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I know its ocd but it has such power over my thinking. I know ocd is irrational. what can i do at the present time.

I telled cbt therapist what my ocd is about when i went to see if they can help me. I know what your on about. but if the words set my ocd off i will be worses for the first cbt with this new mental health team helping me.

I will write down but put the words different so that i don’t after tear it up and throw it away. I do know its a ritual but thats the only way i think it will work with challenging the ocd in cbt.

When I go for cbt with core mental health team a Wednesday. I was telled to make a list of all my ocd rituals. But I don’t really like writing down my ocd rituals because I might after do rituals and tear up the paper and through it away what should I do. I find easy to talk to cbt therapist about my problems than make a list for when I go. They telled me to make the list so i can stop each rituals. if anybody understands what i mean.

For my ocd I only take one serteline 100 mg. And my ocd was at its worst 6 years ago. Anti depressant affect people differently some don’t get side affects some do. But if you think it affect to much you should go and see a doctor at mental health hospital. And they can advice you on what to do.

I could ring them up core mental health team but I will speak to autism social worker this week. I find ring up people in mental health service difficult they past from one department to another. And if I did it would make my ocd worser and worrying what was going on. With them helping stopping my ocd.

I Did have job over eleven years ago helping my uncle who was a builder. but i was also at my worst with my mental health there and the though of working in stressful job i don’t think i could do it now. wasn’t getting help then so. won’t want to work in factory or or helping building anymore. i would sooner likely want to work in an office. i have got computer skills and have done computer courses in the past.

I am going to cbt tomorrow but won’t know what happen there after cbt because she is going on maternity leave but have been referred to new mental health team called core mental health team its just really for a year and the person telled me that i can do cbt with them . that person telled me to make list of what ocd problems i should start with. when went to go and see them they were saying there a link between me having autism and ocd and that it take longer to challenge ocd with autism. does anybody know anything about this.

I rang up community mental health team today and was telled I have not been allocated a community psychiatric nurse yet but because I have been seriously depressed since I did cbt last week they will ring me up by Friday. To tell me when I will get a community psychiatric nurse to see me. Hope they can do something for me.

I have autism but it doesn’t effect me really like ocd does. I also have depression and have had an another mental health problem years ago which was serious.

Medication on its own doesn’t sort out ocd .cbt and challenging the ocd every day will only do that.

I will try to get better I fought through some hard time in my life. And I am still on planet earth. And I know that I won’t let my mental health problems beat me I will recover and empowering with knowledge about these false believes ocd is telling me. And I will do everything that non mentally ill people do. When I get better.

I think helps to know that theres other people with ocd and your not the only one.

I know it will be hard to get rid of some of my main ocd rituals thats what get to me how can stop doing rituals for people and other ones. and will i recover with this cbt therpist or another. i am worse when i have time to think. when i am outside going on autism groups trips i have people to talk too. and when i go outside with family. you see i am really isolated really have been since i was young. got picked on at high school. and i have high function autism.

I was misdiagosised in 2007 with psychosis . when in fact i had ocd. only in 2010 did get a diagnosis of ocd and take anti depressants and i was with early intervention psychosis . for three years up to 2012 and i had cbt with them for a year and it helped a lot but the cbt they did was mainly for psychosis. and after that came back been with community mental team and did cbt but i could’nt realy unstand the cbt therpaist. and now three years later doing cbt but i have high function autism and i find it realy hard to understand the therpaist. i after realy get to know the cbt thrapist first. for me some of them are dumbfaounded saying that some of my riutals are what people do.