I'm ridiculously compulsive, and I know I am, I'm not just a clean freak, I can't eat without cutlery, even toast and pizza, and I can't put my hands anywhere near my face without washing them. I hate holding hands or touching things that everyone else has touched like handrails and I often use my sleeve to open doors, I really hate germs and I compulsively wash my hands all of the time (not a great idea considering that I have eczema). I also have another strange thing about toilets? I always have to be able to access one? I'm not too sure why and I constantly have to go, exactly 2 times before I can sleep? I do subtle things like I have to be at the back of a group, if I'm not I feel as though someone will get hurt and it will be my fault. I'm 15 and this is really embarrassing, I really want to get help because I hate living like this but I can't bring myself to get a diagnosis. If I were to get diagnosed what would the doctors do/ Does anyone have experience of the UK system of dealing with OCD?