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Jewlz

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  1. I have been unknowingly batteling with OCD since 2018. Only having discovered that it is OCD and not just generalised anxiety rather recently, I still struggle daily. I am in the process of going onto a CBT waiting list. (This will be my second round, as it was only at the end of the first lot that they eventually realised I was suffering with OCD.) However, work is becoming a major issue. I work as an assistant manager in a club that is a 20-30 minute drive from my house depending on traffic. As you can gather working in such industry brings sporadic scheduling, random start and finishing times. No set shifts so no set routine. I can start at 2pm one day and not finish until 1am drive home then have to be back that very morning at 9am. Belive it or not aclochol is one of my biggest triggers (obsessive hand washing, thoughts about having to drive home if there could be an a single drop of alcohol in my blood stream if I didn't wash my hands, they are never clean enough when im there and after I get in from work) as I hate the stuff. I dispise anything that can alter my behaviour and thoughts (I have to be in complete controll of myself at all times). It seems the more I delve into the world of OCD what it means for and to myself and the recovery process, the more I'm struggling with work and everything that work brings. I took 4 weeks of reduced hours because I was extremely overwhelmed by everything and this was my first week of going back to full time and full duties. I thought opening that door and explaining my situation to colleagues and employers might create a little room for us to meet in the middle, however that has not been the case. Its either all or nothing. Working late nights, early mornings long shifts with the only 2 days off (sometimes only 1 a week) being split so allowing me no to time to gather myself together before my next shift. Ultimately I know it is not their responsibility to accommodate me, but it's something I'm really struggling with. Has anyone else struggled to maintain their job and their responsibilities they have there whilst having OCD and how did you approach and manage the balance between both?
  2. Possibly the most boring game out of all that has been listed, but my favourite (all time and still is) animal crossing. Especially new horizons with happy home expansion pack. It allows for so much creativity and expression. A game that has plenty for you to do to keep you occupied, with enough free will that you're not restricted to specific tasks at specific times. There are thing you have to do in order to achieve others, but it's a go at your own pace game and allows you to create your own fantasy world. (these are the main reasons I enjoy it so much)
  3. Hi Snowbear, Thank you for taking the time to reply. Okay. This is what I find hard because I can only explain what having OCD means for me. I have tried to explain it as follows. OCD is having thoughts and feelings that are uncontrollable and unwanted. This leads the urge to complete intense repetitive behaviours. Completing the compulsive behaviours brings a sense of security/safety and control. To not do these feels too much of a risk, as the routines and behaviours are to make sure the unwanted thoughts and feeling do not come true. This is a beautiful way of looking at things, thank you.! You're so right.! This is exactly the way I need to start viewing life right now.
  4. Hi Northpaul Thanks you for taking the time to respond and your warm welcoming. I don't feel like I got the time to fully explore much surround my OCD most of what I know is self research. I do however, believe it was beneficial in the fact that it brought the discovery of my OCD and has provided me with a diagnosis other than just general anxiety and panic disorder. Working through processes of those just didn't feel like it hit the mark. It has allowed to do look into things further and led me to understand that it is treatable and I am not alone. I did some research into statistics and I was shocked at the figure of how many people deal with OCD in the UK alone. Therapy has help me better understand why I am the way I am, just hoping further CBT will allow me to concentrate on how to better manage the symptoms.
  5. Hi All, I (30f) have been suffering with anxiety and panic disorder since 2018. Having entered into CBT at the beginning of last year, going through all the levels, it wasn't until I reached the highest intensity it was highlighted that I didn't just have anxiety and panic disorder but infact OCD. It has taken me a while to wrap my head around OCD and being truthful, I still don't fully understand. Shortly after finding out I had OCD I was at the end of Therapy and it has taken me months to try and pick myself up from that. I actively struggle each day with my OCD and find it even more problematic trying to help my family and friends understand when I don't myself. I guess am looking for support and understanding. I have noted a few terms used within these forums I.e. theams, but again being new to all of this I'm unsure of the categories I fall into. I have recently signed up for more therapy, however, I'm unsure of what good that will bring as I will start at the bottom again. (No fault of anyone, but it did take nearly a year to discover I do infact suffer from OCD) Having dealing with all of this since 2018 I feel like I lost myself all those years ago and I don't think she will ever return. I guess what I'm hoping for by posting on the forum is a little help to understand, maybe some guidance on how to better explain to loved ones and work and possibly some hope that things will infact become more manageable. Maybe this is the wrong place to be posting. It has taken 5 month for me to have to courage to even seek support groups, search for forums such as these. (All of this is out of my comfort zone, routine and fear that by me posting will make someone's day worse ) so please be a little gentle.
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