Hi louloulou, I just wanted to say that I understand everything you are feeling and going through. Our daughter, now 11, saw CAMHS for her "checking" when she was in year 4 of Primary, so aged 8. CAMHS really helped and she has managed her generalised and separation anxiety well since then and through the Primary to Secondary school transition. Unfortunately Secondary school has provided too much uncertainty for her and she is now really struggling. Her checks are now monopolising the time she spends at home., and she is also now doing them on the walk to school in an attempt to make herself feel safe for whatever the day brings. She has found the normal year 7 friendship issues to be hugely triggering and is really struggling. Her checks are all around making sure everything is safe - so if her sister's bedroom light is on, it means she is there and she's not on her own upstairs. If she calls out specifically for me and I respond, then she knows I am still alive and haven't been taken. She has deep rooted fears of abandonment and loss linked to family bereavement and she has dreamt since this time of a witch that comes and takes me away. Or the witch might take over me and she won't know if it is me, or the witch talking. The checking starts from the minute she gets home, and escalates at bedtime - getting her out of her school uniform is tricky as if she's in home clothes, it means bedtime isn't that far away and she will do anything to ensure that she stays awake so that tomorrow doesn't come. We are really struggling as a family and my eldest daughter is finding it very difficult. We are doing our best to not accommodate the OCD but it is very difficult when she is so desperate - last night, she sat at the top of the stairs sobbing for us to hug her - the hugs are part of the checking and I feel desperate at hearing her, especially when every part of me wants to rush to her and provide that comfort. The GP has re-referred her to CAMHS but we've been told it could be up to 18 months to wait for even a decision as to whether she can be seen. I'm not sure I can offer any words of advice, but just reading your post made me feel some comfort that we aren't alone and so I hope mine can do the same for you.