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Thank you my friend. I only just looked back on this so my apologies for the delay in response. Thankfully I sorted my self out and we are happy together and expecting our first child, I really appreciate your response because it honestly felt like a mental illness and if you don't go through it you'll never understand. It took alot of self reflection and there were some hiccups along the way and still a few on a rare occasion. But I learnt how to deal with these thoughts and show my partner the values she shows me. Once again thank you for your advice and I I am glad you and your partner are on the right road to a happy relationship.

Hello, any advice or anyone who can relate would help me massively I have been with my partner for almost a year and we are deeply in love with one another. However for the most of our relationship I have been obsessed with her sexual past. At first I didn't care but there further we progressed the more it took over my life. I have played her "colourful" past over and over in my head countless times and it leads to me asking persistent questions regarding it. I have asked her the same sexual questions on her past, I suppose hoping for an answer that will give me permanent reassurance from it. There are various triggers but sometimes id ask out the blue; a question on her past. This then gives me anxiety and anger and leads to an arguement and me threatening to leave. I have put the blame on her consistently but untill recently I know its me but I couldnt understand why I was so obsessed of her past. Why cant I just let it go? I fully now beleive i have ocd or relationship ocd and have a telephone assessment to see if they can see me to help. Looking back in my life I have had this issue in small doses but untill now its horrendous its ruining our relationship and my mental health, I feel now I should just be alone, or meet someone with a "perfect" past but I know that's ridiculous. I'm concerned they will brush me off with it being something else but I am certain its OCD. Has anyone been through anything similar?