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Thanks for all your support Hal. I feel quite alone in this at the moment and your advice and support means a lot. It’s still bugging me today, what’s really bugging me is the fact that I’ve written down that I did something that ‘may have been stupid’ and my brain that goes ‘does that mean I done something terrible?’ I’ve got a call with my doctor later. Thanks again, J x

Thanks Hal. I genuinely don’t know how much longer I can do this. I think what I’m trying to do, is remember what I was doing to ensure I didn’t do anything terrible. It’s just such a hard hard illness. I really don’t know if I’m strong enough to go through this again.

Hal, Thank you so so much for your reply. Been an anxiety filled, tearful day and I really appreciate your words and advice... and I know you’re right. J x

Hi all, I hope you are well. I’ve been on and off the forums since 2005, but I don’t know the login details for my old account. Anyway, I’m struggling with my OCD at the moment. This loop I’m stuck on at the moment is... I was looking back over some of my old posts and came across one from 2005 that says: ‘Then today, I had the usual repetitive rubbish mind rituals to 'check' what I had done, which just seems to be 'something' that I do. Later on in the day I was doing something, and I know I was. But then I thought, what did I just do, did I do something terrible, what if I did, if I was dead this would stop, but I dont want to die. I know in my own 'RIGHT' mind that what I done may have been stupid, but thats all, it didnt hurt anyone, and no-one else probably even took any notice of it. Ive said sorry, but the OCD just keeps drilling me, and its doing my nut right in.’ Im going round and round in circles trying to remember what it was I done that may have been stupid... it’s clear from my post that I done something so I don’t doubt that, but it’s really eating me up that I can’t remember what I done. I don’t know if anyone else has had this kind of thing. I just need to vent as I really feel like I’m slipping. J x

Doh! I shoulda put I've come down 20!! I'm on 60 now, then down another 20 soon x

Hi all! Hope you are all ok. Just thought I'd check in and let you know I'm reducing my citalopram. I've been on 80 mg for years now, but in light of the recent reports and findings about the drug, I've got to reduce. The doc had brought me down to 20mg since last Fri I think. Been having head shocks - sudden flashes of being dizzy and feeling unbalanced, a bit grouchy at times and feeling woozy and tired. Still got to come down again yet. Anyone else had to reduce? Ooba x

CBT again today. Have struggled a little bit recently, and went through this with my therapist. I've added a full post about the session to my blog on here http://www.ocdforums.org/index.php?app=blog&module=display&section=blog&blogid=289&showentry=4377 O x

Thanks Leggy - went well. I've put a full post about the session and what it involved, in my CBT Diary blog on here xx

Starting my CBT at 11.30 today Will be posting an entry in my CBT Diary blog later. Bit nervous.... O x

Hi Lottie! Thats a good idea, I already have a blog on here, but I might set up another, esp for CBT Ooba x

Hi TR, Just thought I'd say hi and welcome.You'll find lots of great support on the forums, and I hope you feel better soon. I really feel for you, keep posting. Ooba x

Hi all, Hope you are all ok and winning the battle Just thought Id let you know I start my CBT next Monday - that was quick. Ooba xx

Well done Leggy....well done xx

Ashley / Mods Do you have an Awareness Week email anywhere? flyer etc? My partner is going to email it out to all the secondary schools in Malling, Maidstone and Sevenoaks. She is a teacher, and schools in those areas are part of their 'partnership' so she is able to do this quite simply. Thanks O x

Hey all, Hope you are ok, and winning the battle with OCD. Had a positive response on my Facebook status today, that is going to help improve awareness. My status today is: 'Thank you to my friends who have taken the time to look at the links I have been posting about OCD - of which I am a sufferer. Its OCD awareness week. It's a horrendous illness, and runs alot deeper than washing hands, or flicking light switches - which are both common misconceptions. It can be disabling and cause massive suffering and turmoil - trust me, I know. If you are interested to find out more about OCD -http://www.ocduk.org/obsessions-compulsions' A friend who is a teacher in a secondary school replied: 'I'll promote this at work on my Healthy schools info board :)' How fab is that? And additionally, my partner who is a teacher in a large secondary school has asked me to put together and OCD Awareness Email and she is going to forward it to all the schools in their partnership (that's all the secondary schools in the Malling, Maidstone & Sevenoaks area!) Ooba xx