed now I'm so exhausted by this I'm jus not enjoying my life right now but I will carry on like you told me and see if it helps me.. thanks u guys night forums friends xxx

Aw thanks ocean that means a lot... ok roy so good distraction would be reading or something like that like my gym class focusing on that xx

Hey guys hope your all ok and having a good day.. thanks for your replys and checking up on me... I went to sleep after I spoke to u all went to bed sleept all night think I wore myslef out from crying all day..made myself get up stright away with the alarm and carried out my normal routine it's been very hard especially with ocd on top of the anxity and depression but I'm doing has I'm told by u lot I'm finding it hard but I haven't cried today I have been gym I went shops with sister I went and looked at house today and I made dinner now I'm taking the dog for a walk no lying in bed for me today... so I done my routine..but my mind is stuck in the loop like u said Roy I think my mind locked in brain lock and the thoughts are looping and I can't stop the loop I will do mindfulness later to see if that helps.. I'm so exhausted fighting this x

Yeah she really is a good doc..but only saw her on the of chance becuase my phycristist is on hoilday.. but she helped.. she not alarmed by intrusive thoughts which is good..thanks you sleep well to.. and see what tommmrow to xx night xx xx

O my Roy I was just like this when I saw that message u do make x

Is it isn't Roy.. it's so good we can help each other i hope so snow x

Aw thanks ocean I hope so... will always be here to if you need any help to.. x

Thanks lost and oceandweller that means so much to me.. all you have been great to me thanks so much for making me feel a little bit stronger this evening x

Tonight I feel proud for ... actually getting out of bed and takinh my dog for a walk but I didn't have any treats Roy I'm trying to eat more healthy.. I'm going to treat myself to a nice hoilday soon I think xx

Evening everyone i hope your ok.. thanks for your replys your really helping me thanks so much... so I went to doctors and told her how i felt and felt so much better after I let it all out ... and she said becuase I've been doing so well lately the last two months and I hit a blip he depressed me so much because I was on a road to recovery with my private cbt and I stop it becuase I can't afford it and becuase I've hit a bad patch it's upsetting me that I gone back wards and I'm blaming myself I've done something wrong.. but I have good news my nhs cbt starts next Monday at last I've only waited four years for it.. i think looking for my perfect house has stress me becuase I can't find the right one and people viewing my house stressed me becuase I worry what they think etc and obv becuase the nature of my ocd to.. i feel a bit better than before the doctors becuase I let it all out speaking to her and ive done what you guys have mentioned I've done that this evening kept my routine going has much has I don't want to I made myslef get out of bed cook this evening even know my ocd was so bad in the kitchen and I also took my dog on a long walk and now I'm going to bed has timed and will put my alarm on and get stright up in the morning and I will go gym I will make myslef do this.. i hope your all having a good evening xx

Hi everyone thanks for your replys..means a lot.. I'm just sat in doctors now I'm in tears I can't stop crying when I awake or I'm in a really mad mood and I feel agahited for no reason and I don't know what to do anything just want to hide in bed so I feel so bad I'm actually so scared right now I've only felt like once before and it's was the darkest moths of my life I just can't go back there it's so hard to get out of.. i can't think of any thing jess I just have headaches all the time.. I'm really stressed about finding a new house there's that but nothing else... is there any tips guys I could do to.. to get out of this x

Hi wonderer i haven't spoken to you in a while..hope every is ok..thanks for your reply..I will keep in mind what you have said and keep going and hopefully it will lift soon..I'm glad things are lifting up for you I hope things keep moving forward for you ..yeah Im going to go doctors tomorrow and see what they say ...hugs xxx

Aw your so sweet ..thanks xx yes it was a brilliant posting wasn't it ..you guys are so good to me thanks for your kindness xx

Hi oceandweller i hope you are well.. thanks for your kind words I'm very grateful for your reply to my post...It's so hard isn't it I really do hope it past soon it's very scary...I will keep this post in mind..thanks for your kinds words again hope your having a good evening x

Well done Philm keep going ....so sorry I haven't given you much support right now but member I'm always thinking of how your doing when I'm not on here x