I have so many thoughts, feelings and questions, I don't know where to start.
My daughter, now 13 has suffered for a couple of years (maybe as much as 3) with an official diagnosis coming in September time 2019 and subsequent medication. It took her to be self harming and thinking about suicide to get a diagnosis and meds even though we'd been in CAMHS system since 2018. After a few months things calmed down a bit and we had some control but her therapy with CAMHS has been focussed around general mindfulness and coping strategies rather than working on CBT to help, and a lot of this has been driven by her. we got the point in January this year where things seemed pretty stable and she stopped seeing her mental health nurse and had meetings with the psych (which are really only for med review) every 12 weeks. Then a few weeks ago something triggered her and things have got bad again. She is self harming in response to her bully telling her to do so or her friend will die. She's back seeing the mh nurse weekly, 6 week review with psych and increase in meds but it feels like we're in the depths of a low period at the moment and I can't get her out of it. I've removed all sharps from her room and don't leave her alone in the house. She's spending more time with me in the same room as me, but she's a teenager, and doesn't want to do this. I've tried to get her to engage in self-help activities, but at times when she's not thinking about OCD she doesn't want to think about it. We have an emergency appointment at CAMHS tomorrow to develop a safety plan it's that bad atm. The intrussive thoughts are horrible, the self injury is horrible, the panic and fear are horrible.
There are no support groups where I am, and limited services other than CAMHS - I can't engage in private therapy for her at this stage, our options are limited. i understand compared to the UK I'm lucky we are in the system as the waiting lists on the mainland are massive.
I haven't helped anything by facilitating with reassurance, but I'm so scared that I'll cause too much further distress by not doing so, I don't know where to start. I'm minded that I should get her out of crisis stage first.
I just feel like crying today.
