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I can relate so closely to this post I’m 45 next month and can’t believe where time has gone,I have always gone out and socialised but even so I feel I’ve wasted my life! 

When do I need to be concerned about harmful thoughts to others,I’m worried it may be true  

I really want to feel the tiniest amount of hope but I’m really struggling,the anxiety is really starting to manifest itself in psychical ways as well now,the only respite I’m getting is sleep at the moment. 

I can relate my life has been a complete disaster due to complex mental health issues 

Ok so please feel free to delete this if it’s not permitted on an ocd forum but I’ve just been told by my go that I could have it,I have a lot of unexplained pain,do any others on here have it? I’ve been told it could be stress related. 

I seem to just be recirculating the same negative existential thoughts and it destroys me 

On 21/06/2019 at 03:23, dksea said:

In my experience the hardest type of OCD is the type the suffer is dealing with at the moment.  I've hard various kinds of OCD and each of them felt like the worst possible thing at the time, I kept thinking "I'd trade this for any other kind of worry", and when that happened, I'd say the same thing.  We can't choose how OCD decides to hit us, we just have to deal with it in whatever form it takes.  Trying to pinpoint which kind is "hardest" doesn't really do anything productive, it doesn't actually help us.

Yes that’s a good point. 

Personally I think existential ocd is personally the hardest type in my own experience,very difficult to steer away from 

Yes I’m current experiencing those thoughts too,very tough to deal with! 

Ok I appreciate that it was a compulsive posting,please feel free to remove. 

Seem to be feeling in a zombie like state,is this a normal state of anxiety 

8 hours ago, taurean said:

We can look at the stories, and resultant learned knowledge, of those who have made changes and improved. 

Recently regular posters myself, PolarBear, dksea and others have been telling our stories on other threads, and we use what we have learned to advise and guide others, based on those experiences. 

How I wish I knew what I knew now many years ago. Much suffering and life challenges would have been saved. 

Those of you now coming to the forums don't need to suffer as we did. We stay active here so that you don't need to do so. Here is a resource with the information you need to get motivated and started - and on the main OCD-UK website there is loads more helpful material. 

Reading other people's success stories, following guidelines given is immensely valuable - and free to air. 

Please grasp the opportunity with both hands. I wish I could have done. 

Me too pal,I grieve for my life. 

Thanks snowy x 

6 hours ago, Ashley said:

We all do.. that's why we're here buddy   But part of overcoming OCD at least is actually not trying to control them, but to letting them be what they be and then dealing with any uncertainty that brings and riding the wave of anxiety that crashes over us. 

I know people do but I can’t imagine how they do,feels an insurmountable task to me! 

I’ve struggled to control my thoughts for so long

I’ve recently started therapy with a new therapist,I’m exercising and eating better and cut down on alcohol,I want so munch to be happy but find it hard to stopping ruminating bad stuff 

I find it such a dreadful shame that so many of us are struggling 

I can relate I’ve been searching for answers my whole life and at newly 44 I still haven’t found any! 

Ok I’m going to get a little philosophical here,I was just thinking today about thriving or surviving,I’m sure many in here can relate,who feels they are thriving or surviving? 

3 hours ago, PolarBear said:

Yup, yup. I was innocent and free from 0 to 11. At 11, the reignn of OCD began. A nightmarish hell. I didn't really live for the next 38 years. Then I took charge and did something. I worked and I recovered. And I started to live again. 6 years and counting. And it's great.

Congratulations

I feel at an age where I’ve realised I’ve pretty mush wasted my life,sure there are things I can do but my passion lies with things I miss doing when I was younger. 

I suppose I’m a way I never really grew up,I still crave going out partying on a Saturday night when people my age are in the village pub discussing the weather and brexit

guess I never grew up! 

I can relate to this as it’s badly affected family,but somehow still can’t manage to put the work in!

Thank you 

Is it possible to be happy in disputes of ocd? 

12 minutes ago, paradoxer said:

How about living a long life, but never having really lived at all, due to forever dancing to OCD's tune? There's a real tragedy for you. 

Agreed!