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Lostsoul

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  1. Hi Nikki. I understand what you mean, it's always difficult knowing whether to disclose OCD when being interviewed for jobs for fear that they may not employ you. If you feel you are able to then being open with your employer could be a good thing as they may be able to help you through it when you're struggling and need that little bit of extra support. Of course only you know whether you feel comfortable telling them though. I hope you're doing well still with therapy and that you'll be able to return to the job you love. ? I'm glad I decided not to give up my business now, I just have to keep pushing myself when my OCD is at its worst. Hopefully now I'm back on medication that will help lift my depression at least. Take care. X
  2. Hi Nikki. It's good that you are having some treatment, I really hope it helps you. Does your employer know you have OCD? I remember when I had to have some time off in a previous job, I was off for a good 6 months or so and my sick note from the doctor did say OCD and depression as the reason. I don't really like many people to know about it but on this occasion I didn't really have much choice. Take care.
  3. Thank you Nikki, I'm going to push through and try not to give up. I'm sorry to hear you're out of work right now, have you just taken a bit of time off? Xx
  4. Just a little update. I'm now on Fluoxetine and diazapam as and when needed. I've also decided to try and push myself through this tough time and not be so hasty about closing my business. Thanks again Gemma and Scott for listening and being supportive.
  5. Thank you for being so kind and helpful and offering me advice too. I am planning on giving Fluoxetine another go, I've pretty much had all the ssri's and some snri's too. I am off to the doctor's now, so thanks again and all the best for tomorrow.
  6. Thank you Scott. I was diagnosed with OCD when I was about 17/18 and I'm 37 now. I feel very ashamed that I still live at home, but it's purely because I've had to leave so many jobs over the years because of my mental health so it's just not been possible financially. This pattern of not coping in previous employment is what terrifies me about being successful in getting another job and maintaining it. I know exactly what you mean about having a disagreement with someone and then obsessing about it for ages. Amongst many other obsessions; I also tend to obsess a lot about what I've said to people in conversations and worry that somehow they may have misunderstood me and think that I'm a bad or dangerous person. You've done so well to continuously hold down jobs regardless of your OCD. You're right; it's an awful illness and certainly does knock your confidence and self esteem. It's the constant self doubt that destroys you. What is your new job going to be by the way?
  7. Hi Scott. I really appreciate you taking the time to reply and for sharing your experience with me. I'm so sorry to hear you've been having a bad time with your OCD too and it sounds like your ex boss is not a nice man. I have an appointment with a mental health nurse at my GP surgery this afternoon to discuss how I'm feeling and to sort out some medication. I feel like I've been hanging on by a thread for such a long time now and I just can't do it anymore. I need some help. I am very fearful that I will never get another job again, all I know is I just can't continue with my business anymore. I can't focus on work and I just want to hide away from everybody. Congratulations on your new job, I really hope it goes well for you tomorrow and that you get to work with some nice people this time.
  8. Hi Gemma, thank you for replying. I am at rock bottom at the minute. I have been trying to get help since around November time last year, but it's been a nightmare - it's a bit of a long story and I have felt very let down and unsupported. I've sent off a self referral form to Derby City Life links but not heard back yet and I'm also waiting to see whether the CCG will fund for the Oxford Specialist treatment.
  9. Hi everyone. I'm in a very low place right now to the point where I'm going to close down my own business (I'm self employed). I came off my medication due to side effects and I think my only option now is to go back on it. I am at breaking point and I simply cannot cope anymore. I was wondering if anyone else here has ever had to either give up employment or their own business due to OCD or depression? I suffer with both and right now I feel like a massive failure and of course I'm worried about my future too. I live with my parents but had hoped to eventually move out and run my business from my own house, however that is just not going to happen now. I'm frequently experiencing panic attacks, palpitations at night and I cannot sleep due to severe anxiety/intrusive thoughts. I don't have any hope anymore. I've had to pick myself up time and time again over the years and I cannot see any solutions for my problems which frightens me.
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