I have been having thoughts that I am gay knowing I'm not and lately it's got so bad that it feels like I have convinced myself that I am but I'm not, like I will think about something to do with it and I feel no fear of it however it's causing me so much pain. I've tried saying to myself every tme I have a thought " so what If I were gay it's no big deal" I'm not sure if that a good thing to do or not but it's starting to feel like I've convinced myself I'm gay but I'm not and I just feel my libido and gone lately and advice?