jez2005
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About jez2005
- Birthday 11/04/1971
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OCD Status
Sufferer
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Type of OCD
Pure O
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Gender
Male
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Bedford
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Interests
Dad stuff: art, music, politics, physics, history, psychology, tech, positive parenting, DIY, environment, gardening, vegan cooking.
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I felt something similar when I started a course of CBT in 2017. I often find that when you fight the compulsions then the OCD fights back another way. It's a constant struggle which I'm sure your therapist will be aware of. If I gave the compulsions an inch they would re-establish quickly, but I got to the point where I was beginning to think it was fun to ignore them and did benefit quite a bit from the CBT. Don't be so hard on yourself. You're doing great!
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Well done! I'll have to go myself one day!
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Just what I felt when first rerad your original post. It's very reassuring to find you're not the only one with OCD and even more so when we discover ppl with similar hang-ups too! My wardrobe is still very limited as a result! The sooner we find help the better with OCD, that's for sure... Wishing you all the guts and determination to get on top of it!
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I have a pile of clothes I have kept and still can't wear because I have thought of a certain person, thing or event which my Pure O has "tainted". I'll often not buy an item I like because when I first touched it or I had a trigger thought or when I got something home after buying it and have had to return it for whatever reason. I've had arguments with staff in shops when I've tried to get refunds! Very frustrating embarassing etc. I'm hoping one day I'll be able to wear this stuff but haven't mustered the courage yet! We all know the solution - wear it. Doing it is the problem and I still haven't beaten it yet...
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Hi - I did something similar while at Uni - from a superstitious starting point and did find myself having to recite prayers in my head for a period which has subsided but I still cringe knowing that I found it necessary as I'm not religious. The best way of coping is difficult to say depending on how strong the compulsion is - I would see a GP and try and get help with it if it is as intrusive as it sounds. My pure O really messed up the degree I was doing and I cant help thinking I would have done better if I'd gotten some help. "You Are Not Alone" for sure!
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Karma, the power of intention, the power of words?
jez2005 replied to a topic in Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
Totally understand this one S&C! It had it worse when I was younger and even now the associations with listening to a particular song or album can trigger OCD spikes which on the whole I can ignore... 'Surrounded' is a great way of describing it - it's such a horrible time-wasting condition... -
Very normal to confuse your dreams with reality, especially when you've just woke up! This sort of thing happens to everyone, just with us OCDers we tend to worry that it's something to be concerned about and obsess about it.
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Karma, the power of intention, the power of words?
jez2005 replied to a topic in Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
When magical thinking OCD and religious concepts combine it can be very unhelpful. It's like pouring petrol onto a fire in my case! You could describe OCD thinking as the perceived concept of Karmic thinking in a nutshell. ie "if I do, think or say "bad A" then "bad B" will happen to me" etc - one thing I heard recently about the meaning of Karma roughly translated means "your doing" which means it does not necessarily mean that lots of inordinately bad things will happen to you because of what you do, just that it's a teaching to be aware of the consequences of everyday actions.... Of course everyone with OCD can be fully aware of this but it doesn't stop the fear and dread which comes with it. -
I'm the same with 13 and anything that is considered bad luck. Very annoying. Even typing the number here fills me with anxiety - its not the number itself, just the fact it has been associated with bad luck, so it's very much a cultural thing. In other cultures it's a "lucky" number but the doubt keeps dragging me back to the default irrationality that 13 is bad and to be avoided at all costs - I can't even speak the number most of the time, and if other ppl do then I have to wait until they say another number before the anxiety subsides. I totally sympathise with your problem naval and can say that the only way to deal with it is to ignore it and work through the fears...
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Hi Stonelizard I developed OCD because of the morbid fear of getting schizophrenia (because my father has it). This was 20 years ago and Im happy to say I've never developed schizophrenia and have never taken medication but still have OCD which is of the magical/superstitious variety. I wish I had tackled the OCD earlier but was scared to be diagnosed schizophrenic at the time. You sound like you're doing the right thing and talking about this rather than letting it go on - best of luck to you :biggrin:
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Hello from a Pure O sufferer! Just joined recently myself! Hope you find it helpful here...
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Yep Another magical thinker here too. Fears of personality change, possession, synchronisity (one thing co-inciding with another) numbers, religious stuff. Grim isn't it?
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Hi Beth It's so infuriating that so called 'friends' send these things on. Especially as they don't suffer with OCD but still obey the instructions in the letter!! My OCD centres around luck/omens/numbers etc and I understand totally what you're dealing with. I have ignored them before but I know how it can cause great anxiety. Some people just have a higher anxiety threshold when it comes to this sort of thing but they still get passed around!! Thirteenth post - STRESS!!