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I'd be one of those...! Took anti depressants right at the beginning, along with occasional diazepam's (Valium) for when I was really bad, this was for about six months, haven't taken any medication since (eleven years.) Never ever had any form of CBT, therapy, counselling... nothing, nothing at all. Educated myself 'to a certain degree' about OCD, but also about very basic human psychology, human nature, sexuality, philosophy etc, but as I say on a very rudimentary level. Am I free of OCD...NO, and I never will be... but I am able to get on with my life, work (I'm self employed), and have something that seems 'somewhat' a normal life.... Yes. I also live alone following a divorce... therefore I am probably one one of 'the most alone' OCD sufferers you would probably ever come across... gosh it's rather tragic to actually write that down....Lol, but it is what it is, just got to get on with it... being totally alone I don't really have a choice even if I wanted. In saying all of that, Emmalou, or Giusss.... if your feeling rather alone (which is understandable) try and remember there is always some tragic old soul (me..) that is in both the psychological 'and' the actual physical sense, well and truly alone... and I'm 'still' here, it's hard at times... but I'm still here... and nothing has ever happened.. .

I know Emmalou, your right.. it is scary, and anyone with any experience of this, and also some degree of compassion, would fully understand your feelings, I know I do, and I do empathise with you, i really do. At the end of the day, you must do what's right for you..what you feel comfortable with at this moment, if right now your not comfortable in attempting the accepting uncertainty type thing, that's absolutely fine... you can carry on with your marvellous efforts in not engaging with the thoughts etc that you mentioned at the beginning of your thread, which seem to have proven effective, but at the moment your having a bit of a 'blip' which happens to all of us so no shame in that at all.

Apologies, I just want to edit this bit... probably better for me to have said: 'Ok, so here I am, 'possibly' inappropriately attracted to my son, I'd rather it not be this way but 'possibly' it is.... etc.

Oh absolutely, I, and I think many on here could identify and empathise entirely with your statement here.. Again, can totally relate, as I think many others would be able to... you haven't lost your sense of right or wrong, your simply mentally exhausted. I don't think that actively trying to visualise certain scenarios regarding your kids is really going to help you.. it's just a never ending circle of checking how you feel, finding some sort of temporary relief (possibly) and then it all starts again... it's you (or your OCD) trying to clarify certainty, and it's just not going to happen. Accepting uncertainty is usually the most successful way of dealing with this, even though at first it feels so counter intuitive and it would make you feel really weird. Your OCD is feeding on your anxiety, so if you can get to the position where you can potentially accept that 'indeed, you may actually be inappropriately attracted to your son..?' and you sort of 'deflate in defeat' in a manner of speaking, you will find that the anxiety dramatically reduces, which in turn helps you to see things more rationally and calmly, and then you will see it's all just OCD nonsense... it just happens, you don't need to do anything else other that say... 'ok, so here I am, inappropriately attracted to my son, I'd rather it not be this way but it is, it doesn't mean I'm a bad person, but here I am.' If you can get through the accepting uncertainty thing.. some call it unconditional self acceptance, you will feel so much better, I'm not going to say you'd be 'free of OCD' I could never say that... but if you can try to do this, and I know how counter intuitive it feels, you will see a marked improvement I'm sure. I remember that you previously stated you have had this for many years.. if you were a newbie I probably wouldn't be encouraging you to go down the accepting uncertainty route right at the beginning, as in my opinion it's a little too much to ask of somebody newly experiencing this, but as you have sadly been dealing with this for many years, I think it's appropriate in your case..?

Yes, it's absolutely fine and normal, but it wont make any difference to you what I, or anyone else says to you... because it's not about what others say to you, it wont change how you 'feel.' Putting the topic of 'coping and managing OCD' to the side for a moment... ask yourself a question, do 'you' genuinely and honestly think it's inappropriate for you to think your son is a handsome young man...? If you think 'well, no I don't think it's inappropriate, but I cant help but 'feel' it is' then this is purely an OCD matter. If however you think.. 'well, actually.. yes, I do think it is inappropriate to think my son is a handsome young man'.... (which your more than within your rights to think by the way).. then maybe you should look to see where and who are influencing these sorts of opinions in you. I honestly believe the internet and the media are helping in the rise of OCD cases across the globe with the ridiculous and radical nonsense spewed out on it on a daily basis. I think my sons are handsome (two in very early thirties and two in twenties) I think my daughter is very pretty (late twenties) and I have recently become a Grampy, and to me, my little granddaughter is the most pretty and gorgeous little girl in the whole wide world. Years ago... (before the world went mad) adults would often say about a pretty young girl or cute young lad... 'oh, they're going to break a few hearts when there older aren't they'.... it's normal to recognise whether somebody is pretty or handsome at whatever age they are, and even if you are related, it makes no difference. Nowadays if somebody said something like that, there would be certain people that would immediately start labelling them as 'potential paedo's' sadly this is the pathetic and ludicrous world we live in nowadays.... and it's doing more damage that good. I'm a straight man, yet I can see other men, particularly younger men, that I can acknowledge are handsome and can see why the women would go for them... doesn't make me gay. Like I said at the beginning though, you have to ask yourself and be honest with yourself whether you genuinely think this is inappropriate or not... if you think it's not but you cant help but 'feel' you are doing or thinking something wrong, then concentrate on the 'coping and managing OCD' aspect... (ps: part of this would be accepting that it could possibly be true and learning to be 'ok' with it) if however you honestly feel that it 'is' inappropriate, then concentrate on that and where this opinion is coming from.

Yes.. OCD can manifest in every possible way you could imagine, and it morphs it's way of making you question yourself over time. I have had 'I'm going to do it' 'I want to do it' 'I need to do it' 'I must do it' 'the only way to stop these thoughts is to do it' (that was scary) 'I want this (insert bad thing) to happen' .... and many more just like this, ranging from the blatantly horrible, to the downright warped and bizarre. Whatever your going through now, it's all exactly the same as your previous troubling thoughts or ruminations, it's simply differing content. You get them because your scared of getting them and what you feel it means about you... it means nothing about you by the way, well.. it means you have OCD, and that's all it means.

You haven't specified your age group Kc, but the sad reality of life is that friends (and even sometimes family) for most people, come and go... particularly as adults. Even though it seems you are displaying classic ocd type doubts about how you perceive your friends loyalty (or lack of) or maybe your doubting yourself as in 'what have I done to make people distance themselves from me, or they are out to get me..?' I don't think it's particularly beneficial to concentrate on those aspects (and they are probably false anyway) and probably better to focus on your own self contentment (I understand this isn't easy) whilst also try to accept that the point I am making here, and the above comment by @Howard regarding friends as generally in a state of flux, which for most people is probably true. Things, people, situations, priorities, and life.. change, of course some people have friends for life, but in my experience those people are very... 'very'... few and far between. Incidentally, I live alone, have done for about seven years now. It was difficult at first, but you do get used to it and also to doing things, going places... solo. I don't think I would ever want to live with somebody again if I'm honest, and regarding the OCD aspect as to how has it effected me by being alone, well, yes it was tough at first, but I genuinely believe that it has been a benefit to me more so than a hindrance.

This is SO refreshing to see and something I wholeheartedly agree with. Apart from at the very beginning, I refused point blank to let the whole 'OCD thing' become my entire identity rather than simply being 'a part of me, but not all of me'....and even though it has been hard... I feel having this approach has been a huge benefit. Floods, I would take notice of the above quote, and also try not to become 'obsessed' about the 'topic of OCD' in and of itself, it doesn't seem like you are, but it's so easy to fall down that rabbit hole. Your going to have ups and downs, but 'time' is your greatest friend and things will get easier over the course of time.

Well done Phil, and the slab/s are absolutely fine. Looks like your making some progress.

Take a day off mate will you for God's sake. Yes, you do come across as that actually. Why don't you go back to arguing with Handy about meds or something like that. I'll take on board your 'very wise' words..... or 'accusation' of having skewed perception.. thanks sensei...

Hello Snowbear, excellent post. Looking back at what I wrote this morning: 'nobody has the right to try and alter somebodies thinking' I think I worded it incorrectly to be honest, I suppose with us simply giving our opinions on things, that is 'in and of itself' an indirect way of trying to change peoples thinking..? My issue is the way some go about it.. I do 'not' take kindly to somebody making a comment that comes across as no more than 'scolding' me (and some others) for attempting to make a poor guy feel better about himself.... Regarding the forum.. firstly, I would like to say that I think the moderators on here do an excellent job, it's very well balanced and I know that it has been stated that 'we moderate with a soft touch' of which I agree with, of course there can't be out and out aggression, or swearing etc.. but it's nice that there is not an over zealous moderator jumping on every other word somebody says, so in that respect I think it's very good. Where I say I feel the forum is going wrong, in honesty I could say that about all forums... all forums on the internet, about any topic at all, could be fishing, knitting, classic cars... anything, they are all the same and seem to attract the same type of characters and similar behaviours: The ones that have self appointed themselves as 'the wise old sage' of said topic, the ones that 'have to have the last word... on everything,' the inevitable 'cliques' that form over time, the petty bickering, the poster that writes a literal wall of text without actually saying very much (that's me by the way.. .) This is what I think I really mean when I say I think the forum is going wrong, maybe the wrong choice of words but I think I know what I mean by it.. and it's exhausting in all fairness. I keep repeating that I do not have an issue with the 're assurance is not helpful to OCD sufferers' and in your post above you address this when you state that the amount of re assurance differs from person to person and circumstance to circumstance, my issue is that there are certain users on here that subscribe to the 'no re assurance' theory... but have absolutely no awareness (or so it seems) in differentiating between how certain individuals are feeling or coming across, and also about the situation in question.. it seems to be a case of 'we don't give re assurance here, that's it, that's the line we take, take it or leave it, it's my way or the highway.' Ironically, the same users that stick to this in such a strict 'black or white' 'your either with us or against us' type manner, are the very same people that tell others that black and white thinking is a classic OCD trait of which you need to overcome... You yourself have said that we like a good debate, I welcome that, it's just that some people are so accustomed to being told they are 'correct' or 'great' or 'helpful' or whatever else.. when somebody comes along and challenges them.... well, we can see what happens. That's another point about forums actually... they are addictive, getting thanks from people and having that 'feel good' feeling... it's exactly the same as likes on social media or comments sections in newspapers, sadly it sometimes becomes less about the individual asking the questions.. and more about the individual answering them. I think that's sad.

Okay, Thanks Angst... that sounds pretty much more or less what I do in my head anyway, although I suspect in a more simplified way. I call it 'doing my Judge Judy impression' as silly as that sounds. If I'm thinking 'I am a paedophile' as an example, I sit in the middle like a Judge Judy type character and I say... Ok, lets face up to this head on, lets see if there is any concrete evidence for your thoughts/worries, and lets look at any evidence against it and it's all just that dang OCD again, it seems to help me. On the flip side, I also do the 'unconditional self acceptance' (within reason) thing as well... I don't know if this is counter intuitive to the A and B theory or not..?

This is sad, I'm sorry to hear this Garfield, Yes, it certainly is exhausting isn't it. Hello Angst.. Forgive me as I have never gone through any form of CBT or anything really, I am where I am simply through putting my head down and marching on against the wind in all honesty, never had any help in any shape or form whatsoever, I mean I have researched things online and read articles and forums etc.. but never had any sort of official help, apart from at the very beginning when I did see a psychologist for I think three sessions but I had a hissy fit over something or other and cancelled any more appointments. I am interested in this 'Theory A and Theory B' method that you mention, because if I'm interpreting it correctly in my own mind, (what I'm imagining when you say A or B) it seems very similar to something I do in my head when I am struggling with something, this way of coping, if that's the right way to describe it is something that I simply 'figured out' by myself or just eventually fell into..? So are you able to describe to me what the A - B Theory is if you wouldn't mind..? Thanks.

Comment of the day Sir... well done. I think this is where you (and this forum in general) is going wrong.. 'You' are NOT here to 'change peoples thinking or to 'fix' anybody, this is a non responsibility that you have self allocated onto yourself for whatever reason, your function is simply to engage in conversation, share ideas and experiences, and hopefully offer some form of support.... could also be described as 'offering reassurance' but as that is clearly a swear word or slur on this forum, lets pretend I didn't say that. You, are not a prophet, a preacher, or a teacher... some things you say on the forum may be of value, other things maybe not so much, same as me and everyone else on here, and you certainly have no right to 'try and change peoples thinking'... by all means you can offer your opinions, and share your experiences of what has or has not worked for you, but the only people with any right to 'try and change peoples thinking' are the individual themselves OR somebody that individual has hired to assist them in their struggles. DeValentin: In my opinion (see what I did there, stated 'in my opinion' and didn't claim my opinion is fact..?) there is no right or wrong, no when or when not. As Northpaul said, I believe there is a time and place for everything, judged by circumstances at the time. When I was at my lowest, and terrified... the last thing in the world I would have wanted would to have been told.. 'we don't do re assurance' in a sort of cult like manner. I would have run a mile and it would have made me feel worse... well I suppose that's why I din't join this forum and just read it from afar for many years.

Thank you Garfield.. I agree with the references you have made to both Polarbear, and Myself. 'Do we not keep them afloat until they are strong enough'... yes, this... absolutely. What a lovely way to put it...

You may not believe this, but I absolutely agree with you.... but there's a time and a place, and Ironborn is clearly not in the position mentally and emotionally to be strong enough to 'just let it go' at this moment in time, and there's no shame in that at all, we have all been there and remember what it's like... awful and terrifying. You don't throw a toddler that can't swim into the deep end of a pool and say 'just deal with it' they will inevitably drown if you did such a thing. You teach them to swim little by little, and starting with the easy stuff. Learning to 'not seek' reassurance is NOT 'the easy stuff'.. it hard, and scary, and tough, it comes towards the end of the book of 'learning to cope with OCD' and even though Ironborn has apparently been on here previously with the exact same worries, many of us don't know that... and in all honesty it doesn't matter anyway. There is also one HUGE fundamental difference between Ironborns predicament and the example you give.... the example you give is all in the head: Am I a paedophile etc.. because there is absolutely no real life and physical evidence to the contrary even though your head is trying to convince you otherwise, Ironborn, unfortunately has been involved in a real life incident, where a small section of people absolutely will hear his account of things and start throwing ridiculous (wrongly might I add) accusations around about him. It's a totally different situation, and I don't think giving him some form of reassurance at this point is remotely problematic, either for him.. or for the people replying to him. Do the whole 'no reassurance' thing for people further down the line... this is an excellent example of extreme rigid thinking that blights this forum ie: the book, therapist, course or whoever, told me that reassurance was 'bad'... therefore I must adhere to that at all times at all costs and with absolute unquestioning blind faith. There was an individual on this forum just the other day that got quite upset about people telling him to 'just deal with it' 'just move on and do something else' and subsequently he asked for his original post to be removed. Now, even though the worries the said individual had were to me 'bemusing' I can fully understand and empathise that he is clearly not in a position mentally right now to 'just get over it' and even though it can be frustrating for people whom are further down the line to read these accounts, we have to respect that others may not be in the same position we are right now. Ironborn, I'm sincerely sorry that your original post has turned into this, but I repeat.. you are NOT a sex offender, and right now that's all you need to believe (know, because it's a fact) and when your feeling stronger and better about things, 'then' maybe you can start on the not questioning yourself and not seeking reassurance type strategies.

This is not about intrusive thoughts regarding things that have never happened and are all in the head, this is about an event that HAS actually happened, and IronBorn is concerned about it, I mean for goodness sakes he was thinking of going to the police. Before you come back and state the obvious.....YES, I and everyone else can see that IronBorn is suffering with OCD rumination and other irrational anxieties over this, but ... telling IronBorn he is NOT a sex offender IS required on this occasion actually, you cannot treat everything OCD related in exactly the same manner. Applying your usual type of reply: 'The one sentence wonder with nothing in the way of an explanation, 'just... move on, let it go' ...... would be of absolutely no help whatsoever to Ironborn on this occasion. I don't think anyone was offering 'reassurance' in the strictest sense.... I think most of us were simply trying to dispute and prove that the label Ironborn is putting on himself is clearly false and unwarranted. You cant treat literally everything in such strict 'we don't give reassurance' type ways... it's not human, it's robotic and unnatural, and fails to see the bigger picture.

Hello there... you are NOT.... a sex offender. She lied to you... and that's the end of it. When you knew her age, you backed off and acted responsibly. I guarantee you there is no court in the land that would convict you of anything if they were to here the full case, ie: she admitted to lying to you. I absolutely bet my bottom dollar you have been 'all over the internet' and looking at 'what is rape' 'what is sexual assault' 'what are the laws concerning this that and the other'... and inevitably you have ended up on something like 'Reddit' or 'Buzzfeed' or other such similar nonsense where keyboard warrior know-it-all's (that actually know nothing of the real world) with an agenda, and whom hide behind keyboards basking in a delusional state of faux intellectualism, have made very bold claims that are SO EXTREMELY BLACK AND WHITE ie: any sexual contact under the age of 16 is illegal, and are rigidly sticking to this without taking any sort of mitigating circumstances into account, in your case the closeness of your ages and the major fact that this girl lied to you. Courts don't work like that, that's why we have Juries, real life people with feelings, emotions, real life experience and so on, so as they can weigh up the rights and wrongs of a case and give a more down to earth, realistic, and maybe most importantly 'human' view or opinion (verdict) of the case/person in question. If you went out into the real world (and NOT the cyber world of mental health forums OR forums that are predominately used by radical youngsters or extreme social justice types) and you told a grown up, rational, and life experienced person the account you have just written down... I totally guarantee you 999 out of a 1000 wouldn't even bat an eyelid.... they would probably say 'what a lying little cow'... give the same account on one of these internet platforms... and you'd be labelled all sorts of ridiculous names..... see the difference..? 'Non convicted sex offender'... what a load of total and utter nonsense, you are nothing of the sort. OCD loves all of this stuff: laws and rules and so on, and Yes I admit.. laws are there for a reason, and 'technically' sexual contact with somebody under sixteen is 'technically' illegal.. and yes, rightly so.... BUT, BUT BUT BUT.... even courts don't stick to 'the rule book' so so so extremely rigidly.... like I said, mitigating circumstances. You may be thinking.. 'I'm not worried about the courts, it's not going to come to that, I'm more concerned about the moral and ethical side of it.' Yep, I understand, but you must understand that NON OCD (and maybe actual many OCD suffering) people would not think anything bad of you for the real life account you have given... your OCD, or at the very least, OCD type traits... are latching onto this and saying to you... 'Yeah, but TECHNICALLY... it IS illegal..' Well I'm telling you that never mind 'technically' and 'well the law says' and all that palaver, and that most people on earth hearing your account would totally understand and be in your corner. I lost my virginity with a girl of fifteen... I was also fifteen, 'Technically'... I raped her, as in the UK, like in your country, any sexual contact with anyone under sixteen is illegal even if the alleged perpetrator is also under sixteen.... 'technically' she raped me, but.. (there is also the issue in the UK where a woman 'technically' cannot rape a man because 'rape' is classed as penetration in the UK) but this is a debatable matter for many people, and a different matter anyhow. Do you honestly think any adult with any degree of life experience and common sense would stick so rigidly to this and label both myself and her as sex offenders...??? of course not, most people would say 'yep, that's teenagers for you, doing what teenagers have done, and will continue to do forever.' So... according to your way of thinking.. 'I' am also a 'non convicted sex offender...?' Ah well... I guess I'm a sex offender then..? Do you know why I can be so blasé about it... because I know that if I was to go out into THE REAL WORLD with real people that aren't pushing an agenda... OR individuals so absolutely crippled with anxiety and terrified beyond belief of coming across as 'not particularly virtuous'.. 'or of saying or thinking the supposed wrong thing'.... literally everyone else would simply shrug their shoulders and say.. that's teenagers for you, we all got up to stuff like that when were young... it's just life and reality. If you have ever heard of 'Mumsnet'.. go onto it and look up the thread about 'what age were you when you lost your virginity'.. and there are hundreds of adult women giving their accounts of being 15, 16, 17 18 and the guy being older by a few years. There is not one mother on there that said they feel they were raped or assaulted, and nor are there any women on there that say they view those teenage males/young men, as sex offenders... (note: I am talking about consensual encounters here just to be clear) because.. rational and sensible people know, understand, and accept that youngsters do this type of stuff, and unlike 'obsessive types' don't think only and solely in 'well them's the rules' type rigid black and white thinking with no leeway. It's easy for me to say just stop worrying about it.. I know how impossible that can feel for an OCD sufferer, but please try to look outside of the sphere o technicalities. I mean there are people that murder others in self defence... 'technically' they are murderers, but do you honestly think not only courts, but the general public don't use their own intelligence and their own human empathy, understanding, humanity... to understand the mitigating circumstances...? I bet you can empathise with the self defence murderer can't you... ? because it's not you it's affecting is it. yet your struggling to attribute the same understanding towards yourself regarding this event in your life...? I wouldn't advise going to the police... not because you may get arrested, but because it won't make you feel any better and they will more than likely tell you to stop wasting their time in all honesty. Hoping you can get through this my friend.. you haven't done anything wrong, your a decent guy..

Thanks Garfield, you made the same point above of which I totally agree with you...

You are absolutely NOT in a stable enough mental or emotional state to make such big life decisions at the moment, I'm sorry if that seems harsh and I don't want to come come across as patronising, but I think you need to hear it bluntly. Withdraw the offer you have put on the new house, get through the Easter weekend as best as you possibly can, and then use the money that you obviously have (going by your previous posts: 3K drive, buying house without viewing in person etc) and instead invest in some sort of therapy/treatment/learning/self reflection/books/courses... anything, absolutely anything. I don't need to be a doctor, psychoanalyst, fortune teller, or a prophet from the heavens.. to KNOW that if you buy a new house, the stress will make your OCD unbearable (as if it isn't chronic enough already) and you WILL be back on here in six months time with similar type posts but in different house... AND... in reality, I think if your honest, you know it to don't you Phil..?

Sounds terrible. There's no need to panic, but any crack in your teeth should be seen to be a dentist in the soonest instance, if you leave it too long you may get bacteria into it which may then develop into an abscess... (of which you WILL be in a lot of pain, AND you'll need antibiotics of which will cost extra money) If you live in a country without nationalised dentistry, save up or borrow some money and get it sorted as soon as you can.

Stay strong Emmalou... your totally on top of this, crikey you've done twenty five years and it hasn't beaten you, your doing great... .

NO... most certainly not, in fact you should try to turn the twenty five year thing into a positive.... I mean 'yes' it is exhausting, but look how long you have survived with this, your so much stronger than you think Emmalou, and in all that time have you ever: abused a child (pocd), had a sexual encounter with any of your adult kids (incest) gone and had rampant and random affairs (cheating).... No, of course you haven't, and that's how nonsense OCD can be... even when you have all the evidence to the contrary, OCD will still make you 'FEEL' that you 'are, or have, or am going to' etc... yes everything your describing is absolutely classic, and please don't think your the only one. There is an article online somewhere with the title 'OCD isn't a thought problem, it's a feeling problem' I think there is some truth in that actually. Regarding your internal monologue, well that little voice inside us is absolutely natural and even if you can maybe quieten it down with things like meditation or distraction, the fact is you are never ever going to completely shut it off, it a natural part of being human, so really your going to need to learn how to not listen to it or take it seriously, 'oh here we go again, thoughts telling me I'm this that and the other, been here a million time before, lets just get on with my day, it'll die down in due course' ... something like that possibly..? I'm sure you have heard of 'accepting uncertainty'....? well that also ties in with accepting 'unconditional self acceptance' and 'yes' I absolutely understand and empathise at how counter intuitive this concept is to most people, particularly regarding taboo subjects such as pocd or extremely violent harm ocd. Your last sentence is where it's all going pear shaped (is that a phrase in the States..?)..... you 'don't' need to know whether you like the thoughts or not.

What on earth would you do if like millions of people in this country you were struggling to pay your bills and struggling to feed yourself or your children and you couldn't just simply 'move house, or just 'throw three grand down' willy-nilly for a new drive...? If you got the drive sorted (not that there's anything wrong with it at the moment) what would be next, what would be the next thing in the house that's not good enough and going to drive you nuts...? What are you going to do if you move into a new property and there are things you don't like there (and there will be.) Surely you can see that you are simply running away from the issue, I think you 'can' see that your reactions are not helping hence your making posts on this forum, and the fact that you are clearly financially comfortable: 'Three grand on a driveway, move house without even seeing pictures' etc... is in my opinion doing more harm than good... it's allowing you to indulge in your compulsions where most others would not be in any position to do so, rather than you facing up to your fears. You mention you want to move house anyway regardless of the drive... should you do that..? I don't know, that's your decision to make, but whatever you do, this issue is going to follow you like your own shadow wherever you go.

I think you should be asking a dentist questions like this and not a random person you don't even know that suffers with OCD. PolarBear is not a Dentist. Any Dentist on earth (and I only know this as I have had quite a few broken teeth over the years) will tell you that even a small chip out of you tooth can feel like a moon crater when you run your tongue over it... (which everybody does and is not indicative of a serious psychological disorder.) You may be showing OCD traits here.... but on a more logical level your just blowing it completely out of proportion. Get over to your dentist as soon as you can get an appointment, and try to stop worrying.