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accomplished 133

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  1. Thanks it helps alot.but u knwo OCD twist the things very easily..now.ocd telling me if u don't have mastribating habit ,u will not had wet dreams about family members..its killing me..and I heard that becuase of OCD intrusive thoughts coming in dreams.. i feel really ashmed .....and when wet dream happend I ruminate alot..like how and when happend ...ocd kills my motivation and everything that I wanted to do in my life ....
  2. Thanks for your replay..u are 100%right..I want to aske u one more question. I had also wet dreams about family members.some nonsexual and some sexual ,and I also watch porn but not incest porn .like couples porn..so I want know is it because of watching porn or because of sexual ocd...becuase when u woke up at morning, i feel ahsmed and embrassed ...I don't knwo what to do...
  3. Thanks for your replay..but ocd telling me that ,that time u had not devolped sexual ocd,and than why u have strong aroual ..and when my arousal happend .that time I thought its happend whe u saw someone bueatiful and i didnt care to it too much. But after sometime I realised its ocd ...
  4. Hi all of u...my 8 year old obsession come back. and I forget the some details of it..it happend in 2013, and we are living with my uncle home when my father died my uncle told us to move to our house. . and that time my ocd only about contimination and only 1year happend that i had ocd .and i had no sexual ocd and no.obsessios that time.when one afternoon, I came from outside and, once I enter the home,I seen that my uncle wife is doing laundry and she is wearing bueatiful dress and and I saw her .my eyes directly Catch his( breast) I feel ahsmed and embrassed to write this..so after that I directly go to my room..and I felt big arousal when i checked my pants.and our relation is like brother and sister and swar to GOD . I never think about her like other ways..and she is very good girle and caring ...now ocd remind me agian and I solve this many time but ocd remind me again now..its killing me ...I.started medication today.. Thanks
  5. More than 10 years of OCD ..and evey year some new obsessions and rumination added in my ocd ..like this new obsession.i can't let my mind free, and i can't do anything with this new obsession.not focus on duty or other things...so I want to know can anyone feel erection while reading other sexual post on Quora or other fourms. .. and where peoples share their childhood sexual mistakes and when he or she in 12 or 13 years of age ..I get erection while reading these post. ..and than ocd attacks me like why u feel erection about little childern...please anyone relate to this.
  6. Hi to all..I have ocd for many years..but after some time OCD adding more obsessions.more contimination thoughts ..and other things. Now this thing every time coming to my minde.so I work other country and after every one year, I visit home and met my family.so whenever I listen music like when I'm in car and listening music and that time I m in happy mood . and i thinking about future things,and I know its maladaptive OCD daydreaming.. thoughts.but I imagining things like when I go home and how thay will receive me at airport,and meeting my future wife specialy thoughts about my future wife, like these things i iminging more.between these thoughts or when I start imgining those thoughts.my sister(my uncle wife we are like brother and sister) face coming to my mind his smile like these things and I try to avoid like hunderd time...she is like my sister ..can anyone relate to this..please.
  7. Yes ..this time I will Try to tell him all the story..and thanks that u share your story ..
  8. Thanks ....previous year i met my phyicatrist..and once I Enter his room.i told him what I learned about ocd ..like ocd sub types names..triggers.contimination thoughts.phirepal vision.other more things.and I told him I have many books about ocd ..and he got angry, cause he told me I can't diagnose u now. because u are telling me the things which u reads online .. ..this time is will meet him face to face ..I will tell him the whole story..
  9. Thank u so much...u are are very brave..and u must be beautiful from inside and outside..
  10. OCD matching thoughts with porn. Hi I have sexual ocd for long time ..now its get out of hand..please help me. So like other day. I was watching porn videos and the girle in video wore balck bra ..so when I watching OCD remind me that your mother has also wearing balck bra...and that bra of my mother I seen it. when i was kid and ocd remid it to me after mostly 15 years ..and i never seen after that my mother priavte colthes. cause we are living in muslim society so our ladies kept secret these types of things...so I was very ashmed and I changed the video.after that I feel too much guilty. And one other time. I seen one girle in porn videos she has small breast..I feel very ahsmed and guilty to typing these things.but anyway ocd remind me that your sister had also small (...).and I swear to GOD i never look my sister private parts.but phirepal vision capture these things. and reminde me during watching porn ..so I feel very guilty. I want to stop watching porn and mast... So anyone can relate to this..can OCD matching thoughts with other things..please help.
  11. sexual ocd weird... First off..I read almost everything about ocd here...but writing first time in this forum... So my OCD started before 10 years.. it starts from contimination, and than going deeper and deeper and affect all my life areas..and I learned about OCD online ,before that I don't know about OCD .After that, whenever i go to phyicatrists. I first tell him I have OCD and and thay prescribed me SSRI and antipsychotics medications ..so I on and off on medication for OCD ..and I changed my doctors time to time..and spend alot of money.. I have many themes...old and new ..but whenever old theme come back. I forget the details..like what happend that time and how ..than I searched online for hours and trying to remember details of that theme..and I tried to solved it.. Now my old theme come back..first I want to tell u all. I m living with my maternal grandmother home for many years, and we are muslim family,and we dont talk about sexualy stuffs openly.... so I have two uncles.. and thay both married. and my relationship with his wifes like brother and sister.and both are wore scarf at heads in home....one day I get sexual thought about my uncle and his wife.did thay sex last night or not??..and I tried to dismiss it but tit can't go away from my head ..so I tried to go outside but when in entered to home.the same thought will com back with full force...and I avoided with all means.. so after one day I sat outside my room, and my mind full of this thought, and that time my other wife uncle putting her clothes on clothe line for drying ,and I watch her,and my mind telling me that time, thay had sex last night, because she washed her clothes..after that thought my eyes directly goes to her hair ,and my mid telling me, that thay had sex because her hairs are open inside the scarf.. and I just seen little hair of his head, even she covered her hair with scarf,and I didn't seen full of her hairs.. but OCD telling me like this..After that I dismissed the thought.and my OCD telling me that u did big blunder, and u are bad persone, u thought like that..and my anxiety starts ..and I tried to solved it.. Afte that like other day, my other uncle wife doing housework and my phirpheral vision 2 to 3 times directly goes to her scarf ..and I didn't see her hair but OCD telling to look her hair.is it open or not.?? if open its means thay had sex at night...and I tried to avoid it....and after 2 to 3 days these all thought goes ..and after that my, OCD telling me u are bad perone ..u don't deserve to live this home bla bla.... Now after 4 to 5 years again same theme com back.. and between these, all years many times I slove this thought .. Thansk for reading my post ..and please anyone can relate to this..and sorry for my English and log story....english is not my native language..I m in too much stress now ..I tried to booked appointments to my phyicatrist..thanks again..
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