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  1. I can see that but Crack is pretty damn serious. Also I feelt really really strange on the way home. But I do know that I never will know. Shame I didn't call the police instead I worried about it
  2. Just when I had started cycling home for the day, I decided to take another road, it always seems to happen when I do something in a different way than usually.. Well I went in to a tunnel, and in the end of the tunnel I saw two drugusers and one of them sat at the ground smoking in a crackpipe, you saw smoke so this is not a false alarm... I got anxious pretty much instantenous. It was 1 hour ago and I have been googling my whole way home, there is one good study (on passive cracksmoking/exposure) but as usually you never know about the amounts... I think I got affected because I feelt tingling, dizziness and still feeling lightheaded. Also had a hard time focusing when I went home. What if I get tested in the close future and I test positive? This is really not my main worry but it should be I guess, because it's a real worry. Never thought about calling the police because I got caught worrying but I should have called...
  3. That is just black and white thinking. If it was true nobody would overcome OCD... It would mean that if you once overcome it there would be no risk of it getting back in.
  4. Great for her being able not letting it control her. And there are always something which can be learned from anything. Who even knows folks. What if the psychiatryxommunity removes OCD as an diagnosis, will you then stop trying to get better? Please don't. Because all of those diagnosis are not even clearcut, look at autism how it have changed in the latest years. Problem with people with OCD is the need of certainty and stability.
  5. I dont know. Today I was out and I saw a firecrew and then I saw them putting pellets on the ground. First thought thatvit could be food but then I searched the public alarms and it said "dangerous substance on road - fuel". I was about 30nmeters away but it wa sblowing in my direction... They firemen didn't wear masks but yea.
  6. I already left. Yes it is very disgusting, and pretty sure it is intentional.
  7. There is a library which I sometimes visit. This spring when I was there some day did I discover snot on the desk. I analyzed it but I come to the conclusion that it could have been my own. However this very day did I discover it again on another desk so now am I certain that it is intentional. It was in the middle and all. Pretty diagusting, unfortunely did I discover it after I had laid my bag there but nothing else got contaminated. Pretty disgusting isn't it?
  8. There are a lot of what ifs in your text. You need to stop analyze the situation and please do not go after "answers" to this situation you are in. Instead, shift your focus to something else.
  9. Yes yes I do agree. I have had some more thoughts lately and I have to do my thing. Also throwing in some overall mindfulness or no, throwing in meditation. Because I prefer to shift the focus because that is where I find the solution to this problem we all have. Actually started today again with the meditation and it was great.
  10. The other thing. That I delayed her getting help, even if it was with 1 second. But the thing isvthat he honked when he was beside me. So not like he honked behind me and then I moved. I feelt like I had caused her death or atleast contributed to it. It is vetter now but got really scared.
  11. Hello. I was cycling past the hospital today and the emergency is on that side of the hospital so there is a way up to the emergency. I didnt really cycle on the wrong side. So a car is passing me and he is using the horn when he is passing or after. I did look back and they were caring out a lady from the backseat. Obviously or well maybe not a psychopath would, but instantly I got anxiety. Sooo now do I feel guilty of causing something. Worst case is death. I am thinking about going to the emergency and ask. But that would be a compulsion I guess. I am normally very careful when I am using that road because I know it is the way up to the emergency but I didn't do it this time.🥶 edit: it was not like the car was honking when he was behind me and I had to move. But even 1 second are important in those situations...
  12. I have to agree with Handy. Do not involve in the patient's ways to get reassurance and that could be anything. When I was in group I saw a women who gave advices about which selfhelp-books were the best... which book had the right solution. At least the therapist should be out of touch for OCD's manipulative ways. Not accepting that an OCD-sufferer will twist everything to get reassurance is not a good start.
  13. Being anxious is great for the sufferer and the only way out. It all comes down to you stopping to avoid anxiety and embrace it.
  14. I would keep working on awareness so the OCD keept being in check. In your case I don't think this wishful thinking is of any use, you don't need to wish btw, you just start working for it right away.
  15. You are in the exact same position as 1-2 years ago. All the advices you got then applies today too. No, nothing will change if you keep doing like this, have anything changed the last 2 years?
  16. So I shouldn't really do research about what specific ingredients it is but I think there is aluminium too, a chemical I have been worried about because it is in deodorants and some people say it causes dementia and autism. The thing is that I was fearful of this product but today I got irritated so I just got it on my hands and I have been working with it last week too and I remember getting it in my hair, I didn't shower because I saw it as an exposure. Now I am anxious. I mean it can't be deadly but it is cancerogenic.
  17. I don't know how I thought I just used it because I was irritated, so I got it all over my hands. I used anti-seize for my bike and I read the safetypaper and it says that it is cancerogenic, so I am pretty anxious. This is what it says "Carcinogenicity Category 1A" and that means 1A ('known to have carcinogenic potential for humans'), based largely on human evidence. I guess it is the mineral oil which is in the grease. and mineral oil is very cancerogenic. 😫😫
  18. What is the point if the only right answer is the wrong one? We won't give you the wrong stuff
  19. So for me who just come back here after let's say 14 days and once again reading your posts I get this feeling of "still in her head". And that is what you have to understand, you are stuck in your head and you won't come out with the methods you are using. Your normal is far from ok, and your extreme is the way you need to go.
  20. Thank you again, I feel guilty because of it but I have had such anxiety the last days and yesterday and today is just painful. It is like I am constantly searching for someone to attach to but then when I actually sit down and speak with them I am just in my head feeling anxiety. I said sorry a few times and I do know that it is normal to feel guilty in this situation. I will just do my best to move along, I do agree with her that I have failed and that too is hard to bear. At least I am not doing compulsions, but I do have tics. It is a little better now but it can be that the text is bad written because it is hard to focus when you are having anxiety. Thanks again
  21. Ok, thank you very much both of you. I am just tired of this circle reapeating itself, over and over again. I find a intresting relationship or anything and I just seem unable to not get totally focused on that. So I haven't been able to cope with the situation at home because I have had other people around me but now it got very hard, and I am very anxious. However, I am not doing compulsions, I am just feeling very lonely and agitated, which is bad because I am trying to do things, all I can do is watch the phone over and over again. Thank you very much.
  22. Yet another relationship cracked and I am feeling really lonely again. And my relative yelled at me really much and I couldn't take it so I throw a empty pillbottle out from my room there, there is a door to the kitchen and it went in there I suppose, she said it hit her, first she said it hit her on the hand but then she said it hitted her in the head. So now I just feel like it is too much. The thing is that I am feeling anxious because of the loneliness and it is just very much. It just got too much when my mother said that I was a failure and such to my dad, I do know that I am a failure and that I haven't done what I should have done in life but it just is too much when everything is cracking down. A two months realationship which went from contact all the day to nothing... and not even an answer now. But now instead I am feeling guilty and why am I doing this, I have beaten up my own mother
  23. Totally wasted. How much more time do you want to waste?
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