Hey everyone,
Sorry I haven't posted in a while, thought I would update you all. I am doing fantastically!
I wanted to give a glimpse of hope to any new people, people just starting recovery and family members watching someone go through the hell that is OCD.
Well, I have been in hospital for 7 months now, and am soon(very soon) to be discharged. I went in with rituals controlling my life. Spending 2 hours in the shower, twice a day. Washing my hands over 100 times, every time I needed to ( which includes times which i totally didn't need to). And many other small, time consuming rituals.
After 5/6 months in the Priory not much was helping, my self harm, suicidal ideation and OCD was escualting. So the Priory moved me to a secure hospital called Alpha. Within a month there, i used no hand gel, and currently wash my hands 3-5 times, and have recently managed a 10 minute shower.
So, to people in dispair, I PROMISE you, it does, will and can get better. OCD is a pathetic illness. That little voice in your head telling you i'm lying, that OCD is right, is wrong. OCD thrives on control, repetativness and no change. BUT, one small step at a time and you will realise that you can change your habits.
Say to yourself, it's not me, it's OCD. Give it a name, mines 'Jim'. So, my head will tell me to wash for 2 hours, STOP, that is not me thinking, it is Jim, and Jim can jog on.
You can do this. Message me if you wanna talk.
Smile
Kirsty xxx