glasspaw

@Angst thanks for sharing your experience. I haven’t considered it before but you’re right, there’s always a time limit on mine which is what causes the panic, because I often have very little time to make a targeted decision to ‘rationalise-out’ or to choose to do something different. hoping the therapy will help me get it back under control. It’s disappointing to have been free of it for so long only to take such a massive backwards step during a time where I should just be grieving with my family

I’ve recently had a family bereavement which has left me totally unable to function. Historically I’ve suffered with what I’m told is a form of OCD where my brain sort of involuntarily sets me challenges (something like: if you don’t get to the front of this queue and pay for your shopping within 2 minutes then your best friend will die today) and then I usually have a panic attack through either trying too hard to squash the thought or by trying too hard to do the challenge. I’ve been clear of these since 2017 having undergone therapy, but this bereavement has caused a huge relapse. I’m going back in to therapy for it (I’m lucky to have access to it privately through work) but have been trying to do a bit of research on coping mechanisms for this particular type of OCD because I’m finding that the intrusive thinking this time round is much more vivid and painful. The closest subtype I’ve found is magic thinking OCD but it doesn’t seem to fit totally. I wondered if anyone else has any resource recommendations they could make?