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    Mainly Pure-O. False memories are tough.

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    Endurance training (cycling), training, psychology, music, reading, writing on forums, neuroscience (free will), nutrition and so much more.

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  1. I dont know. Today I was out and I saw a firecrew and then I saw them putting pellets on the ground. First thought thatvit could be food but then I searched the public alarms and it said "dangerous substance on road - fuel". I was about 30nmeters away but it wa sblowing in my direction... They firemen didn't wear masks but yea.
  2. I already left. Yes it is very disgusting, and pretty sure it is intentional.
  3. There is a library which I sometimes visit. This spring when I was there some day did I discover snot on the desk. I analyzed it but I come to the conclusion that it could have been my own. However this very day did I discover it again on another desk so now am I certain that it is intentional. It was in the middle and all. Pretty diagusting, unfortunely did I discover it after I had laid my bag there but nothing else got contaminated. Pretty disgusting isn't it?
  4. There are a lot of what ifs in your text. You need to stop analyze the situation and please do not go after "answers" to this situation you are in. Instead, shift your focus to something else.
  5. Yes yes I do agree. I have had some more thoughts lately and I have to do my thing. Also throwing in some overall mindfulness or no, throwing in meditation. Because I prefer to shift the focus because that is where I find the solution to this problem we all have. Actually started today again with the meditation and it was great.
  6. The other thing. That I delayed her getting help, even if it was with 1 second. But the thing isvthat he honked when he was beside me. So not like he honked behind me and then I moved. I feelt like I had caused her death or atleast contributed to it. It is vetter now but got really scared.
  7. Hello. I was cycling past the hospital today and the emergency is on that side of the hospital so there is a way up to the emergency. I didnt really cycle on the wrong side. So a car is passing me and he is using the horn when he is passing or after. I did look back and they were caring out a lady from the backseat. Obviously or well maybe not a psychopath would, but instantly I got anxiety. Sooo now do I feel guilty of causing something. Worst case is death. I am thinking about going to the emergency and ask. But that would be a compulsion I guess. I am normally very careful when I am using that road because I know it is the way up to the emergency but I didn't do it this time.🥶 edit: it was not like the car was honking when he was behind me and I had to move. But even 1 second are important in those situations...
  8. I have to agree with Handy. Do not involve in the patient's ways to get reassurance and that could be anything. When I was in group I saw a women who gave advices about which selfhelp-books were the best... which book had the right solution. At least the therapist should be out of touch for OCD's manipulative ways. Not accepting that an OCD-sufferer will twist everything to get reassurance is not a good start.
  9. Being anxious is great for the sufferer and the only way out. It all comes down to you stopping to avoid anxiety and embrace it.
  10. I would keep working on awareness so the OCD keept being in check. In your case I don't think this wishful thinking is of any use, you don't need to wish btw, you just start working for it right away.
  11. You are in the exact same position as 1-2 years ago. All the advices you got then applies today too. No, nothing will change if you keep doing like this, have anything changed the last 2 years?
  12. So I shouldn't really do research about what specific ingredients it is but I think there is aluminium too, a chemical I have been worried about because it is in deodorants and some people say it causes dementia and autism. The thing is that I was fearful of this product but today I got irritated so I just got it on my hands and I have been working with it last week too and I remember getting it in my hair, I didn't shower because I saw it as an exposure. Now I am anxious. I mean it can't be deadly but it is cancerogenic.
  13. I don't know how I thought I just used it because I was irritated, so I got it all over my hands. I used anti-seize for my bike and I read the safetypaper and it says that it is cancerogenic, so I am pretty anxious. This is what it says "Carcinogenicity Category 1A" and that means 1A ('known to have carcinogenic potential for humans'), based largely on human evidence. I guess it is the mineral oil which is in the grease. and mineral oil is very cancerogenic. 😫😫
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