Hi there,
I’ve struggled with OCD most of my life with a few bad periods here and there. I haven’t been on this forum in a couple of years. My son died 2 years ago and it was a very traumatic time and I had post traumatic stress for many months after. Since then I have all kinds of obsessions over my health. I’ve had twitching all over my body for months and convinced myself I had MND. I went to the doctor and she reassured me it was stress related. The twitching eventually stopped and I felt relief for a bit. Now my worries have turned to cancer. I am constantly checking my body for lumps etc. Any little pain or lump and I’m straight away acting like I’m dying. I try so hard to reason with myself but I’m exhausted with it all. I’ve found a small lump on the floor of my mouth and now I think I either have mouth cancer or lymphoma. I’ve spent hours on google looking at symptoms and this only makes me feel 10 times worse. I have young children and I am terrified of not being around to see them grow up. It’s on my mind all the time. I’ve booked an appointment with my dentist and a full health check with bloods etc. I’m so afraid ALL THE TIME and I feel at times I would be better off dead. I don’t want to suffer anymore. Is this OCD or Health anxiety? Does it matter? And would treatment be the same?
