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Btw the firts time i had the this thought i did not like it

I just had a really POCD thought that was SO real i enjoyed it even though i dont like it cause its immoral, illegal or WHATEVER HELLish thing. I know im not a pedophile but why my brain liked it? If i try to think any other thing(i wont) i dont like it or if i repeat the thought i liked to solve if i really liked it i dont like it either. Is this ocd?wtf!!!

Tonite i was masturbating and i did not know if the kid i have POCD for was speaking loud from the garden or it was other but as i was masturbating i ejaculated cause got excited thinking it was him talking,i did not want that ever. i was thinking about mature girls. I dont like this trust me please. I only want relationship and like with girls my age.