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Hi Cora.. I am pleased to read this post....you deserve to be kind to yourself and to feel better....your therapist has given you good advice.... please stick with it and follow her advice. YOU deserve to be free from this... YOU deserve to be happy and YOU need to be kind to yourself xxxx I hope this is the start of recovery for you.xx

Sorry one more thing....it is typical of ocd to keep putting one more 'what if' doubt in your head, so it will always trick you by making you think of something else you should have mentioned to the therapist ...it is typical ocd not wanting to give you a moment's peace....but you are on your way to winning that battle now xxxx

Cora....you should definitely sit with the other thoughts you mentioned too....they are all ocd and are all bullying you. You have every right to be free from this torment and you deserve peace of mind. Hope you have a relaxing weekend and let the thoughts wash over you without engaging with them xxxx

@Corahow did you get on today? I hope the session helped xxx

You need to tell your therapist this Cora. Along with everyone else I am not going to offer reassurance because that just isn't helping you...but tell the therapist xxx You need to claim your life back from OCD and the therapist will help xxx

Keep going Cora.... ignoring the thoughts and resisting compulsions one day at a time...you've got this xxx

Cora....I think it's about time you took a leap of faith and trusted what everyone around you is saying. Just try it ...whatever your head is telling you chose not to believe it...believe those around you.

https://www.anxieties.com/ocd-four.php#.XWgr5Xp4WK3 Hi Malina....I also found this piece of writing an amazing help. Again this was recommended by a psychiatrist and helped me realise I actually wasn't a danger to anyone! Was about to give up a career in childcare which I loved due to scary intrusive thoughts when I was told by a professional that I didn't need to and was handed a sheet of paper with this link printed out on it....8 years later and I'm still working in childcare with more responsibility now and the confidence to understand they are just thoughts and the children are more than safe with me. I still go back to read it as OCD has now affected me in different ways...but it's still my lifeline. Hope it helps you too xxxx

@malina the book is called 'Overcoming Obsessive Thoughts' by Christine Purdon and David A Clark xx it's been such a help to me x

Big hugs to you Malina xxx I have a book which really helped me get over harm themed OCD so I could function as normally as possible....it was recommended by a psychiatrist and has literally given me my life back. I'll find it and let you know what it is xxx I still suffer , as you have seen from my posts...but it is way more manageable now x

Thank you all xxxxx

Hi Malina. I had the same worries 14 years ago when considering having a 3rd child. Since having my first 2 I developed fears of harming others so I wasn't sure about having a 3rd even though I desperately wanted another child. I decided to go for it as didn't want OCD to take that's away from me....the said 3rd child will be 14 years old in a few weeks. I struggled a bit but learnt to ignore the OCD lies and am so grateful OCD didn't rob me of bringing this beautiful life into the world (even though at 14 she is a challenging teenager at present ?). We can't say you won't have worries...but the worries are lies and your baby will be perfectly safe with you xxxxx

Hi...sorry to ask again...I'm just a bit worried as if I need to see this as OCD, they why would a non sufferer not donate blood either? Sorry it's just making me so scared ?

Thanks @PolarBear x I guess the only thing that makes it hard is that if I don't give blood then I am scared because I'm acting as though the worry is real....if I do I'm worried I'm irresponsible so I can't win either way ? Sorry for so many questions....I thought I had conquered the beast that is OCD but apparently not x

Whilst I can let it go eventually.....the thing I'm wondering is if I still be a blood donor bearing in mind it can be transmitted that way to other people.....my friends tells me it didn't even touch my cake...but I still feel irresponsible if I do give blood...but scared to ask them incase the answer freaks me out and I'm aware it seems ridiculous too. I'd be grateful for any opinions on this.

Hi. Reading your post it sounds like you have OCD because it can change themes all the time and if the thoughts are bothering you and are intrusive that's a major sign it's ocd. Are you currently seeing a therapist?

Thanks @malina. Do you think it's ocd then? I can't decide if to still be a blood donor or not but don't want to be irresponsible if I do still donate? Bearing in mind I can't eliminate 100 percent of the risk of mad cow disease. Although....thinking about it...as a meat eater can I ever be 100 percent sure!

@Coralet the thought be and move on with something else to distract you x you can do it xx

Hi all. Things had been going so well, but have been but with a big trigger this week which has set me back. It actually sounds like a funny story...went with a friend to see some highland cows and we had cake. When I was very close the cow for a picture, with cake in hand it tried to lick. I jumped back and my friend who saw it assured me the cows tongue didn't reach my cake. So I cautiously took a bite from the side it wasn't near but then felt so scared. What if I have now caught Mad cow disease. What if it's tongue had touched the bit near where I ate. I googled when I got home and not much info on there. So scared I'm infected. And now thinking do I still give blood as it can be transmitted that way by infected people ..but if I ask them it sounds so ridiculous. But I'm still scared. Why can't I just trust my friend that it didn't even touch my cake. Feel so overwhelmed and I thought I had got better at fighting these fears ?

@Cora did you have the psychologist appt yesterday?? How did it go ...I really think you need to speak to a professional... not because you are a danger but because you need someone to help you see through the ocd lies x

Ditto what Polar Bear said (and everyone else)...you are ok Cora...everyone around you is safe....go to the appointment on Wed and tell the therapist everything....this can be the start of your recovery xxxxx

Cora..please make sure you go to the appt on Wed....you need a professional to help you see it's OCD xx sending the biggest hugs x

I don't think you actually masturbated, I think you just squeezed your thighs, that's all...which was probably just an involuntary body move which you were more aware of because you are scared. Please try to get help in the morning xxxx

Cora....if you wanted to do these things and really enjoyed it all then you wouldn't be in as much distress as you are and posting on here. It's all OCD tightening it's grip and deceiving you. Please to and get an emergency gp appt....or even go to Walk in clinic....you need help to get you out of this horrible place which you DO NOT deserve to be in xxx

Cora....have you seen a doctor again yet?? Is there any way you could see a private psychologist?? It's all OCD and every bit of me hurts for the suffering you are going through, I don't even know you but I just want to you to be free from this....I've been there, in different ways but I've been in this hell. And so have the others on the forum...but I think you would really benefit from seeing a professional psychological before you go deeper into the ocd web of lies. You are worth so so much and DO NOT deserve all this suffering.....a professional psychologist will be able to help you get through this xxxx sending big hugs xxxxx