I live in a place near a bridge. I have unwanted thoughts of throwing myself off the bridge. They are unwanted and can be repetitive. Sometimes it feels like a there is a dragging feeling towards the bridge. I am scared of being in the house on my own. I also had thoughts of stabbing my family and would be scared of spending time with my little niece on my own. I love my niece and would hate to hurt her. Does anyone have any ideas what I could do to get better? I am scared of being at work, in case I throw myself off one of the higher levels. I have been avoiding going up the stairs in my hospital where I work in case I threw myself down them. I’m scared to get the bus over the bridge, in case I threw myself off bridge, so have been getting cabs to work which cost £400 - £500 a month
