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Hi there, I’ve felt exactly the same the past week scared of a nuclear bomb. But I have been watching the news a lot and googling. today I am not going to watch any news or Google and see how I feel. I’ve felt very scared and when I was on my way to work yesterday and everyone was talking on the bus and I felt like am I the only one feeling like this. So then I thought shall I treat this like an ocd obsession because that’s what it has become obsessing we are going to war. I’ve felt incredibly sad for the people of the Ukraine as well so donated where I can. I run my own business and today I’ve had to take a day of as felt so rubbish it’s all I can think about but 2 times this week people have made comments about war and triggered me. I also feel like each day I get worse and I don’t know what to do. So know your not alone. We will be ok and get through this but try to be aware your ocd is probably latching onto this.

Hi, I don’t know where to start with this one as it’s completely new to me. As from my previous posts my ocd has been bad on and of since Christmas I was meant to speak to a phychiatrist last week but the secretary rang to say the new phychiatrist had rang the wrong people so I have a new appointment Monday. My ocd has revolved around different things harm ocd, relationship ocd, religion but the last few weeks a new one has crept it I have been managing but last night it all just became too much I have these weird thoughts like oh I haven’t seen a certain customer for ages and they appear in my shop this happens a lot so I think did I make that happen then last week I thought I’m glad my cat does not bring any birds anymore I went outside and there was a dead bird in the garden. Now the latest one that has really made me feel awful that I didn’t go to work today was on Thursday night I had a dream about my dad he is not here anymore but I dreamt he got drunk came home passed out and his lip was all cut I told my mom about it the next day and that was that. last night my mom called to say her neighbours husband who does not really drink was passed out drunk on the decking and had hit his head quite bad that he would have to be taken to hospital. so I instantly thought omg I had a dream about dad the other night and my mom said isn’t it funny you said that about dad the other night and now this has happened I had a go saying I wish u had not said that and she said Don’t be silly. so for the rest of the night my anxiety was through the roof. woke up feeling awful and just fed up of everything I’m exhausted by it all. I was not sure if I should post on here but I don’t know what else to do. Thanks

Yes you need to make sure your eating even if it’s a little. And keep going it will get easier maybe get some books about ocd overcoming ocd is a good one

Hi there green bunny, Are you in the uk ? If you are could you try reaching out to your doctor via an online form ? I think they all do them now and you can tell them everything that’s bothering you. Also trying to do something even when we feel so low is a step in the right direction even if you feel rubbish little steps. Also like polar bear says looking after yourself rest, relaxation, exercise, diet I’m terrible at this atm I’m only just about to have something to eat and it’s nearly teatime ! ??. I feel so different to everyone like I’m loosing control but deep down I see this is anxiety. hope you can manage to do something even if it’s a small step. Keep strong ?

It’s so nice to see people have recovered . I had 10 years ocd free so I know I can get back there again. It’s strange as I never thought it would happen again which is good but looking back I can see that even though it popped up from time time to I could deal with it through the cbt I had learnt. I know I need to re-educate myself on this. the scary part for me is the low feeling I’m fighting everyday but sometimes it all seems to much as I feel frightened. I look at others going about there day and having a laugh and I want to feel like that again. hope your having a nice day !

Hi Gemma, thankyou for getting back to me it means a lot. yes I’m finding that in the height of anxiety everything seems so so much worse the thoughts are continuously changing for example when I don’t pay attention to a thought and keep busy another one pops up. I slept most of the day yesterday as I was shattered from being back at work but I know I should of got earlier I did get up at 7 and did some tidying up while watching a series I like on Netflix. I’ve woken up this morning anxious and I’m only just really doing some jobs my partner is back home tonight as he has been working away 3 days so that’s good. I’m currently awaiting an appointment from the phychiatrist so my meds can be reviewed. Hope your having a nice day

Hi there, your doing brilliant even by pushing through each day I’m not in to good a place at the minute and I feel similar to you but keep fighting it will get easier. when things get tough be kind to yourself try to do something to take your mind of things even if it’s for a little bit is there anything u enjoy I find watching something silly on tv ? that does not take up too much concentration. even going for a walk. feeling low is understandable when you are dealing with ocd but it will get better are you receiving any treatment ?

I’ve had a fairly good sleep now going to tackle the day a step at a time I have 2 days of we have just had new windows fitted and there’s a right mess so going to do one room at a time. Then do some do some relaxation and things for me. little steps. do you mind me asking how long it took for you to recover once you got diagnosed? did you have therapy and some medications? hope your having a nice day

Hi Polar Bear, thanks for getting back to me ?. your right I’m going to try look after myself more as I don’t ! what does REDS stand for ??? I think sometimes you just need someone to talk to my mom is good but I don’t want to keep worrying her. I have a partner but he works away a lot. can you recommend any good reading materials I’ve read overcoming ocd and break free from ocd but when I do feel low I struggle to concentrate so maybe I need to just watch something lighthearted. Also is it normal to feel like your loosing touch with reality ?

So today was my second day back at work and I’ve been feeling absolutely awful extremely low and scared. I had a panick attack on the bus and a couple throughout the day it’s just horrific. I don’t know if going back to work from not doing anything for a few weeks and with my mom and now back home as she lives 90 miles away has been a shock to the system. im having horrible suicidal thoughts and cause I’m so low they feel real like I just want an escape from it all. my stomach is constant churning I just want to get better. I also have other awful ocd thoughts but I’m struggling to get my head straight so I can see them for what they are. any help would be greatly appreciated

Hi everyone, so I’ve been away at my moms for nearly 2 weeks as have not been well with OCD. I came back home last night as I have to get back to work which I’m really anxious about it’s my own business and I’m so scared about going back. I feel like I can’t cope it’s a retail business so I deal with customers and I’m scared I’ll have a panick attack. today I have felt so not with it I feel like I’m loosing control on reality and I’m thinking about everything it’s a really strange feeling I feel so different from everyone else It’s like im questioning everyone why do we do this and that. ive had it before and I fear like im going crazy. Everything scares me it’s like I don’t know who I am anymore ??.

Hi Handy, thanks for getting back to me I’m trying to keep busy and not give the thoughts too much attention. hope your well

Hi everyone, I’ve been really trying to not pay any attention to the thoughts just let them be there in the background. The intrusive thoughts change continuously it’s like when one gets distant ie I’m keeping busy and not questioning and googling (I know big mistake ) another one comes the latest one I have is horrid I feel like I’ve lost touch with reality like I’m different to everyone else it’s like everyone is going about there day and I feel like I’m loosing it. I question everything why are we here, why is this like that, then I worry I’m going psychotic so I google it it petrifies me. ive had 3 relapses since Christmas I went a whole ten years managing my ocd it was in the background but very distant. the fact that I have had 3 relapses since Christmas petrifies me and I thought after the first one I had got somewhere then had one in April then another one now. im back at my moms again and my mom is amazing but I feel so guilty she is going through this with me again. I get constant butterflies in my stomach and have panick attacks I need to get back home and to my business but I feel scared my mom says I come here to escape when im burnt out from work but im scared of going home even though I know I need to as im around all my home comforts. I live 90 miles away from mom. Thankyou if you have got this far hope everyone is keeping cool ? in this heat

Hi Malina, Thanks for your reply just to let you know you will get through it as well. your right I just need to treat it as a thought and stop questioning it and going down the path of googling. I also finding atm when these thoughts ease another one pops into my head. are you having any treatment atm ?

Hi everyone, Thought I’d do a post to get everything of my chest. the past week I have gone a bit downhill I lost my cat a week today and I was really upset she was 15 and my mate followed me everywhere. Then my father in law has been quite unwell. My partner has been working away quite a bit and I think everything just got too much with running my own business. last week on the Thursday I got worse did not go into work and slept most of the day. then bam intrusive thoughts come at me from all angels they change constantly the worst one has been the suicide thoughts as I struggle to differentiate between are they intrusive or am I feeling suicidal but they scare me so much. then I obsess what if I do get really suicidal and do something and that frightens me they are horrible. I’m at my moms having a break and I’ve had to ring the crisis team twice as I felt so scared. ive been having cbt for quite a while now which has helped I was going to be discharged yesterday but as I’ve took a turn for the worse the last week I’m booked in again for next week. I also have my first psychiatrist appointment tomorrow on the phone which I’ve been waiting since December but I know how busy they have been. can I just say I’ve had a couple of relapses since Christmas but they were my first in 10 years so recovery is definitely possible if you put the work in. im not in a good place atm but I have the fight in me to get better. also has anyone else suffered with the suicidal thoughts? Thanks