Thank you for responding!
About me and him.
That's what I meant, that the translator translates crookedly. All those actions he did that he meant - I did it. All actions are from me.
So. In general, I do not know if this phrase can be translated into English, but I will try.
I have a ND - Night ****. As I said earlier, I had it 2 times. When there was abstinence in 118 days and after 20 days.
Initially, it was a shock for me. How is this so? I quit masturbation, and he came to me. And I began to think that the problem was sensitivity (I do not know the mechanism of ND itself. I assume that I have some kind of sleepwalking that is realized in the form of hip movement).
And here's the problem. Initially, I wanted to defeat ND. But later it turned into the fact that I just want to have a lack of penis sensitivity.
(Even now I began to write, thoughts began to come, that maybe it still exists? Can I check the sensitivity? And what if there is a truth?)
And I don't like it. I've already been struggling with masturbation for 3 years, and I don't know about you, but it's easier for me to live in celibacy.
(As a person who has studied the effects of drugs, I can say with confidence that masturbation, porn and fantasy are drugs.
There was an experience of abstinence in 4 months and in 6 months. I'll say this. It broke of course, but life has become brighter. Do you remember how earlier in childhood the grass was greener and the sun was brighter? That's exactly it. Oh, I also quit because I had a hellish fear of everything. To guys, women, children.
And God! The fear passed and I became as confident as I could safely communicate with anyone I wanted.
In addition, I will say right away. Because of pornography, tolerance to genres began to grow. As a result, I began to watch bestiality from the usual porn content and I ask you to forgive me, pedophilia. I understand that this is terrible, so I don't know about you, but I will refrain from such things. Celibacy is the only right way for me.)