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Cbt feels so robotic and it’s just like they are repeating the same basic textbook statements over and over and I suppose it’s my fault for misunderstanding what cbt therapy is. It’s heavily homework based and depersonalised but I just really want someone to talk to about the way I feel and how hard it’s been . Is this a sign I should find a new therapist?

Im set to go on holiday soon. It feels like everything is messed up. I’ve spent the whole day sobbing because I feel like I messed up my chances of an academic future. I was already underprepared for exams because Ive been in the worst ocd flare up for the past two months. Tomorrow I’m expected to go on holiday with my friends and I’m so fearful that my intruisve thoughts will come back. I don’t have energy to do the homework that my therapist sent and it’s so loborious and just useless. It’s summer and I should be happy by now but these obsessions are looping and they feel so certain at times and sometimes I feel like I’ll be okay and then other times my obsessions feel like factual truths about me. I’ve been able to manage my ocd by myself but I just feel so overwhelmed now and I feel like I can’t cope. I already know my intrusive thoughts and doubts will ruin this holiday. And I’m carrying this extra layer of shame. I’m so so tired of being sad and I know I need to radically accept that this is ocdl but there seems to be so much evidence that I am truly and really the odd one out who will never ever recover

Thank you so much for this!!

This is true. I guess I just completely shut it down because it took so much for me to tell someone about my intrusive thoughts because they are taboo in nature. And I was just fed up with people not understanding / me having to over explain to a practitioner what ocd is. thank you I will definitely consider ringing ocd uk my exams are going okay. I’m very disappointed because I’m having an ocd flare right at the most important time of my life but I’m just trying to accept that I may not do the best

Hello, I found them on psychology today but I followed the steps on how to find a legit cbt therapist and made sure she was BABCP accredited. Thank you, I will make sure to clarify a few things regarding a treatment plan in my next session. that’s very true I suppose. Getting back into that waiting list is something I’ll most definitely consider

Hi. So I just began my treatment journey last month. I took the route of private therapy reason being, I felt as though I was in a crisis and I desperately just needed to start treatment as soon as possible. Now I’m second guessing it because it’s very very expensive and my therapist seems to be addressing my depression over my ocd when I feel like my ocd is the root of my depression. I’ve had a horrid experience with my local talking therapies. when I told them I had intrusive thoughts that make me feel I’m a bad person they responded that ‘that’s very serious’ and sent me down a spiral. They then put me on a waiting list for anxiety cbt which in the end I just cancelled. should I try to get ocd cbt with the nhs again or follow through with this private therapist ? This therapist does seem to understand the nature of ocd and I’m so hesitant about being assessed again by a wellbeing practitioner who might think I’m a risk because of intrusive thoughts

I just have a question about how to actually do exposures because I see everywhere that one should expose their self to the feared obsession and then not do rituals. But when I expose myself what do I do next? Do I just wait for the anxiety to go down naturally?What if the anxiety just keeps on rising. Like what happens after I expose myself and prevent the compulsions.

Currently I am just struggling to sleep and reflecting on the horrible day I just had wondering and entirely doubting my persona. I went out with my family and I would say that 80% of the time I was doing compulsions surrounding my sexual obsessions. I’m so tired and feeling just lost. Everything feels as though it is real. It’s so hard to disengage with content. I’ve had so many bad days now and usually im able to pull myself out of holes but this time just feels different. My life had completely been altered and I am devastated Obsessions always target what we value and that’s how it gets us to do compulsions. It just makes it so so hard to disengage from the content in that way.

Thank you for your advice this really helps me and also makes me feel less alone. I always place meaning on my thoughts and it feels like I’m shrouded in this extra layer of shame. Currently I’m feeling like ocd has made my world much smaller and I suppose that is what ocd does in essence. I’m sad because it feels like I’m missing out on so much and I’m just fed up. I hope you are able to get through your recent theme aswell. that must be hard to deal with.

Thank you so much for this. I am currently sitting my a level exams and you made me sort of realise why my ocd is exacerbated right now. (High stress) I have also experienced most of the themes and they just bounce between each other and it feels like it gets worse worse. I’m currently having themes that are taboo and so many looping intrusive thoughts and it just feels awful. This disorder is honestly so relentless. Im sorry you feel this way aswell and I hope you feel better soon.

I try so so hard to defeat ocd and it comes back. It’s like I’ve tried everything. And I’m currently in therapy (private) but I have no hope that it will work because my brain is telling me I don’t really have ocd. My world has gone grey and the thing is all I’m desperate for is my life back. Everything back. My ocd even shows up in my dreams and I’m doing compulsions in my dreams it’s like I can’t be free from it. I posting here because I feel really lonely and I don’t tell my family about my ocd because genuinely what’s the point. I have the biggest exams of my life coming back and I sort of know I won’t do the best I can because half of my brain is taken up my worst fears imaginable. I’ve been in a relapse for two months. I’m just so sad and frustrated and I compare my life to other people my age and it’s like they have everything and everyone else gets to have joy but I have to live in this sort of grey abyss. I sometimes get relief but then the theme switches. I don’t know. I just feel really lonely so that’s why I’m posting here.