adam2112

Thank you so much Zelda! I just added the book on my Kindle and will start reading it when I get home.

My name is Adam and I'm new to this forum. I'm from the US. My struggles with OCD have come and gone in waves of extremes. Sometimes I can coast by without many compulsions while other times I'm off the rails. I count touches as well as have to move my head and count in 4s in these weird ticks. I'll touch things or drag my right foot at a line. Odd numbers will freak me out and I will start over. I obsess over death, dying and other things. Sometimes it's an ex who I loved and it's thoughts of her moving on. Usually it's the death thing. And I've had this since I was about 10 or so. I'm 38 now. I don't get to enjoy things like reading or games. And I get so angry at times. I struggle with alcohol a lot because getting drunk stops the compulsions. I have been to rehab and am recently sober again. I'm seeking help as we speak. Is there anything that helps new people to dealing with this? And by new I mean self help until I get to a doctor? Thank you so much for your help.