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Longtimesufferer 70

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  1. Thank you for your comments. can you please tell me how to practise exposure and response when it is literally something that appears in my head so fast yet distress me so much? Also I haven't heard of metacognitive therapy. Have you been helped by that yourself. Thank you
  2. I've had ocd with severe intrusive thoughts all my life, and most of these thoughts I cannot even remember, but Ive recently had what I can only describe as intrusive 'statements' jump into my head after Ive been talking about or discussing something which is a trigger for me. This is horrible as it seems like sentences that I would never think or want to say, in fact they are totally opposite to what I want in life and its like its my own voice saying these things and they are so mixed up too. Is there anything I can do to stop this happening as they just appear, Also why cant I remember all the other intrusive thoughts Ive had over the years even though they caused me so much distress at the time, ?
  3. deValentin Thank you so much for your help and taking the time to respond, especially where you said "What I would like to mention is the difference between what we know intellectually and what we feel emotionally" rang very true for me , I will now be trying really hard to stop my compulsions , which are mainly horrible self questioning even though it tortures me to do that but feel I have to before I can move on, so thank you so much again.
  4. I have had harm ocd and intrusive thoughts all my life since I was a child, however Ive been doing so much better lately, but was thinking back to how I used to think if I thought bad things it could come true. that eventually caused me to have a breakdown, It started the whole cycle of the ocd thoughts again,,, the ocd monster keep telling me things like 'you can have any thoughts enter your head , ie: that you want really bad things to happen to people you love' Of course I would never ever want anything bad to happen to anyone I love , I would give up my life for them,,, but this new thing has really got to me as I cannot stop repeating in my head , I could say this horrible thing or that horrible thing in my head , then what if having a thought makes bad things happen and the more I dont want to have any horrible thoughts ,the more I am getting again. what do i do now, ,please help if you can as i am really really upset and I keep thinking, but what if something like that came into my head just because it could , could it cause something really evil or bad to happen, please try to help me if you can I am desperate.
  5. I have had a lot of stress and worry lately, and think along with a lack of proper sleep it has caused more intrusive thoughts , and weirder , more horrific than ever. Every time I think I am handling them well, I feel the need to bring on the really horrible thoughts on purpose when I am with the person they are about ( which breaks my heart) and then, only then can i lay the thought to rest and move on,, but lately if / when I do that its not making a lot of difference , its just making me panic more over the thought, I then start all the self questioning are you sure you feel the right emotion? are you sure you wouldn't do that ? are you sure you don't want to and its really making me feel so down and even more distressed. Am I doing some sort of checking compulsion or is it because its always given me reassurance in the past to do this ? why cant I just move on any more?
  6. Hi everyone , Ive been doing quite well with my ocd , the trouble is that today when I got the intrusive thought , I slipped up and did a mental compulsion, As we all know it can be easy to slip back down the rabbit hole as its called. Problem is as I do my mental compulsions in threes I automatically did them three times, but feel very uncomfortable as normally it would send me into a spiral until I dont know how I feel no emotions except anxiety . Has anyone got any advice that will help me stop doing this, and if I slipped up again how can I get back on track . Thank you
  7. Thank you @PolarBear for your reply, I am trying really hard not to argue with the thoughts, trouble is I go a couple of days without doing this,then before I know where I am I am responding to them again, and feel so angry with myself and the whole cycle has started up again
  8. Thank you @NotRock for the link, I had never heard of ironic process before, but have learnt a lot from reading about it and its helping me to understand a lot more about why I am doing what I do in my head.
  9. Does anyone else ever think or feel that even their intrusive thoughts have become just a deeply ingrained habit just like the mental compulsions we may do? As I’ve had the horrible harm related thoughts for so many years I find that if I try not to think about them for a day or so they just pop into my head automatically , it then starts another automatic round of me bringing on the thoughts just so I can argue with them ‘its not me’ Im not like that or I would never want to do that. I really feel this has all turned into a habit, I don't enjoy any of this but really seem like a habit I cant stop, Has anyone else had this happen to them?
  10. Thank you , you are right I do know that no amount of reassurance will help, I always seem to be chasing impossible certainty, and always trying to get the right emotion / feeling when I have any of the horrible thoughts, then my mind goes blank ,numb and I cannot feel or think anything its like I am confused but frozen with fear.
  11. I was reading about how intrusive thoughts can come in the form of commands or orders and was thinking how horrible it would be if my ocd fears entered my head in the same way. Now all that keep going through my head is what if that happened to me , what if i have a thought that says this, or what if it tells me do these horrible thing which I fear with my ocd , I know I wouldn't because I don't want to do any of them things,, but it just keep replaying in my mind , what if i get this *** thought or that thought until im literally screaming almost out loud no I wouldn't ,, and i keep doing this until Ive reassured myself enough, which seem to be never enough reassurance ,, how can i get rid of these type of thoughts as I hate they are always about the people I love more than anything in the world, I am feeling physically ill over this and feeling so guilty that I am even questioning myself although realistically I know I dont need to.
  12. Hi Octavia I only started taking them 3 days ago at the lowest dose to start off with , so keeping fingers crossed , how are you getting on with them ?
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