Hi All,
I (30f) have been suffering with anxiety and panic disorder since 2018. Having entered into CBT at the beginning of last year, going through all the levels, it wasn't until I reached the highest intensity it was highlighted that I didn't just have anxiety and panic disorder but infact OCD.
It has taken me a while to wrap my head around OCD and being truthful, I still don't fully understand. Shortly after finding out I had OCD I was at the end of Therapy and it has taken me months to try and pick myself up from that.
I actively struggle each day with my OCD and find it even more problematic trying to help my family and friends understand when I don't myself. I guess am looking for support and understanding. I have noted a few terms used within these forums I.e. theams, but again being new to all of this I'm unsure of the categories I fall into.
I have recently signed up for more therapy, however, I'm unsure of what good that will bring as I will start at the bottom again. (No fault of anyone, but it did take nearly a year to discover I do infact suffer from OCD)
Having dealing with all of this since 2018 I feel like I lost myself all those years ago and I don't think she will ever return.
I guess what I'm hoping for by posting on the forum is a little help to understand, maybe some guidance on how to better explain to loved ones and work and possibly some hope that things will infact become more manageable.
Maybe this is the wrong place to be posting. It has taken 5 month for me to have to courage to even seek support groups, search for forums such as these. (All of this is out of my comfort zone, routine and fear that by me posting will make someone's day worse ) so please be a little gentle.