ermie24

Thanks for your nice replies. Nevertheless I am still very shocked by what I saw. I haven't eaten anything in two days. I wished I could unsee what I saw, but I can't. I feel as if every bit of joy I had was taken away from me. I feel that I should have known that there are good reasons a site is down and I blamed myself for it.

Hello, I've had OCD since my childhood. I need help now, because I'm terribly anxious about what happened yesterday. Yesterday evening I searched for a famous hentai website. I had seen in a news article that this site was down and I wanted to find an article to know why. I'm not interested in hentai, but as I have anxiety to stumble accross illegal content, I wanted to know why it was down. As I scrolled on the page, I noticed a suspicious and disgusting google title page (with the word hentai in the website title) that involved minors. Of course I didn't click on it and didn't visit the website, but I feel terribly bad. It was on the first page of the google search results. As I didn't click on the link, I don't know if it's a cartoon video or a clickbait. I hate myself. I wished I had never done this search. I want to cry. I feel guilty. I need help. I won't see my psychiatrist until Friday and it seems an eternity. Thanks for your help.