Gareth22

Hi every one i really need help.im having a bad time I was with my wife and two kids today and we went to the Lego experience I started having really bad anxiety and dry mouth and really bad sweating I also suffer from epilepsy which is triggerd by anxiety today I thought I was going to die I held it together for every one but it is ebbing and then flowing like a tide I get like this every couple of years and it last for months I just can't see a way out of it please I would love to just talk to some one who suffers from this as much as I do ?

I could but it will be worse for me to come of them now as I tried to come of them before and it was really bad and that was tailing of nah I'm fine with them they don't do me any harm now I don't get any side effects I ment when I first started taking them I wasn't reviewed or watched

I agree with Ashley have been on paroxitine for nearly 20 years tried to come of them once by tapering them ended back on them I think the problem is the doctors give them out like sweets and don't treat the main issue with me I'm just given a repeat parscription I don't even have a review which I should do lol

Your right not thought about it like that before rationalising is still giving the thoughts importance and substance.thanks for all your help it's kinda hard talking to my family,wife,and friends about it they help a lot but it's nice to be able to talk with people that suffer similar problems as yourself all the best gareth

Hiya binxy thanks for replying to me ?.As the days gone on the thoughts have changed to what if I have another fit lol I had OCD since I was 18 so just another flare up.I did cbt found it a useful tool but only for when the Situation was real as in worrying that I was moving I had a real purpose to use cbt to take aside an hour every Friday to worry about it and not think about it in the week with the harm ones I find they come more sporadic every couple of months years even and I'm now 36 and nether acted on them so I'm fine with that.thank you so much for your help and responding to me speak soon gareth x

Hi all been using this site and forum for years on and off and have found it very useful and the users extremely helpful.on Saturday I went out with a group of people from work to try and increase my social circle it was completely out of my comfort zone it was a Saturday night and the pub was back to back with people I only drank 4 pints which I suppose is a lot for me after a couple of beers I relaxed and had a bareable evening i got to my parents I was stopping there because it was closer I woke up the next day huge anxiety and time lapses all day to cut a long story short I'm epelectic and I had a seizure was taken to hospital on Sunday.since then if been suffering with my OCD and harm thoughts I get around my wife and son I had thoughts like this since I was 18 wether it be around my mom wife girlfriends father.just wondering really if any one else suffers from epelepsy and if a seizure can bring back intrusive thoughts for a while thanks to every one who took the time to read this look forward to hearing from every one gareth

Good point cheers polar bear thanks for taking the time to write back it means a lot x

And now I'm ruminating on thoughts I might have early dementia or Alzheimer's ?

Hiya polar bear thank you so much for the reply.im not really getting any thoughts I did a couple of weeks ago and I coped with them really well(very proud with my self as they normally cripple me when I relapse)it's this weird sensation that's the problem.i feel permanently tired and kinda have moments were I think I need to to check my phone for a date or a message or credit card app.and find myself looking at the screen and having to really back track why I was checking my phone because I'd forgot.and then just a strange sensation of uneasiness.hope to speak to you soon gareth x

Take that as a no then ?

Hi every one I've had intrusive thoughts for over 20 years all about harming loved ones and Huge anxiety that's gone with them they tend to wax and wane every couple of years I had cbt years ago and it helps the thoughts army an issue any more I have them but I can see that there thoughts and I just let them carry on I've been on paroxitine 20 mg for 20 years tried to come of them by tapering once had a slight relapse and wasn't strong anouth at the time to carry on through this time I've had a relapse for a couple of weeks I'm having feelings of unesyness and feelings like I'm not me anymore but that I don't get all the time just wondering if any one has felt the same thanks for listening guys ?

Hiya I know how bad this is I've had thoughts of hurting people for over 20 years they go for a couple of years and come back now I have a two year old son I have the same thoughts which then turn into urges but that's all they are you won't ever do these things it's OCD making you check the thoughts over and over again your not a bad person for thinking the thoughts and you won't act on them purely because you find them so repulsive if you were gonna do it you would enjoy having the thoughts

Can give you the thought and the urge doesn't mean your gonna do it but that's OCD for you I have had over the past 20 years urges to kill people that are close to me seem to come around every couple of years but I haven't ever acted on them it's like if your in a relationship and you see a fit bird and you get the urge and thought that you would like to have sex with them you don't go over and carry out on the urge work as well some one annoys you staff or customer you can see your self getting the urge to punch them you don't though it's just OCD makes you think your a bad person for having these thoughts but every one has them and most people don't pay attention to them but if you have OCD you ruminate on them as a compulsion

I think that's spot on ocean dweller I think with me the doctor just kept prescribing them to me and because of the side effects I had when I started them I didn't want to stop them and when I tried years later I had a relapse and they put my dose back to 20mg the only medication review I have is for my epilepsy and they don't mention my paroxitine thinking maybe it will do something in the end and I can sue GlaxoSmithKline lol joke

Same here I had weeks of bad side effects but I've been on paroxitine for 19 years now but I can't come off them I tried once and like jess had a relapse and went back on them really hard to get off