EternalWorry

I heavily struggle with sexual obsessions. Sometimes I have 'intrusive feelings'. it feels like sometimes I like the thought and then it turn sends me down a spiral of anxiety and panic attacks. This leads me to do lots of my compulsions checking whether I do like it or not. I know this sounds bad, but I forced myself to fantasize about my obsession to test myself and it felt like I liked it but I don't want to like it I want these feelings gone out of my ******* head. Does this mean I need to come to terms and accept I truly like it deep down? I don't want to but I keep thinking in my head thats the only path and I hate it. Does anyone have experience with this?

Thanks for explaining your experience to me. I'll look into seeing my doctor soon then, but I don't know how good my support will be - I'm assuming you live in UK?. it's horrible, it drags me down completely

@DRS1 sorry I forgot to ask, how did you get diagnosed? I'm assuming you went to your GP first and then what happened?

thanks for the reply. I feel like breaking down and just crying sometimes, just want it all to stop. I'll have a look at that book, I find it hard to find the motivation to read books but I'll try and give it ago. Thank you for the recommendation

If anyone else wants to chime in, that'd be appreciated too!

I'll try to keep that in mind, thanks.

sorry i meant 'i can't find anyone esle who gets these 'mental feelings like they like it'

Hi @DRS1 Ive learned about groinal response and I dont care about them much, what I do care about is these feelings like I like it. I don't want these feelings, the obsession is something I disagree with on a moral level and I don't want to like it but I get these random moments where it feels like I do. I've tried reading online with people with ocd but i can't find anyone else like me. i can find anyone else who gets these 'mental feelings' like they like it. only groinal responses and intrusive thoughts seem to be there problems

sometimes it feels like i like the thoughts when I get images in my head of them. does this mean i do like them? i want it to go away and leave my head, just randomly throughout the day I'll get a thought of it and it'll feel like I like the thoughts mentally and then i get groinal response. i just want it to stop

Hi @Summer9173. Would this be the same for sexual thoughts/feelings? Sometimes I get images in my head and it feels like I like the thoughts and I hate it. I just want them gone from my head and to disappear.

Thanks, this really helps out a lot

@PolarBearHello. Ive been browisng older threads and I see you've been here awhile. You said this in one thread source for the thread (sorry if I messed up quote box) Ive been thinking about this subject for a very long time now. So i think I may have trained myself too. prior to the first time I was exposed to it, i never thought about this subject once so i assume ive trained myself to get that response due to the fact that Ive been obsessing over it for a long time. how can I undo the erections? although that erp I did was successful, it will probably happen again when i get a thought naturally. How do stop it?

I read ERP was best good for OCD. So I did it by exposing myself to this. At first my heart rate was high and I was questioning myself and I stopped that. Then I just kept exposing myself to it and was telling myself I do l like it and this is what I want to happen. I didn't get an erection and by the end of it I ended up feeling nothing. Did I do it right?

Does this mean I do like it deep down then?

I feel deeply ashamed of this. It's hard to type out. Back a year ago me and my wife were watching a show, and in this show the man let his girlfriend go into an open relationship and he watched them have sex. I got a erection seeing this (no mental arousal) and that completely sent me crazy. I started testing myself by imagining a scenario in my head with my wife and it was just groinal responses most of the time and extreme anxiety. Now it feels like I'm starting to like the thoughts and I don't want to like them. I'm experiencing anxiety just typing this out and I'm shaking.