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lunadidi

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  1. Thank you so much for your help!! Makes things much easier for me knowing that I have people who understand me around and have my back through this :)) Can't wait for when this is over!!
  2. You're right, thank you. I'm so sorry about this. Ok, that helps. That's true hehe. I guess you're right. I know deep down that developing such a disorder out of nowhere at this age is HIGHLY unlikely, especially when you have something like OCD where it's actually the complete opposite! It's just so convincing it's crazy! It's annoying because you know it's your brain creating false sensations to match the thoughts. UGHHHHH. Even writing this I'm realising how stupid that person was for saying that! I'm sorry, I'm quite new to this, but seeking therapy and have recently started taking medication for it too. Hopefully it works!
  3. I have OCD and have been diagnosed by a professional, and recently my obsessions have moved to POCD I have never up until the beginning of 2021 thought anything about children in a sexual way. So I wanted to ask this (because many people who don't have any idea what they are talking about trigger my OCD with also facts that they are not sure are even true). Can you become a pedophile after you turn 18? If so how rare is it? I was carrying out a compulsion the other day where I was watching a video of a diaper change, which I was hoping would result in me coming out going "ok if you're not aroused by that, you DEFINITELY are not one" But I ended up getting really scared becuase I felt unwanted arousal. I feel like I should see a psychiatrist and get tested for pedophilia because I cannot tell if it is actually something else or I am becoming one. Someone also told me if you keep thinking about children in a sexual way, the chances are in 6 months you will become a pedophile. Is this true? Thank you for reading this.
  4. i'm so sorry about this but i have to ask these questions. 1. if i keep obsessing over pedophilia and keep having these thoughts will i become a pedophile?? 2. will i start becoming attracted to children if i keep thinking these awful things about them?? 3. do you think this will go away in time with medication and therapy?? i feel like now every time i see a child i relate them to my thoughts and i hate it. and i’m constantly looking up things like videos of children to check to see if i’m attracted to them.
  5. I was diagnosed with OCD last year. So yesterday I carried out a compulsion/EPR where I decided to watch changing diaper videos on Youtube. The main aim was to tell myself "see? you've Never been aroused by this kind of thing before so why would you now?" Well it didn't go well... I was looking at them and I got unwanted arousal. I felt my groin kind of tingle and swell up and this mainly happened when the woman touched the baby's thingy. I tried to make it stop but I couldn't and I kept thinking: "oh my god, I'm aroused, what if I've been thinking about pedophilia too much over the past couple of months and now I've become a pedophile?" or "what if now I can only assossiate sex with children because I've watched these videos? SO now I will only become aroused with children? What of this is my own fault?" or "What if I never realised I'm a pedophile? I can't have children of my own now!" I got so scared I started to cry and panic. Am I a pedophile in denial? I'm really scared. Someone please help me.
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