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Ben Dark

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  • Birthday 23/03/1997

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  1. Thanks for your message my friend. Definitely helped me stop overthinking things. it’s just my head thinks I live tidy, but then the other part of my head is like I need to be doing something else but not sure how to have it. You with me ??? :-)
  2. Hi all, dose anyone else overthink things in there home and wether it’s tidy or not. Really not sure if it’s just untidy or I am overthinking things. Thanks Ben
  3. Hi Freya, Totally can relate to your post, not in a good place here myself, and haven't quite found the path to resolution, not giving up tho, we will all get there. when you go to doctors, just make sure you put your foot down if you think it needs to happen and you just don't want to accept pills for a answer. They have recently sent me away and told me to take my sertraline for 3 more months and come back if nothing sorts out. I already have made them aware of how I feel, but if you don't be hard to them, they don't don't seem to take you serious. Make sure your nice and polite, but tell them how it is, and how you feel. anymore support or questions please pop by in a private message and we can speak further. let me know how doctors goes Ben x
  4. What a good idea Hal. think I will have a look on the link you provided about a tablet dispense. thank you for that. so with the problems I am having with memory do you experience this or ever experienced this? im not really too sure what to look online to find something most approipiate for my needs. at present im finding I want to go out on the weekend and have a blast on alcohol as this just really relaxes me and takes away the pressure in my head and depression. I know tho alcohol is a depressant and when the drink gets out your system you feel very down and depressed. a lot of my anxiety and depression is down to my life style I think, the issue is can't see nothing good in what I do hence why I think I don't want to purse things I need to do on a daily basis. at the minute have a bit of a nasty habit of going to bed silly o clock and waking up 5pm in the evening next day.. hows things been with you.? I sense you probably have a feel of my depression as my reply here is very late, a lot of that is due to the fact my motivation is out the window.. Ben :)
  5. Thanks for your message Hal, My Docs have just increased my medication to 150mg from 100mg so I hope to feel some effect now with all luck. I will soon see. They suggested I took the medication in the mornings as well so it can get into my system and by bed time it should make it easier for me to rest and sleep. im finding going out and socialising very difficult as I am doubtful people think certain things about me. The only time I go out and actually enjoy the atmosphere is when I’ve pre drinked at home and feel buzzing lol. Would really love to get to the bottom of all these issues and get myself out this misery. I do think a lot of it is down to my past and how I’ve been brought up, but then think some of it is due to how people how decided to turn there backs on me, and feel very lonely and isolated. I see the link you posted, cheers for that. Will check that out . Regarding local clubs in my area don’t think there is anything interesting I would want to get into in my town. Think I would have to go a few miles out which isn’t really a issue as I really need to get myself out this mind of negativity, and depression I have every day. Sometimes I read replies on here and can’t even reply as just got no motivation, now that’s really not normal is it? Do you experience this?? Or could be I take my tablet for my aniexty and depression, then few moments later i can’t remember if I’ve took it... a thing I’m experiencing at the minute is I have loads of things to do with my motivation decides to turn off, then things pile up. But no matter how many things I’ve done that day. Everything still seems to be going round my head (it’s like I’ve done nothing of the things I’ve needed to do) if this makes sense. Hope your weekend is going well .. :-)
  6. Hi Hal, thanks for your nice message. think Im gonna try and cut the alcohol out for 1 month at least and see how I feel as every time I seem to go out and have a few drinks of alcohol I seem to get the feeling that everything is great at the moment of drinking and being surrounded by the up lifting atmosphere, then find in the morning when I wake up I feel more worse then I generally do daily. but alcohol isn't the main issue I would say. I feel very alone here, don't have any family who is interested, or find I have any friends who is interested in me. for quite some time been struggling to get things done and I still do now, and im wondering if its more than Depression and OCD? not sure if its the fact of the mental abuse I've gone through in my past and see nothing is good in what I do, or there is something else mentally not right with me. do experience lack of energy initially when you wake up and de motivated, and struggle to get a good nights sleep? you don't know of any of social sites where people have the same condition and you can plan to meet up etc? im not sure on here, but if im right in saying you like to keep everything within the website only don't you :) anyways how you doing lately you all good... Ben :)
  7. Hello Everyone, im aware it’s been a while since I’ve posted but at moment just feel I want to live depressed and fed up each day, but know has clicked the only way forward around these issues is too get out there if I’m not sure what I’m doing is right or need some advice. Unfortunately this weekend is going pretty rough. Was ment to going away with some family memebers who I’ve known many years throughout my childhood, but unfortunately they had purchased a kitten from me agreeing to pay at the time, then when I chased about money they decided to block all communication and make out to there side of the family and there friends who I was ment to be seeing that I give them the kitten too look after which they know what was agreed at the time, and would hope they would know in there heart what they’ve done and the disaster they have caused is wrong. anyways don’t want to bore everyone with my life problems. Sorry peeeps.. this was just a post to see if anyone gets similar symptoms as myself. I always find the only time my brain can relax and can gather all my thoughts properly without everything going around is when I drink acohol. Anyone else experience this. Also find my head is like a foggy mess and feels jammed (not sure if this is the best way to explain lol) . And seem to forget something I’ve done a second ago, for example: it might been I took my antidepressants, and forgot and doubting myself repeatedly. Is this normal to experience. i probably have all your answers in the back of my head lol, but could be wrong. Does anyone find sertraline works??? Sorry to go off on a tangent, really just needing some answers as this is really impacting my life a lot. Dont think it helps a lot of things the fact I’ve been controlled from a parent throughout my life, and is probably causing some of the symptoms i am experiencing I.e memory issues etc. Thanks all in advance for your replies Ben ?
  8. Thank you polar for your message, very wise words there. In my rational side of my head, I see I need to stop fixating on girls and relationships and do things to please myself. But just can’t seem to do it. Thanks again for message much appreciated Ben
  9. Hi all, apologies if my post seems to be a bit repetitive. At the moment I’m currently waiting for intensive CBT. I’ve been waiting now for quite a few months and seems to be talking its time. My head at the minute, is just going round and round. Dunno if anyone else experiences this and if so has a strategy for managing, but my head just gets so obsessed with stuff. Like today had a date with a girl off online and had my hopes set to getting in a relationship, she seemed genuine. But it’s gone totally the other side, and now just stuck on it and obsessed then almost stay at the bottom for awhile depressed if that makes any sense. Any advice or techniques would be highly appreciated. Many thanks in advance.
  10. Thank you all for your post’s, most appreciated as always. Think I need to limit myself. Maybe to two pints when I go out. Find as well when I have drank I’m very aware of people around me and my surroundings Ben
  11. Hey everyone, just thought I’d do a quick post. I don’t go out drinking every weekend, but when I do, I find the next day I’m very doubtful in what has happened in the present time of being out having drinks. Also worry about my body and something bad might really occur. Suppose lot of people are going to possibly say, if drink is causing this effect, don’t drink. But being young really don’t think it’s that simple. What you peeps think. There was a time well felt bruising on my arm next morning, and I was thinking someone perhaps proded me with something. Finding this is really spoiling my night. Any answers, many thanks in advance to you all :-) Ben
  12. Any other advice would be highly appreciating Is it normal not to understand words when reading when battling OCD?
  13. Hi Sophie, thanks for your post. I’m currently not taking any medication at present, just trying to manage with natural techniques. But coming to the point where I think it will probably help while studying this course. Currently on waiting list as well for CBT and hope when that gets going things to start to work out better. Thanks again for your advice. Cheers Ben
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