notgivingup

Thanks Catherine Yeah im trying my best to keep calm at the end of the day it is just a job and ive got to try and get things in perspective. I defenitley don't want to make myself and my OCD worse because of work. I was just hoping that things would have changed a bit when i went back, i suppose i was expecting to much. Anyway ill just grin and bear it till i get something else carn't afford to go off sick again NGU

I went back to work today after having a month off sick with stress. I thought things might have improved with the job but things were still as bad I managed to see it through today but im not going to last much longer. Over the past few months we have had a lot of changes, we’ve gone in with another department staff cuts by half of what we used to have. You’re in limbo most of the time not knowing exactly what or how were supposed to do something. I know a lot of people are looking for other jobs there. Anyway the last week or so I have been applying for jobs and on Friday I went for an interview but it turned out to be an agency and the position would have been temporary for 13 weeks and maybe gone permanent eventually. But I didn't think it would be secure enough. The bloke I had the interview with said he would look out for permanent positions. Now I have been to work I wish I had took the job and if I didn't think I would get a permanent position I could look for something else in that time. I have now emailed the bloke at the agency and am hoping some positions are left in the job I was going for. My other problem is I have to give a months notice, but im hoping if I can still have a temporary position the company im with now will let me go sooner rather than later. I don't want to affect the refererence they give me by demanding to go but I haven't been happy for a while now and im hoping they will understand this. Anyway I know ive got to get out of there I thought going back after a month things might be at least a bit better, but I had to give it my all to stay put today. Anyway just wanted to get that off my chest, I had calmed down a lot while I was off but after one day there it has got me all stressed out again Role on the weekend Thanks for listening NGU

Im very guilty of text talk and im 29. I mainly use it on my phone because ive always hated predictive text, but think i am a guilty of using it if i use a chat room. I don't think i do it on hear to much but i will be more aware of it now. I must admit you do get lazy and start to use b4 (before) and CU (see you) and things like that in texts. I think im going to make an extra effort to write things properley in my texts a bit more. Probably not always as if i need to text something quick it makes it easier.

Hi Nil I have pure O as well as other OCD symptoms. Have you heard of the four steps (http://www.ocduk.org/2/foursteps.htm) They are from the book Brain lock i am reading it at the moment. These are four steps Relabel Re attribute Refocus and revalue Basically through these steps you are telling your Brain something like it's not me it's OCD, it is a chemical imbalance in my brain. I need to focus on another activity for a least 15 minutes. Revalue saying something like that's just my stupid obssession or thought. This is only a brief description of the four steps, but i have found them really help full Hope this is of some help to you All the best NGU

Happy New Year to all on here (sos i know im a bit late)

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND A HAPPY NEW. Thanks to everyone who volunteers for OCD UK for making this forum possible. It has been a great help and i have got to go along to a few meets which has been really good. Best wishes to all NGU

MERRY CRISTMAS TO ALL In the Christmas spirit going out in a bit but will be on here for another half hour or so.

Hi Sarah Just wanted to say that im glad your doing better, hope you manage to enjoy christmas. Happy Christmas and a happy new year All the best NGU

I have recieved a reply from my MP David Kidney and enclosed is the ministers letter, i will try and get a copy to you but i haven't a scanner at the moment

Im out friday night a xmas gathering down the local, but hopefully beable to come on here for an hour or so before hand. Hopefully i can because sounds as if it will be a good laugh

Ive started doing the four steps im reading the book at the moment and hope the more i go through it the more i will understand how to put them in practice. I would have thought doing the exposure technique is ok as well long as you don't take to much on. I know if i try and battle everything at once it's just to overwhelming and i end up avoiding doing it. You sound as if you have done really well with the four steps Good luck with the exposure therapy aswell NGU

Hi Sara Welcome to the boards I hope you find them usefull, i have found the forums a great help. NGU

Thank you so much Newman, spider and FF for your kind words. You are all right FF that is so true that's what the counceller said to me that OCD is like a piece of pie and it is only a small part i have my Husband, family and friends and hopefully still have a job. They are all the important things in my life OCD is what i let it be i don't want it to be more than a small piece of the pie. Easier said than done aye but i am trying to just focus on the hear and now what will be will be and im going to go back work fighting. Im not going to givin that easy else He the OCD has won. I am going to enjoy christmas and worry as little as i can, ive always loved Xmas im a big Kid at heart and i am now determined to enjoy it as much as ever. Thankyou again you have all made me feel much better HAPPY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL I don't know what i would do with out OCD UK NGU

Hi I am off work with stress at the moment, been doing this job for over 3 years. This past year ive had days off sick when i just couldn't face going in. Inventually i went over my sick leave entitlement which is two weeks so i got pulled up about it. I sorted that out but i really haven't been coping the last few weeks at work i feel really low all the time and last week i was feeling trapped and didn't see anyway out of this. I went into work on Monday but ending up coming home. At one time i wouldn't have had courage to go to the line manager and id handle things the wrong way (in the past things have got to much in situtions and i have walked out). I went and saw my line manager and talked things threw i went the doctors and have been signed off till the New year. I am now really worried because i really don't want to have to go back but need to for the money we carn't live on just my husbands wages. I had a letter from work re-my abbences and they want to write to my doctor which i have sent a consent off for, they want to review whats best for me and the job. Im worried that when i go back ill loose my job and they won't think i can cope. My husband has said about looking for something else because i haven't been happy there for ages ( we have moved in with another department and work load is increasing and we have less staff than this time last year) i look at jobs and just don't know what i can go for i worry about coping i feel trapped at the moment. Im struggling at home aswell because i carn't switch off, think ive got to being doing something all the time like things that need to be done in the home. I have been to see a counceller again and i felt better after i came out of there, but things seem hopeless at the moment i normally really look forward to Christmas but i just think it will soon be over and then it's back to normal i just carn't enjoy the here and now :wallbash: . Thanks for listening just need to get it off my chest Thanks NGU

Think this sounds a very good idea ill defenetly try and make it to the chat room party

Cheer's Stuart Hope your ok? Yeah feeling a lot better been work the rest of the week, hasn't been to bad this week so should have gone in at the start of the week owell. Looking for jobs not seen much still but something else will come about eventually im sure. Thanks NGU

Didn't go again today, but feel a lot better should have gone really will definetley have to go tomorow. Went the docs and got things sorted hopefully and had some cream so hopefully my spots will start to get better. Also rang up for another job getting application form in a few days so hopefully things are looking up and i might find even more jobs i want to go for hopefully NGU

Hi Julie Thanks alot Julie, Hope your doing ok. Ive been looking for something else because it's not good at work at the moment weve gone in with another department and the atmosphere isn't good. Trouble is haven't a clue what i really want to do. Owell anyway hopefully will go in tomorow if not it's not the end of the world aye. Thanks also for your reassurance i really needed it at the moment Better get myself to bed need me sleep else i definetly won't be up for work tomorow Thanks again Tracyx

HI Im feeling particulary low today i didn't go to work couldn't get myself motivated so i rang in sick. Also really consious about spots on my face at the moment i know it's the pill that im on that's causing them and there getting worse, im bad enough about how i look and im getting so consious of them there getting worse rather than better so im going to see the doctor again. The problem is i was on the two hormone pill for over 7 years but it was causing my migranes, so i then went on to the injection but a lot of people said you could put weight on so i came off this then i went on to the mini pill which im on now. Id love to come off the pill completley but it helps with my mood swings, im really bad at that time of month other wise i feel like im banging my head against a brick wall . Anyway i looked up Norriday which im taking and the mini pills and apparantley there are quite a few others and if i try another it might not affect my skin so much. So im hoping i can be put on to another when i go the doctors tomorow. Been in tears twice today just the way im feeling at the moment if im not struggling with work( which has been quite bad recentley), it's how i look or thinking other people are always better than me, plus all my OCD with the thoughts and the checking i just feel if it's not one thing it's another i feel like SCREAMING i don't want to feel like this arrrrrrrrrrhhh . Anyway im sorry to go on and for not posting much find it hard always want to write things on here but find it hard to explain things properley Thanks for listening NGU

Hi Marmite You are so right laughter is definetley the best medicine just wish i did it more easier said than done sometimes aye. I think friends is one of the best tv drama's to make me laugh Im always worrying if ive said or done something wrong but as Colliecrew said a lots us on here have the same worries. Take Care NGU

Im sorry to hear about the burglaryonly just read the thread, im glad they caught the It is ridiclous how much they charge to sort out your car it's an easy mistake to make im sure. I hope things get better for you LH and enjoy your drink tonight Take care NGU

Hi Sarah Have just read this post hope everything goes well tomorow im sure it will you sound as if your proggressing really well. All the best NGU

Ive been on ciprimal for a number of years now and it has really helped me cope i still get my bad times but can cope with things most of the time. If i stop taking it for more than one day i do know about it i feel really really low. I went down to 10mg from 20mg daily a few months ago but found it difficult to cope more so went back on the 20mg. My way of thinking is that id rather take this and cope most of the time than not. It hasn't stopped the thoughts but it helps with the depression and helps me get on with everyday life. NGU

Welcome to the forum Simon. I have found it a great support coming on here, i haven't always posted much but it's helped to read others peoples posts. Hope you find it helpfull Take care Notgivingup

Well done Amber :clapping: keep chipping away at it. Im better than i used to be but sill struggle with it everyday myself, i work fulltime and really don't know how i get through some days but others are fine. I still have the thoughts and check quite a lot these are my main OCD traits, i also suffer a lot with anxiety and depression which recentley ive hit a bad patch with but seem to be getting through it. Well done again you sound as is your really doing well All the best keep fighting Not Giving up