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But I dont know if I think its OCD, ive had a few other sexual ocd themes before, POCD, incest, and all that and this one feels more real and while I really wish this was OCD im not sure if it is because this feels like I get physically turned on but I dont want to do anything to animals. Wouldn't someone who is really into this look for opportunities to do something with animals. I dont do that

God this is so gross and I hate it but I can't deny the feelings I get in my groin, it feels like im turned on and not exactly like what my other groinal responses feel like. I only get this "turned on" feeling when I think of something phallic or something vagina like and this applies to animals genitals too. Do you think this is some lizard brain part of thinking of something sexual? I have no and I mean NO desire to ever do anything sexual to animals and I dont even know if I am able to think of them sexually, its kind of like thinking of a wall sexually. I can't be a zoophile I just cant see a life where im able to live like that, I can't get past this feeling I get in my groin whenever I see anything related to genitalia. Also it feels like I want to be into this sometimes and that I don't want it to be OCD but I do I really want it to be OCD and this scares me a lot, can anyone else relate to this or something? How can I not want it to be ocd I need it to be, I cant be attracted to animals I just cant be

Please I really need to know

When I think of animals mating or something sexual in nature like that, I get a turned on feeling in my groin but I always just brushed it off because I figured I was just feeling that because animals mating is sexual in nature and my lizard brain was just reacting to that. But now I have full fledged beastality OCD I don't know if its even ocd, I want it to be I think but sometimes it feels like I don't want it to be ocd but I dont understand. Ive always loved animals and I never thought of them in a sexual way, it always made me feel uncomfortable but I do get a feeling in my groin when I think of them now. When I looked up zoophiles, they mentioned that they were sexually turned on by animals and my gut reaction was "im not like that" but how can I know im not? Sometimes when I think of these horrible things involving animals it feels like I want to masturbate but not to those intrusive thoughts, how can I know whats a fantasy and whats not?