I'm drunk and I have to finally confess and purge. I typed some words I shouldn't have during peak pocd. I was a idiot. I felt the relief was once search was clicked then I felt the urge complete. Luckily nothing illegal came up nor did I have any desire to see anything. The obsession and the need was to see that it DOESNT come up as ypu search. I'm **** scared you'll call the police or I'll be monitored. The same thing happened when the word abortion stuck I'm my head. I felt like I couldn't rest till I actually went on Google and saw/read everything about it. But googling abortion isn't illegal or sick.
Please try and understand, I'm not a pedo nor did I see anything nor did I want to.