Hi I am new to this forum but certainly not new to anxiety and OCD, both of which I have suffered with for about 8 yrs. I’ve tried CBT but couldn’t work out how it was supposed to help. Anyway recently I’ve had a really bad relapse of my symptoms. Basically long story short, I was starting to think about the long term effects of the drugs I take ( Quetiepine and Pregabalin ) and thought I was well enough to start reducing them, I am now under the care of the GP after being ‘discharged’ from secondary community mental health team.
Then I had something that was wrong with my physical health - a cancer scare, where I had to wait weeks to get the all clear, and basically it pushed me over the edge. Now I am suffering from what I think is health anxiety and convincing myself ( or rather my own brain is tricking me into it) that I now have a life altering illness and I really do have the symptoms. Can anyone relate to that ?? Not sure if I’ve put that down how I mean it to come out.
So, I’ve increased my meds up to the original full dose and am just waiting to see if that improves matters. My Gp has re refered me back to secondary care but as wel all know, that can take forever.
How do I get through this without going so mad that I just cave in. I am not myself I am a quivering wreck, I cry all the time. My poor husband works away from home and he can’t take it either, seeing me so down and upset. The future is a big black hole with me in the middle making my whole family miserable by me having some disabling Illness relying on them to care for me.
I don’t know if the thoughts are real or if they are my illness - it’s terrifying ....